Beauty within a Breath

The heavens murmur while the sounds shine

Those stars up there seem to love the thunder

Making music within the intertwine

An exchange as I raise my hand

I can feel the drops of water on my palm

Soon this shall pass

The naked branches shall flourish

The trees seem to be reaching for the skies

Waiting for the sun to render it rays

Inhaling it all I breath the treasure

That is rendered at this time of the year

They fulfills my breath

As the performance

Is that of the beauty of nature

The simplicity of the treasures are rendered

I breathe it in and exhale it out

While the beautify of nature unveils

What unfolds

 

 

~jgs~

Writings are Amazing

Those creative ones if you know what I mean. It reaches out and everyone relates to it from there own vantage. Some are more prone to being able to do it and it's something that I find to be most interesting as one can take a word and then flow with it and create something.

Just a mention,

And sincerely my name is John but since birth I have been called Jack

 

It's Amazing the Writes One Reads

I mean those that can get into that flow and right something that is more than a picture.  For myself at time the words flow, I love to get into that groove and just write and sometimes does and sometimes it does not.

Hence for what it's worth I bid you a great Thursday and up above I will place on a song.

 

Peace,

Jack

100 Days of Change...

There is no doubt that President Obama has made a movement happen, and of recent we are seeing that that goes along with Michelle his wife along with him. I was in amazement with him prior to his term. My thoughts prior to the election where that he may be too young to take the office and in the next election he might do much better. Yet such intelligence.

And look at all the things that he has faced since he has come into office. Don't get me wrong I think very highly of him but perhaps he had so many things to tend to that he has went to fast and now he is slowly starting to adjust his speed with all that is taking place.

Certainly he has made some mistakes, certainly he has tried and is continuing to do the best that he can do to maintain an agenda, which still had the values that he had lived on in the manner of change. My own feeling is that if we could go back and he did not have the economy hit so fast - actually right after the campaign he would have been able to do much more. Yet aside all things, I still have faith in what he is doing.

I think that a person can only do there best - even a leader of a nation. I do hope that things start to work out much more in his favor over the next 265 days. After the last eight years, I have always believed it would take a leader two terms to really get things adjusted.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/whitehouse/show/

The Considerations of life

Consideration is that word that is prevalent in each of our societies. We all have some manner that we all can be self indulgent meanwhile at the same time consideration may go with compassion.

I think there is much to say with regards to considerate people. We all read the news and we all have those areas in which we think about. Everyone is different yet as I have always maintained it's all within the choices that we make and how we are rooted as well a brought up I would suppose.

We consider our own destinies, what our desires are the tasks we have at hand in the moment. Yet for myself I leave that door open with possibilities. Hmm just thinking...

 

Pour Te!

For you I hope you and your family are well let me know this is just going to you. Jack

 

The Swine Flu

Well we have seen many things this year. But this is one that hits dearly to my heart with a friend that lives right in Mexico City. I have known her and her family for years and unfortunately this is the place that this swine flu has started.

I don't believe that this will become a pandemic in my own opinion. My hopes are that it can be contained as soon as possible. It seemingly has spread even up into parts of Canada and over into Europe yet I do believe in the manner it's being taking into consideration by governments by way of the medical areas of countries all over the world. I am optimistic it will be contained and will come to a deminish before too long.

http://www.redcross.org/

There really is not much more than one can say...

 

 

The Last Sunday of April...

Well it was just one of those days that seem to be relaxing and calm. Mind you there is much that does go on from midday onwards. The weather has yet to really get to the degrees of where it ought to be for this time of year but after the heading to the gym, I went out and did what I enjoy so much right now and take pictures.

There seems again to be so much happening within the world right now looks at the flu that is coming from Mexico. We live in such an information age that I think it's good and yet I received an email from a friend of mine I Mexico that all the schools and everything have been closed.

We are living in different times and yet we still do the things in which we wish to do. I met up with my cousin and we had our Sunday morning coffee as she had to work for the afternoon and sometimes you just have to tune things out and just do your own day in your own way.

Easy goes the day as it did...

 

 

A tad of Rural and a little Football....

Here on Sunday the university team was practicing when I got back into town, as I was out earlier in the morning looking for some rural pictures. I used to play football while living in the USA - can't say I was great at it but was a big fan of the Dallas Cowboys.

I was able to get in past the gates and the coach allowed me to get the shots and ahh it's interesting - why not!

