Acceptance

Acceptance is when you can take your mindset and get past the things in which are difficult it's not a denial, it's a manner of thought.  Eight years ago I learned that very fast, and I came to understand that there are no perfections within life - but there are the things in which we do wish to have.

When I first came back into Canada back some eight years ago, I had walked into something that was hard to deal with and while I was walking to my car after having been told that my father had two weeks to live and a wife back in New York that was going to fly out but at the time didn’t.  I came to find several things had happened.  For now I really don’t wish to get into it but many have asked me to write a book.  However as time went on there never seemed to be the time to have to write one.  Not kidding....

Getting back to this acceptance concept, I thought at the time while walking to my car I thought how am I going to deal with so many things on my shoulders all at the same time.  I remember so well in going to my car and just and I hoped on it - as it was in the parking lot and I pondered and pondered.  I thought of God, Faith, entire realms of things were coming to my mind.

As it felt so new being back and with the idea of returning back to New York was not in the cards as I then knew that there was no way I could leave until things had come to a closure.  So within this time as I knew when my father had woke out of a comma he gave me a list of people to contact.  Of my office which was (not fiction) within Rockefeller center.  A few things happened that intertwine in New York or more so with my former wife but that is for another day.

We had a different manner back then - the two of us - I made a promise back then and it was during a time in which the prognosis for my father was two weeks to live.  So leading back into my story.  I harvested acceptance - it's the only thing that I could render as I had no control over things. It’s a concept I could understand and allowed me to take on things that were a span of six months, I knew at a certain point that New York was not in the cards and that was hard to take as I missed it so but at the same time it was very different getting used to this place. I can describe when you have worked hard and set down a foundation for you and your own wife and then it vanishes. There is more to that but I might right at sometime. I have not ever had a child but I did take one boy of 4 years of age that was my aunt in laws. She wished that we take him for a while as she thought that he needed a man to give him some foundation.  David was his name. For six months I did that and well that is another story as well.

The major thing at this moment is effectively one hour ago my mother is in the clear, and she will be out of the hospital in short order however here immune system was jeopardized however she is in good hands this is a good thing.  Apparently the Ctscan show nothing except she has a bad situation caused by a host of things.  So this all said here is a question I have if I may.

Was that the work of god?  Or was that the work of the medical practice all encompassed within a manner that brought about something that is worthy of faith?