I am not sure that we can reason everything that takes place in life, at one moment things are going in one direction and then something happens. However, I am at peace with things and I am going to sit outside for a little - it's late I know but I never thought things would happen as they have from 6pm on.
However I keep my faith and integrity with what I do and I am not given the "hard path", nor the path less travelled. It's just life and you deal with it.
My father is the most intelligent man that I know or have and that is not a biased statement it's one that at some time I shall write on. Meanwhile, I am going to see if I can see the moon and the stars.
Yes.
ReplyDeleteThere is no real sense of fairness about life. Don't look for it. God doesn't give out entitlements. We are happiest when we embrace our circumstances for what they are - shared events. At this point in time, someone, many someones, have been where we now are. Just be glad you aren't being singled out, and if possible, rejoice in the history you've had.
Hasta manana.
It's really hard, but just roll with it.
ReplyDeleteI understand this Charles if I may say...
ReplyDeleteI am not all nerves with this - I accept and the one thing is I am taking one friend for a lunch or he may wish to come with me when I head to the hospital in three hours. So you just deal with it, and am man if I may say - especially an one as such as my father is one that can be nurtured with his wife - my mother and as well my sister.
Meanwhile I will be getting the jest as to where things are. And I will probably hit the gym and burn off some steam pending what I find out.
There Lyn that is what I do, I flow with it all and if it was the first time something like this happened it would be much different but yesterday as he was too stubborn to take an ambulance - to get the man in the car was something that took convincing and then some help with a neighbor.
ReplyDeleteThereafter he realized that if he did not go in he would have died last night - his own reality check. So sometimes one can think they know it all and be so rigid, but that was a big wake up call for him.
Not or me. I am not a hero, but I am diligent especially with things of this nature.
I'm glad you convinced him to go, it would be much harder for your mom if he had passed at home. Take care.
ReplyDeleteJack...
ReplyDeleteKnow that your other "family" here in Florida is praying for you and your dad during this time. I know the back and forth of a cancerous situation, and it is trying at times...the waiting, the updates, the scares, the hope. You are well equipped in so many ways, my friend. Get to the gym when you can, though. It will recharge your own batteries is some healthy ways. Your bro...
Grounding yourself to the earth and the universe is a very appropriate thing right now, Jack. Take care...and I will send lots of light and love your way....
ReplyDeleteAs a child.. no matter how old we are.. we fear the loss of a parent.. they are our guiding light.. our moral compass.. our sounding board.. our rock.. our cheerleader. We fear.. the loss of so many things.. to feel that loss.. to be orphaned.. it doesn't matter if you're four or seventy-four. No matter what happens.. you are him.. and he is you. It's all part of that great circle of life.
ReplyDeleteHe knows this.. and has spent a lifetime.. preparing you for that day.. he doesn't do it willingly.. but.. he does it out of love. To show you.. that you have the strength.. to do what is needed.. when that time comes. There shall come a time.. but.. until it does.. to worry about it.. isn't helpful either. Hand your worries over to god.. he's going to be up all night anyhow.
Stay strong.. your father needs that.. he needs to know.. no matter what.. he's prepared you for what life brings. Be it life.. or riding the light to the next dimension.
((HUGS))
Am doing Rick, I just arrived home and mom with a friend went into see him. Say hi to your sister as well as your mother. Peace there bro...
ReplyDeleteDoing it now Jerene, I am going to take a good rest for a while as I went there and the best thing is just to let things be. For a rainy Saturday, I am just going to take it easy and watch a movie on the satellite. I might go in again tonight we shall see.
ReplyDeleteThanks much Jerene...
Thanks much ironically there is my friend that I was raised with in NY that made a comment I would have never expected it. He knows the entire story and well we go all the way back to grade 4...
ReplyDeleteYes this cycle of life, I leave things up to what they will be and I am at peace with all of this. Anyhow it's life.
Take care of yourself too in the midst of all the stress, Jack.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your father, hoping for the very best.
I wish I could put on my other computer and say something on voice - I am in my zone, with a regards to what really is taking place and I thank you very much so...recently as I think you can see I change my face box - if that is what you call it. It was on exactly the same day that then this all happened.
ReplyDeleteNot kidding - so I understand where things are at and for some reason and I don't know why I am not stressed out - I did get tired today and effectively May a position came up for myself. So we shall see what comes about in the outcome of all of this.
Once again, I wish I had good sound and could make mention as sometimes the words don't come out right.