In Canada there is CFL – which really has is not comparable to hockey but it’s something that comes with all seasons as baseball and football as sports are one of the most watched next to…watching the weeds grow on the rural range!

The Ole Swing

How we used to cut the lawns and tend to all the things that as children we do it’s something that I recall as there was so much fun as there was nothing we would presume – just doing it and without the thought of anything more. Out in shorts and seeing how many bees we could catch in a jar without being stung – there were all ten of us kids that at around the age of five we would just embark within the morning and come back with so many stories.

 

We did not have all that much but we enjoy every little thing that we were doing even though it really would not mean all that much. All would go back into the undeveloped area of land and come back with stories of how many snakes we saw or and then all would count up to see how many bees.

 

After it all there was a yell from Kip’s mother that was a rather large mother – she was, and within the entire neighborhood you could hear her holler everyone within what was known as Hiller Heights knew what who’s voice that was.

 

Then thereafter lunch we would all gather around and think of the next excursion to do, how often we would climb up Weeping Willows that were so large that by they time we got up there it took us have a day to get back down.

 

As we had a total of some 30 trees there was a hammock as well as a swing. Now and then everyone sat on that swing. The swing weathered the storms of the winter as well as the great times of the summer. Now and then there were strong winds but the swing weather the storms and was always there as you could see it as a child from your bedroom when you gazed out in the backyard at night.

 

The swing seemingly withstood nature as well as serviced many during the three seasons of  the year.

 

Just a Mention...

Spring is obviously here however it's not at warm as it should be for this time of year. There are a few things that I found is that there are some small troubles in posting some of the things within here as I had duplicates and my replies back I am not sure where working but all that said today was a nice day not all that warm but not that cold, yet yesterday believe it or not we had some snow flakes for an hour.

Today I went around taking several pictures I just wanted to enjoy my own self time if you know what I mean. This is one of a few that stand out to me. What would go with it would be something that probably takes one back in time. It's been a while since I have been in that writing mode if you know what I mean but this represented many things.

 

Variations by the Lens

A variety of pictures that I thought I would take one is of a very neat coffee house as well as there are several others. I thought I would take them all and place them within.

Picture Perfect - Horizons

I am still getting used to this but I choose to pic a picture that I had from two or three weeks ago. Within this group of Picture Perfect....

Risky But Why Not

For myself I have everyone here on my contact list as friends, if I may ask am I on your contact list, I really do find the friend that are in there are of worth.

 

Choices and Options - A Share....

In the time of a single second, our lives can change immeasurably because life moves at a pace more rapid than anything we can consciously understand sometimes. But many, if not most, of the choices we make each and every day are the product of instantaneous reactions most of the time. Having a significant impact on what we do and how we do it. It is for this reason that we should learn to wield what control we can over the different things that do come our way. If take into account that all we think and act upon will shape the existence we so very well understand and live within each and every day.

 

Can we take a deliberate action and make a change, where there is a need for change? Seemingly the nature most of all of us is based on a routine in which we are understand and are used too. However we do change and we do have that choice of how we make our choices.

 

 

Hypothetically, if we all were students we would have an ever changing routine based on new subjects to study, books that had to be read, and papers that would have to be turned in at a certain time. Not to mention tests. There would not be a choice. We would either succeed in abiding by what we have to shift our thoughts towards or we would fail.

We would not only fail grades, we would fail ourselves.

 

If our intention was to obtain something we better be sure in what we desire to do. As I recall how many left school at some point in time because it was not convenient and they were not going to make a change in any manner.

Drop outs in high school that could have continued as they had the means and as well as the ones that dropped out of university after the first three months. Regardless of how much schooling we have had, it's a scenario from which to make a point.

 

 

If we look at the aspects of life that lay ahead of us, we find those choices as close for some and as so far out of reach for others. But we all do have the chance and privileges of our own choices. We do have that choice.

Decisions and more decisions - but how many times does one look deep within and make the decisions to challenge themselves and embark on something new.

 

For the ones that have made and taken the risk in making transitions are some of the people we have come to see as the sphere of our influence. For my existences and choices as well as yours are the consequences of our thoughts/actions. Making all of us our own building system of growing people by way of our actions, choices that not only give way to a direction but also continually lends the growth.

There is and There Is Not

Not much here today it was one of those days that was just blah if you know what I mean.

I am trying to get back in synch with writing and hopefully it will come to me just like anything else it's about getting into that zone.

