I love it when something comes to you and you have something from which to offer. Right now it's not all that way as cancer has come back to hit my family and I am the one that is holding it all up right now. I am keeping this strictly within my contacts as it's really not something I wish to share with the entire internet.
Within it all, I often ponder the reason that all this has come to my family. I do have my own faith base. I find that certain karma from which to write something that I feel is of value. I can be honest with you that it's been a very hard ordeal, but with that said I am making the best of it.
Has it been getting to me? I would say yes and no, as I know when I need to stop and relax. I know that you can say, "I wish I did this the other way" or " I wish I could have done something else another way", but the reality is this is where things are for myself and seemingly I have always worked it out. Taking all things into account.
Certainly this is the Internet and it is a blog - but to preoccupy oneself it often the merits of keeping busy under times that may be of extreme pressure. In the past I have seen those blogs or should I say people that are writing and are enjoying things - just a few weeks I was but right now I am a tad more retrospective, but not allowing this all to get me down.
Returning here from Edmonton was something I desired, I did not think that as soon as I arrived back here. It's much that came on all at one time and this is where you just hold on to your own structure of faith.
I don't know most of you at all - but the merits of the words I think do resonate something of some worthiness, I would hope. We will never meet within our lifetimes but our exchanges are something that are obviously something that are cherished and are relevant.
Im so sorry and I understand so very much. I am dealing with it as well. I have 3 cousins that has it and battling as we speak. It is never pretty. Like my cousin says you are in the fight of your life. I am praying that all will be better soon.
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Oceans, Debby <*))))<<<
I don't have the cancer - my sister found out after her ordeal with a mass in her intestines was taken out that she has to go back on Monday - that is two maladies within one. Then my father is one that has beat cancer but has come to be a bitter man. I think in reading your blog I knew where you were coming from Deb.
ReplyDeleteIt's not a pretty thing - it's an ordeal and gosh I never thought this would all take place as it had over the last two weeks. But dealing with it...I love to write thought - and it's just not there but it's not fiction..
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Thanks Colash....I don't know you much from reading your blog but enjoyed reading it and sending a message to you as men have this thing called being proud, and I am not too proud to write within my contacts of where things are - thank you.
ReplyDeleteYou have a lot on your sholders Jack. It must be difficult to be the one that is carrying the load alone and yes you must know when to take a break for you are no good to yourself or anyone else if you don't.
ReplyDeleteAlthough our family has been hit hard with a medical situation, thankfully there are several to share that load.
Hope you get some "Jack" time this weekend. Enjoy that time.
Thanks Denise, I think that you recall the old saying of "you know", well in some fashion there is a manner from which one does attend to things. After all is done then you can "breath" again. Only a person knows how that is when they are in those shoes. I find the time. Right now I am pondering why lol - my this multiply is acting so strange and slow...
ReplyDeleteBut thank you to the one that is like a relative and then some!
How will we ever know the sunshine...if we never see the rain? Hugs...and strength to you.....
ReplyDeleteNamaste' my friend...
ReplyDeleteFew years ago, this place was all I had to vent about the fear that consumed me in my fathers 3 aggressive cancers... s'not like I could talk to the family... they had their own fears to deal with. Course some days we cried in each others arms.. but for most parts, we stayed strong so not to suck precious energies.... as I'm sure you know. Sending positive vibes!
ReplyDeleteI can't really think of anything to say that I haven't said before. So I'll just offer a friendly HUG.
ReplyDeleteI think everyone said it already. Take care.
ReplyDeleteThank you and a good morning.
ReplyDeleteVery excellent story...
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, I am usually not a complainer. But it will all pass.
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Holding things in often increases the stress which increases the problems. If you have your list narrowed down to eliminate the troublemakers, you shouldn't have a problem. There ARE those of us who are genuine and who care.
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting that I found this blog just after posting two articles related to stress causing cancer, one of which that it also causes heart problems.
Here's a quote from the top of my page:
“Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don't Matter and Those Who Matter Don't Mind.” ~ Dr. Seuss
I'm sorry to hear that it is now your sister strugglin with another ordeal. I am however glad your father is on the mend. You have shown great strength even from the first time we spoke. It truly is a lot to carry on ones shoulders. Continue on the path of the spiritual level you carry. It will help keep you strong and focused. Dont forget to take some time for yourself just to breathe and relax. Hugs Jack ~ Leavin a basket of postive energy ~
ReplyDeleteI value your willingness to share your situation right now, Jack. I can see you have a lot of inner strength in between those words. Most of us have been at least close to where you are and know who much--or how little--words can mean when you are going through a stressful personal situation. Please don't stress over what you might or might not have said or done. Live in the present as much as you can. I wish you better days.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a very prolonged situation that has been happening and I will be honest with you I feel that I have made a fool of myself as I have been writing where it's anythingn but the things that I enjoy. Your very correct with this as it's something that I have dealth with before and now unfortunately I am trying to get out of this "funk". But at the same time I have these things to tend to.
ReplyDeleteI know so much now on my my older brother stayed away from this ordeal since the beginning of it all when it did start.
Like many have said "There is not much one can say". This is my own time writing now on Sunday.
I remember people complaining or that was what I looked at it as and now I do empathize with them.
It's a very good quote...
Doug doing that as much as I can right now. It's been the only time that I have to myself. Better days shall come. Thank you much.
ReplyDeleteStarting in November, I lost 3 family members to cancer and now my mom is in the hospital with pneumonia. Sometimes you think, "When will it all end?" Sometimes you just have to get things off your chest. Blogging can be a great outlet and sometimes you find that there are others experiencing similar things to what you are experiencing. Your GOOD online friends can be somewhat of a support group.
ReplyDeleteBecause of the way my last aunt's funeral was being handled, I didn't go. If they're not going to invite close relatives because they are poor or because they don't approve of their lifestyle, I'm not going to go, either. I decided they could do without me. The funeral isn't really for the person who passed, but for the family. The poor ones loved her more than the wealthy ones, and since they were forbidden to be there, I figured the wealthy ones could comfort themselves with their money.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Jack. Hold on.
ReplyDeleteDoing fine here just not much into this right now but I must say that the fires in Australia that have taken place of recent are something that are constantly on television and prayers go out to thos that reside there.
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