I have found that many do feel that I am down. I balance this out but today's date I will say this much. I have had family members that have been sick - I don't focus on it as now for myself. I have a new situation with regards to my health.
I am having a test for bone cancer and it's merely a test. I am not depressed, actually to the contrary. I am on another on call situation here. I in no way shape or form am down. There are and have been times since I have had medical ordeals with all my family, it did hit me but those are long over due.
I keep my chin up within all of this and sometimes rumours fly high. But I have just arrived home and am expecting a friend, so there it is. Depression - no. I am just working through all of this and I have never felt down but I do truly thank you for those that have wrote. I am never online during the daytime - and I will be on later.
If you think the world has done you wrong then it has. Certainly there have been times that have been taxing as in the evening I do leg pain. So it shall all work it self out and good things come only to those that have the attitude to keep things on the up and up.
One can't be on here sometimes and I have been through some serious things with my family but now my focus is on me. Not in the sense of pity but as I say going with the flow. So that resolves the issue that came about last night.
I by no means am perfect, but I think on the up and up sometimes that might be confused by the way of wording. However I look at the positive sides of things and not going back in time but rather going forward. As I shall. And I will...
It's all within a state of mind as well faith...those that sort of know me know where I stand, but I just arrived home and I have company shortly but I wanted to place in this write. Nothing changes with my routine nor shall it...we all have our own prerogatives as well as things within life.
There are some very good friends on here and I thought this now needed to be addressed...
I see you have courage. Our attitude is important no matter what happens.
ReplyDeleteHi Jack! I must have missed something, so I won't ask "what issue?" ...though, you know me, always the inquisitive one. I'm glad you're keeping on the positive side of things.
ReplyDeleteI hope your tests go well..keep that positive attitude.
ReplyDeleteYour positive spirit shall be of great help to you with whatever challenges lie ahead. And yes do keep your chin up and know that thoughts and prayers of caring people are on your side.
ReplyDeleteYour positive attitude is "half the battle" when it comes to fighting cancer or any serious disease. Stay positive and know that your Multiply friends are here for you!! Thanks for letting us know. We are your on-line support system!
ReplyDeletei've not been thinking you were depressed, but i'm glad you feel strong and in good mood!
ReplyDeleteWishing you a wonderful evening with your company! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI do and I don't focus on the negative, I had some company and they are now gone but all in all it's merely a test and life goes on.
ReplyDeleteAttitude DJ, I feel is everything.
No worries as Deb I keep it on the up and up and so I came right out with it of course I should have not sent it out to everyone but I make mistakes and I am human.
ReplyDeleteNo one knew of this and I I don't really wish to send out to everyone but I thought I might as well.
Danni, I am sure they will, and between now and when I get that call I don't thrive or think on it - as it's just a test and I can say that it has been a whammy in tending to all of it. But I am not looking for sympathy I just thought I would write about it and leave it at that. No fiction here, but no need for pity either.
ReplyDeleteThey do and I think that you know all too well, there have been several variables but I keep it on the up and up but it's good I find in having friends.
ReplyDeleteI know what kind of test it is but it's all within how one thinks and places it into perspective and then some.
Terri, I thank you and I don't mind and I am not doing some hoax as in reference to "I am still here" there were several reason why I had not been online, aside of that I always love to write within the evenings, mind you at this time was best. I appreciate it but "out of sight and out of mind" is what I wish and when I receive the call for the date, I shall write on it. And here to it's just a test - but I do thank you as you have been along with some others a very understanding person. Very much so.
ReplyDeleteThis is a fraction of my life as I have tended to three other people as well have been through tests on these knees up till yesterday and when finally. I was so happy to see that there is a test being done although it will not be much fun - but it does not last long. This winter I shall be back in the gym and doing what I wanted to several months ago.
Amalie, I have had ups and downs but more ups than downs. And I always love to have something from which to write about as we all do.