Going to think about it but one thing is for sure - the cooler weather did come back!

 

The People You Meet...

I met three men from India, how often there is an array of people from all over that go to this gym I train at and as we were sitting in the steam room we were talking about all the news that has been happening.

Seemingly, they were not reserve we hit it off and then we really engaged in a 20 minute discussion. It was most interesting to engage in a talk of this nature as I gained more of an understanding of there society.

What I found very ironic is that they had the same feelings on international matters. We talked about all the Middle East and they were very decent people. I find that it's so interesting to engage in conversations as such and it's something that it's much more interesting than the news as your getting right from people that lived there.

I can place a finger on it but how within this gym all people merge together and it's both women and men. Not within the steam room mind you but it's still very interesting to come to understand in real life a variety of people.

I asked them what was the one thing that they found so different with Canada. They said that within one year they have never seen it so cold.... taking all into consideration they come from the western region of India and they never have seen snow nor the cold that we went through this year.

What is Fan box and what is Tweeter?

I get these things in my email and I just click and delete them as I have no understanding of what they are. I really do mean that if you have the time please do explain I would appreciate it.

Rod Stewart - Your In My Heart

LIKE EVERYONE ELSE

Separation and division is the central key as to why there are so many problems in the world.

The Ego is looking out for some reason why they alone are somehow above the crowd so that their own personal experiences are better than the average common people.  Individuals want to feel special, as if their own life experience is something in which no one else can understand or relate. In fact, most people are almost in shock when they bond with someone else who seems to understand them as no one else can.

Some take pride if the fact that they view themselves as misunderstood as it is somehow glamorous to be so tragic while others go into another extreme and brag of being so popular as if there is no other place to be.

Like minded individuals can get together for a common purpose and when ego takes over the group feels as if it is misunderstood by everyone else and they are somehow above the people outside of the group. Groups can form to be cliques, clubs, churches, gangs, armies, and countries. No matter what you label it, the group will somehow feed into the common ego that their life experience, happiness, heartaches, pains, ad joys are somehow wrong or evil or someone to be avoided.

Such thinking is the core as to why people fail to connect to other. One group believes is supreme and the others have no rights as they do, in fact, they believe everyone outside of the group as some how interior and not deserving of the same merits of humanity.

This can quickly turn to prejudice, hatred, intolerance and lead to acts of war, violence, aggression and cruelty. This kind of thinking keeps hungry people starving, abused people in fear, and poor people in poverty. It enslaves your mind, even if you are in the group, which deprives other of equality.

Just look, we do have our own unique quirks and ways to do things among our peers, but chances are somewhere in the world you will find a few dozen people with all those exact qualities. It is inside, where really counts, that we are all equal.

The color of our skin, weight, height, shape and other outside features do not make you who you really are, it is your reaction to how people treat you because of your features that make you who you are. Twins with identical features could be subjected to the same rude comments from people who want to find a way to discount their importance by calling them on a physical feature. One twin could get offended by such remarks and adopt an attitude of hatred for those who don’t look like her. The other twin could forgive those and live her life in peace, waiting for those who will accept her as she acts herself.

Your religion or spiritual beliefs do not make you who you are, it is how you practice what you preached. Some like to brow beat a certain faith as hypocritical because they know members of that church who are sinners according to the beliefs they profess. In fact, there are hypocrites in every faith who hide behind them for various reasons. They have nothing to do with those who truly believe in that faith. To discount all faith on behalf of the handfuls of liars in a slap in the face of those who are doing what they believe.

There is no one correct way to review life. Just as 10 witnesses to a car accident can come up with 10 different accounts of the scene that would be correct in their own point of view, the over 6 billion people in the world make their own correct judgement of life depending on what they are personally seeing. Someone who grows up in a life of exclusive luxury and not exposed to poverty will see life in a whole different light than one who lives in a third world country who is in abject poverty. One is not a better way to view life than the other, they are just different points of view in the literal sense. One sees life most likely as a great abundance and the other might see life as harsh and both would be correct.

We are all creatures who want the same exact things in life. That is the humanity within us that makes us equal. When the ego takes over, we neglect the fact that others have that same essence of life and quests we do.

We all want love. When we become balanced within ourselves and learn to love ourselves, we want love, not false dependency. We want respect. We want to achieve our goals. We want to be remembered. We want to feel special. We want our basic needs to be met with the least amount of resistance. We want peace. We want a quality in our lives. We want health and mental well being.

