TGIF & THANK YOU

There are some which don't know that I had a situation which landed me within the hospital right after Christmas. When I came out after a near mini stroke, I knew that I had areas of which I would have to hold off on and understand that it would take some time. I don't mind at all in sharing this. It was a time of which I nearly lost some of my cognitive areas. There were two ways in which I could take it. I could be patient and go at my own speed in retaining my health. Or I could have just waivered.

I was the last to think that I would be one that would have something of this sort. I thereafter left obstacles away. Yet at the same time I didn't wish for anyone to pity me. There is malice side to that pity area whereby everyone says, "I hope your well". You tend to feel like you old and everyone can be hit with depression. With the weather the way it was when I arrived home it was cold and I was alone but I want not lonely. The day before all of this happened I was burning the candle at both ends. Even though I knew it was the wrong way to go. But I had this obligation effect with family - especially with family.

I remember writing with my normal writing hand and not being able to write that well. As well there were other things which had hit me but there were some of you which stayed with me. And I do thank you for that. There is power within authenticity and for those whom remember of which there is probably a few. I would go walk in -30 below zero weather. I knew that if I didn't challenge myself I would falter but I did it and on the side I have been writing things - there good things. As well, it's surprising when things get tough how the positive manifestations can happen.

It's not been a perfect ride, but more so a glide and I still have my work cut out for me yet I believed in everything being within cadence. It there was not some synchronicity within my life I would not have found my placement or grounding. I could barely swallow well. I had a team of medical people but I had no means of expression. I was literally on my own. Offline and within life I chose to let my pride down and not care of what people thought of me. As I knew I had to take the time to rekindle some of my neuro areas and if not I am not sure where I would be. I never looked at the negative things but I thought of the positive aspects. And every two weeks I would look back to see what had been accomplished.

Within all of that I know that people can play hoaxes but I truly placed things in a way which was required of me as well as I opted for the good things and the thought I had was for one month after I was out of the hospital that I would start my own memoires. I still have done this but I know that there is still time for more improvement. Today I saw my one doctor and the great thing was in how he illustrated the improvements that I had made as well he has always been a reinforcement. I think we all do need that as human beings we are that of the sort which do need to be around others.

I have had good things which have come my way. And I do count my blessings as this has been a means of communication for me. Not entirely but obviously to an extent. five months ago I never thought I would be jogging. I never thought I would be able to do things on my own but I have. Things are not perfect yet life is within the imperfections and aside of pulling a tendon on my trapazeus which I found out this morning. I have been blessed within the faith I have. To some extent I will mix up my writing but from one that was staggering around for a month within the winter. I have come a long distance without thinking about the distance.

My self esteem is much higher yet not too high. My passions are there much more than there as I do wish to do some thing which yet are realistic. I have met a few ladies but at the same time I know that there is the right time and I don't throw all the eggs within one basket. Actually I am and always have been conservative when it comes to that.

Most of all I know the days, numbers, logic, emotions, and the areas which are within the last or second last step in my neurological recovery of what was a near mini stroke. I pace myself, without too much of a pace now and what I learned from it all is before I had a few very harsh years. Now seemingly I understand that I have a good 35 to 40 years to go within this life here as we know and for those whom have been there during the times of which accepted me when I did a write about what had happened as I was not online for a good five weeks. I wish to thank you. Nothing in life is perfect but I am very content but not too content - as I desire to do that push and for those whom understood and accepted me during this time. I wish to say thank you. I don't talk much about myself as I never was all that self inclined. But yet, I don't drive at night and I am advised not too for one more month so I take pleasure within the simple things.

With all things said, I have seen where people have made remarkes on me without knowing what I had and have been doing. I thought now was a good time to declare what took place and as well where I am at as I literally have done much much more and never wrote about it.

Most of all what I wished to say on this Friday was THANK YOU.

~ As some understood while others never really looked closer but were very critical during a time in which I was walking the mile ~