ReplyDeleteNot in denial here but know that I know my ways and I have worked with pain for some time now. At first doctors thought it was Parkinson's, then it's still a quandary and finally when I had another specialist tend to this whom is a oncologist that was called in he made the request to have a bone marrow test done.
So I have seen it done, not scared of it and aside of winter being around the corner I work things out. My mood is .........I feel good that I finally got this out there.
Am I alone - no. Am I on the up and up. Very much so, but at a certain time my joints really do play havoc with me. my previous post was one that brought this about.
I am not some kid behind a computer or playing any hoaxes - I look at the good sides of things.
The two of them were friends that came over as they had the day off today. But thank you Arrielle. If I may what is that lol as your image icon?
ReplyDeleteHad to ask :)
Best to you always Jack!! :)
ReplyDeleteGlad you had company and a great day! LOL, I changed it back. A friend posted an avatar hat theme so I had to pick one with a hat but I just couldn't choose one!
ReplyDeleteThanks Denise...
ReplyDeleteI can see ya! :)
ReplyDeleteLOL!
ReplyDeleteHave a pleasant evening Jack... ((Hugs))
ReplyDeletehope the tests turn up negative for cancer jack. prayers again.
ReplyDeleteKeep us posted. I will be worrying but also sending up some prayers.
ReplyDeleteI hope this with come out well in the end for you, Jack. You sound very grounded and as positive as can be in such circumstances. I hope there are people who can be there fro you as have been for your parents.
ReplyDeleteYou will be in a lot of people's thoughts and prayers in the next few days on this site; of that I have no doubt.
Healing thoughts and prayers for you Jack. Hope you had a good day with your friends.
ReplyDeleteLydia I am not thinking about it but I will say this much it was good to finally get this of my chest. I dont think that many realize and what Terri said especially is something that has really touched me and I feel like I can say anything I wish. Hence I really do feel good with regards to this.
ReplyDeleteI have seen and been in the room while one family member has had a bone marrow done, and I know how short a period so I just flow along with things and maintain my way right now. Thanks you and here is the render of acceptance.
Karyn, I know your not on at this time but if you could mention to three old friends I would appreciate it as well coming from you I thank you.
ReplyDeleteI would worry if this kept going and there was nothing done, so I am all fine with this. It's just a test and shall be negative.
And then I can kick myself in the butt and one doctor and hmmmm take it from there...Then it's time for the funny farm! :)
Yesterday afternoon one especially I met with he was the first friend I had when I moved to Canada and one old high school girl friend which is married but it was good and I thank you for the mention Mia, as well,I look forward to doing something creative with something that you have.
ReplyDeleteYou are very kind.
Dear Jack, I hope that the result of the test give you good news! And if the news is less than you have hoped for, I pray for the strength and courage to fight the good fight and keep a positive outlook! Hugs, Teri.
ReplyDeleteTeri,
ReplyDeleteWith all said I am waiting and at the same time I will go out and do things and I remember when I moved back here and you narrated one of my writes, I don't think back then within the cold I knew how hard it was becoming as but my outlook it very optimistic. The one thing that I do know is that I am in the system - ironic as I think about it right now and all the turmoil with this term called "health". But I am glad.
I will have my legs back and I will not have this pain - not on any pain killers and I am alergic believe it or not to tylenol - so I just make the very best of it.
Not down but very up beat. I can't describe that feeling but I do thank you more than you know.
Say hi to Flushing Meadows for me!
*smile* Will do, my friend!
ReplyDeleteJack. I see you DO have a positive attitude. Best wishes with the tests. I will be out of the country for several weeks, so I guess I'll have to catch up on the results later.
ReplyDeleteHarriet yes I do....I have seen this process and the one thing I do know regardless of anything is in keeping my immune system on the up and up. Your situation is a magnificient story to say the least. I have found when working with those within my family and others back when I returned to Canada due to the first initial cancer within my family is it's all in the state of mind and yet at the same time the objective of having a purpose thereafter.
ReplyDeleteMy bone marrow is set for the 5th of October.