No one really wants to live in fear and conflict. No one wants to feel physical or emotional pain. No one wants to be hated, neglected, abused, starved, enslaved or disrespected. There are some twisted minds too caught up in the ego that have warped the essence of humanity that they would debase themselves and others. That is not the true nature of man. That is sick mind in control of a runaway vehicle.

Ironically, it is also human nature that brings out the best of humanity in a time of crisis. Our own need for self preservation can come out when we see our safety and security threatened, we tend to band together to help each other. Many people like to describe an end time scene where man will turn against man and kill each other, in a quest to survive. History will point out otherwise. During times of famine, earthquakes, acts of war, terrorism or any other disaster, people generally will help others in need when and how they can. Of course there will always be the losers and people who are deprived of their true essence of humanity, but for the most part you will find hones, decent people who will help another person in need if they can do something.

If we ever want to live in a world of peace, we are simply going to have to get over our own ego. We must be true to our own nature and ourselves. We must also learn to respect and allow others to be instead of controlling how we think they must be. We are all looking at the same world from different angles with the same inner needs, hopes and desires. We all will make mistakes as we learn how to play the rules in this game called life. Just because we do not see eye to eye does not mean we won’t come to our own right way to live, to think and to Be…

 

A Great Week To Ya...

Simple Sunday...

The weather has really turned on here. Early this morning I got up and headed to the gym. There are several new staff that are working now at the gym after my workout, I wanted to take several pictures and as well I wanted to get some photos of Kendo. But apparently they have moved.

I know the teacher, as he is an older man from Japan that had given me a token back before I have left to move to another city. However they have changed when they have their classes and I will have to find out when they are practicing. While leaving within the morning many older people were doing their walks. I have to tell you kudos to them. There is one that had a stroke and she walks with a little wobble but she probably does a good one hour. It’s still a little cool here in the morning but I find that the weekends are something that seemingly are the best part of the day.

Thereafter I headed down to another part and as the one’s that I know here are either within there final studies with the university or they are at work as now we do live in a time in which it’s not a Monday through too Friday. So I ended up over at this park. By this time I could feel my legs were starting to feel what I had done, and I then went to this mall where my cousin works and just had a brief coffee with her.

Seemingly everyone is busy these days, but I still find the most interesting manner in meeting people and creating bonds with some are in having this hobby. Meanwhile I am have almost uncovered this entire city within my blog with the exception of a few places.

 

It was a just a simple Sunday. As mentioned before I ran into this older gent in the gym as well, I ran into a man that came here from Europe and I had not seen either of them in some two years if not more.

I came home and went back out and there was one of six golf courses that now have people starting their hobby. I only played the game five times and I never really took to it but I while living here in the summers I was given access to run earlier in the morning on the greens. I picked that up as I recall a friend back in New York that was rated as number 5 as a marathon runner.

 

 

I am not sure if I will be running like I used too, as I used to run one hour in late spring and then I would cross train in the later on at days end. 

 

What I found is that it was like a meditation while you got into that zone of training and you would just free up

everything and just focus on the surroundings.

 

 

 

http://initiativestain.multiply.com/photos/album/130/Yes_Spring_has_Arrived

 

 

Peace full Intermission :)

I was always treated people, as I would like to be treated, and this is something I've always lived by.

We all not are completely alike, yet there seems to be something whereby there are some that will play the games and I do have a messenger I have very often not used it as I think that some may have it interconnected with their blog. I am not into the underhanded foreplay. I don’t think anyone else is as well. Or most.

I always have been most honest in what I write and recently I don’t know how all the gizmos work on here – as I opened up my messenger yesterday and I literally took everyone off it with the exception of a few that don’t on multiply. Basically when it comes down to it I don’t have my messenger set up to “everyone” it only goes out within my network of contacts.

I hope this addresses some of the situations here as there is array of people and each person is different yet with that all said we all are alike within a human factor and certainly we all can have differing opinions but I do believe in the ideal of writing and you do get to know so very nice people. But as I have said before, I am not on here for anything but enjoyment and here is a question as I get so many within my email – what is this tweeter?

It’s not about where we are it’s more about having a mutual respect for each and everyone with maybe some respect towards another. That is my feelings on all of this. Respect is a easy word, that has many things that go with it. Ironically I saw it and was in awe when  I saw it within this Picture Perfect – and the people and the founder of it really had the merits that really stood up for what they are.  No one was playing the games, and maybe within our writes, we could do that same. Most of us do this and some of us will play it and I am not sure why and where they come from - but I think that there is some merit within blogging. Nor do I have everyone on the internet nor will on my blog. Recently I deleted someone and I am sure that others have too. I have said this probably 4 to 5 times in the past 2 years on here. Yet I will say it again. As with a little understanding perhaps there is something that can be achieved. I am not a group I enjoy the creative writes and all that is out there with my friends within contacts.

I think that for each and everyone of us we can treat each other as we wished to be treated even online. I will say it again - Why not?

It's All within the Shares

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." I think this goes a long way.

We all write in our own manner. Some may have there messenger tied in with there Multiply where as for myself. I don't know all I know is there are some very decent people within here and the merits of what I write to there blog are nothing negative.

As well sometimes we just don't understand what the other is writing about or we feel we should force our views on others. Now how this rock got here today while I went hiking about I have no idea...

 

Sunday's Creating....

In comparison to last Sunday this is a much more different time. I am rendering things in a way that only I know how and that is in getting into the gym to start off my day.

 

I am not sure about you but that self time that you meet people and as well do the hobbies that you truly enjoy usually bring one into there own element.

 

However, I have been slowly training back into it and when you have as there was a time two years ago that I was in there for two hours straight. For now 45 minutes and then a steam seems to be fine.

It’s interesting here how everyone is taking in there own Sundays, you will find one some that are jogging while still dressed up warm in the morning and then there are those that head to the gym.

 

While there I saw this older gentleman that is in the best of his shape for an age and I asked him how he was doing. He said fine and then I called a few people but everyone is doing there own thing – my cousin was working so, I just went out and as it was windy and a little chilly I just seized the day.

 

However what comes tomorrow I am not sure. As there are several things that I am doing but it’s not worth burning out over. As I am sure that most of you could see just last week after the entire situation with medical matters.  Stuff does happen but it does have an impact on another and you just learn how to turn it off – what I find is that the best way is to just take that time and understand your own inner compass and move within our own way.

 

I maybe have pushed it a bit as I can feel it within my legs but right now with doing my training I am balancing out two days on and two days off.

Yes Spring has Arrived

Despite a day that is a bit cloudy towards the end. Spring is here finally.

Quake I Say

Now let me get this straight within Canada here there are thousands of Americans that may be Canadian?

According to what I read the government of Canada (I am a dual citizen here), have records just like United States has. And if I understand it correctly within America there are Canadians that were really Americans and now there are Americans that are Canadians?

I could see how that played out in the immigration times between Canada and the United States. It’s hilarious that the government of Canada has launched something on Utube for those that wish to reclaim their citizenship. Give me a break...or maybe I have missed all that has been happening. That just really blows me away. Not because it’s Canada – just the idea.

For the life of me I really don’t know why someone would want to leave where they are living. I know we live in a transient world but there are very unique things between these two countries. Sure Canadians have a style depending on where you live, as does United States. If you saw someone from Newfoundland, you would find that they have something different in comparison to Toronto. As if you took someone from South Dakota, they too would have something different in comparison to someone from New York.

Man I say it’s all about where you live and if it fits – then just stay. I have lived a transient life as a child and as an adult – but aside of the cold winters all in all if only god above or the powers to be would allow four true seasons, it would be just perfect. Residing in a city that is not the largest in Canada but it rates up there very high – I think this will be home for a very long time. Scratching my head here as for the life of me I could not see someone living in Florida and moving to Winnipeg. Nope – I could, now I may get some slack from some that may reside there but really when it comes down to it in the middle of the winter would you really wish to be surrounded by snow and the coldest city almost in the entire world or would you like to be in Miami and going about things and getting a tan at the same time.

But between these two great nations there is one thing that has always been the case. We are really one in so many ways. Some Canadian’s still say “eh”, while American’s say “huh”. It’s all the same really isn’t it in a way.

I placed these geese on which are now all back and I am sure there are some that are one there way each and every year they go back and forth. I wonder if what the government considers a goose these days.  Maybe they have a special passport or are there records on them as well.

The Forestry Farm and Zoo Video 2.avi

This again at this pond that is within the Forestry Farm here. Part Two if you will...

The Forestry Farm and Zoo Video.avi

While at the Forestry Farm - it's not that long...

The Foresty Farm Zoo

Tonight I went to the Forestry Farm Zoo, I can't say that I know much about it as I have never really went there. However I decided I wished to taka some pictures of nature. Which then directed me to this place called the Forestry Farm. First I thought I would get some vantages of sunsets.

Once I was headed on the freeway, I knew where I wished to go. There was a person that was just closing up, as this really is not the season for it yet - but it shall be where many do visit.

For earlier days I had a few other pictures one was of Google mapping out the town. I could not believe it as when the man got out of the car he told me whom he was with and thereafter he placed on a Goggle magnetic door stickers. As I could be wrong but they are supposed to be obtaining the ok - with each and every city as well as the government before they do this mapping.


All said - it was very nice to capture some pictures of nature at the "Farm".

This PP...http://fotofriday.multiply.com/

This one chap at some time started this. It's not a group it's rather something that is really thinking very creatively. I just joined it two weeks ago, and there was a time where I was wondering why several people had this theme called "Picture Perfect" then the theme.

People from all corners of the world take a picture and I have thrived on doing pictures since the beginning of this blog. I really am amazed with how one person could start something probably small and then it just took off as it's huge but one that does have some rules that area really neat as it's to keep everyone on the same thought on what they are going to do.

I think his name is Chris and I could stand to be corrected but the manner he put it together is really something sensation. As it really is worth a thousand words all within the pictures that are submitted in accord to what the theme of it is about.

Very creative if you ask me.

http://fotofriday.multiply.com/

Picture Perfect - Up Close and Personal

I am so new to this very nice collaborative ensemble I know that everyone has been within it for some time and what the heck I was not prepared but I this was a picture that was taken by way of a very good friend of mine. Is it up close and personal - no, but I am a newbie so what the heck...

Up Close And Personal...

 

Cleaning Up Our Backyards

The right to bare arms is a right. I have my own feelings on this, as I don’t believe in guns however that is my own point of view. Yet there are some that still adhere so strongly to the Second Amendment within the United States.

 

Nowhere in the Second Amendment will you find the words ''guns,'' ''rifles'' or ''pistols” referencing this word called “arms”.  Sniper guns, AK  47’s, this list goes one… are these types guns be necessary and acceptable for society at large?

For myself I truly believe that they should remain in the hands of where they belong – with the police force, military. I can’t see where any neighborhood in any land really requires guns of this nature...if I may ask what are your thoughts?  There are large differences in the rules with guns in Canada but I am not indicating Canada’s way is better. We just have a different system, as do many other countries.  Recently President Obama due to more than one reason had brought this issue up. He has stepped back on it for the moment while Senator Hillary isn’t - nor is Michelle Obama.

I really do feel that now is the type for us to start looking into our own backyards perhaps its worth something to think about. Sure there of recent there are many things that have taken place but from this vantage I understand moderately how people wish to have some form of protection.

However military and assault guns I do believe should stay just where they belong.

Diana Krall - A Case of You

Seeing the Light, After it All

Well things are working out and slowly things are calming down since this situation that came up. I talked to a friend here and we were talking on the phone ironically he is facing the same things within family. And at the age of 40 he is graduating and is down about that this summer he will not be working as civil engineer.

We talked as tonight we were going to go out for a coffee for a bit and he said that he has to go back to the library and do more studying and that he is really down with all that has come with the economy right now. As well as his family has went through some of the same things as my own and he said all one can do is just carry on. I think he is right.

However for myself I had one meeting again today and I don't keep my hopes up all that high and at the same time I am realizing that family is family and one just has to go out things that are back to the norm which they were prior to this last week. Once in a while life throws you a curve ball, but I think it's human to know that there are times that will be as such - or I have come to realize it again.

So onward we go...one often thinks they have had a hard time but how often there is someone right around the corner that is feeling the same in a different way – yet we keep on going with what is of importance to ourselves.

We are the Directors of our Lives...

There are always things in our life that come about – it comes and then you let it go.

 

Families can be one of the hardest things as it’s something close to you and pending what your roots are you still – let it go.

 

When encounter seem to be the worst I know that in time they will gradually glide away.

 

When in any giving situation never make a quick decision, find someone that you know and get there feelings on it then – let it go.

As we have only so much time there is that choice that we can make to let it enter and stay with us or just breath it out and – let it go.

I am not one two people or there

I am on whole

One whole is me

I am dedicated

Not even tough

But I am dedicated to my stuff

Yet it’s of the soft kind

My stuff is fast and yet it is slow

It’s of a cool kind

Aikido it’s my stuff…

 

 

My first writing when I was all of thirteen.  I some manner I have experienced several things but when one looks back into there past you ask yourself from right now and looking at all the past was there more good times than the bad.

Then you think about what is in front of your for the forthcoming years and there is only one person that can make that picture or "life direction". As we all have that choice as well we all have that ability to think how we wish our own movie of life to be.  Sometimes you have to edit some things out, but not really but it's a matter of being proactive in what you want for the future.

Boundaries...Rendering Them...

I know my Boundaries

If there is one thing that I was fortunate enough to have was a foundation but as well a foundation based on an art and I call it Aikido. Although I am not teaching it I really do know where when to just flow with things and tonight for me the best thing that I could do was head out to the gym and burn off some steam.

I don’t know how to describe I got on here and most wouldn’t but I was not about to start making calls or anything like this as it’s not my way.

So within my way I will just let it all out and as well I do meditate, funny enough but within this gym on the third floor I will sit in what is called seiza and I will just breath thing out and let them go.

But all said I thank you for your comments and I have not made a quick decision but I had met with one good friend of my families whom knows the situation as he was my father’s attaché – yet he is much more of a neat man that has hobbies and so on and he asked me if something had happened. I told him and he told me a few stories and his wife prepared supper and with Mel, I got some solid advice and what to do at this stage and I already knew that was the best thing.

As well he said to me that there were many men that paid a large price if they were not perfect back in the “old days” and he like many of you – really said much of what is said here.

Thereafter I headed to the gym. Was more focused on just training as I have my own agenda of things that I am doing.

Each one of you – I really do appreciate this as last night I had it and I was ready to just take a trip to my friend in Drumheller. But rather I just went with the flow.

I don’t run away from things – but I do look for the good things that are happening and within my family I have always done my own thing much like my brother but there was a time that I was really doing much but that time has past and all things are set up with nurses and all – for myself – I walk my own trail and I am comfortable in doing so. It was a rough ride yesterday and no one needs to go through things like this over a period of eight years for but that is the way that I think about it. One thing is I know what I need to find within my world is a companion and stop holding off on it. I remember coming back from NY and my friend Knut said to me, don't go looking for women in other places let them come to your world or find one right here. Anyhow that is not the meaning of this write but this was is there are times I will stand my ground.

 

As well, I knew a great gal where I was living and unfortunately she I had lost her number as she was a very nice one going through something and it's high time for me to get that going within my life as well but not in a manner that one is chasing to fix problems but to just meet while doing things and who knows gradually it comes to be something.

 

It's all within a flow I feel.

 

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A Day of Family and Medical Disarrays

Another internal medicine doctor which was in place just for the long weekend - took over here in the medical system and wouldn’t you know it – it’s a statutory holiday and he was making way for more beds.  I went and met with this new doctor.  He was leaving it all up to family to tend to the last week of his medications.  It’s not something that would have been taken place if the main specialist was there.

 

I had spoke with my mother, as she was in agreement that there was a need for him to be in for at least one week, but this is where my father will think at times that I am not working in his best interest and that coupled with trying to work things out so that my mother has that time that she needs – it back to tending to him.

 

I have set up for a nurse to check on him two times per month for the future and that is now all I wish to be involved in.  Here I had a doctor whom was moving him out while at the same time was watching my father lay into me.  As if I was doing something pushy or otherwise. 

 

My mother stepped in and told him that she will not stand for his behavior like this and then he went silent, I wanted to say something but there you have professionals around and I just started to get all of his things together as I know he was leaving.  I was livid and I just watched and let all things happen.  You do things and then a very proud man will go in the wrong direction.  However I just remained silent. 

 

A nurse whom could see what unfolded asked me to take a walk with her and she said that she understands completely what is happening and that to just do what I have to do for today and then leave it all be.  It’s amazing how these medical systems sometimes that coupled with a father that will really embarrass one at the least expected times it’s something that really brought out somethings that have happened before, and stubborn, but now it’s time to just allow things to just work their way out as it’s something that I am not going to be sucked into as I know how this has gone before when he gets out and little does he know that the doctor told me that he should be placed in a home, and that will not happen but the man can really be something, and as a son I really don’t need this. So I am just going to leave it be and let things take the course – I have done everything and will just leave it at that.

After will all 10 medications the most important one that is for an oral tablet taken three times a day on the last phase of clearing up a bladder infection – it ends up later that the doctor forgot to include the most important one.  So I had to go back to the university where the nurse did not have his number and then I called main switchboard and they patched me through and I talked to this doctor and he had forgot this one, and immediately called it in.

 

This now is not anger for me but is the time where I am pulling back and allowing the system to tend to things and I am not going to keep doing this as I will not carry on with my own life...

 

Everyone deserves that right I do, I know that much...

 

Over The Week

During this entire time I have been going about things rather well taking into consideration all that took place with my father and so forth. I had take a picture that has always been something of pride for the both of them and then I figured I would take my one cousin that lives in Calgary whom married a Brazilian. They had sent me this a while back and making a long story short it sits now in my father's room till he gets out along with the picture of my parents.

Small things do make a difference and there is one person that seemingly now and then finds one of the most significant things and as well he had sent one of his books to me titled "Cursed Spite". I started to read it and then things happened in the way they did but going with the flow now and then literally blows me away as so often there are things that one does misunderstand about someone else.

Seems to me there is a clarity and if I may add there are a few that I have know for the longest time that thought I was starting a group - this blog that is. I knew them for years but I just go with the flow with whatever I am writing. It's the internet yet I and I just go with the flow...

What comes tomorrow - I am not sure but the one thing I am certain is that there is that there is an abundance in some manner.

 

Easter Sunday

I went and saw my father and then thereafter I was going to just go to the small chapel there but I wished to go to a mass of some sort I ended up at two and thereafter I just came home as all seemed to be all covered.

This elder lady seemed to want to know more of whom I was, I explained it generally. I was looking for someone within the congregation that would allow me to take a picture while the mass was taking place and she said takes as many as you want.

She smiles and seemed to be one along with three others that was very wise - yet I got it again even during Easter Mass - "Who are you". I told her I am really just an ordinary guy that is likes to write on cultures and ethnicity and all. I am not sure that she bought it as she said you have a manner about you that is different. Well, I am not an ego centric person, I am just whom I am, I went off during the to another church and then came home as everything is closed today. Everything some traditions still are maintained it seems. Which I feel is a rather good thing.

 

 

Easter Mass

I went too two, and then I went to meet with my father and I feel that I am Christian but I am moderate.
Small funny aside of a glorious man of faith that I was able to have the ability to get a picture - and I just don't run in. There really are some discussions before doing this.

Anyhow it's Easter and within all that are Christians Happy Easter! The man rose.
With all this said there are obviously from what I can see a few pictures misting but this lady whom worked within one Catholic Church here that I went to during Friday evenings and is downtown kept asking me who I was.

I said to here that I get this all the time - I do. She said that the manner that you speak and look seems like someone that is of importance. I pulled one Spanish person here next to me but it's obviously not loaded. < Sigh >.

I said I am an ordinary man the one that we look up to today is one that is the person that bared a cross for what came to be our spirit. She liked that. Then at the other Catholic Church I never had nor have had the chance to meet this priest.

However the people I met and obtaining the right, as a moderate seemed to lead to something. Yet with all that said, I have friends that are of all faiths. I firmly believe that ones values don't have to be pushed onto others.

Yet I abide by what my faith has given me in my younger years as well as my current.

WHAT HAVE LEARNED

I read this and it resonates something in all the different posts that are being placed on. A friend wrote this not myself. When I read it it really spoke to me, and within all the writings with regards to this Easter I thought this fits in somehow. Anne is from Norway and I hope she smiles when she sees this as it's really something of worth. 

What I Have Learned by Anne

I've learned....That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person
I've learned....That when you're in love, it shows.
I've learned....That just one person saying to me, "You've made my day!" makes my day.
I've learned....That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.
I've learned....That being kind is more important than being right.
I've learned....That you should never say no to a gift from a child.
I've learned....That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.
I've learned....That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.
I've learned....That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand
I've learned....That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.
I've learned....That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I've learned....That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for
I've learned... That money doesn't buy class.
I've learned....That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
I've learned... That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I've learned....That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?
I've learned....That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned....That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I've learned....That love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learned....That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.
I've learned....That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.
I've learned....That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.
I've learned....That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
I've learned....That life is tough, but I'm tougher.
I've learned....That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
I've learned....That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
I've learned....That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away.
I've learned....That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I've learned....That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
I've learned....That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.
I've learned....That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.
I've learned....That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.
I've learned...That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.
I've learned....That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

TO ALL OF YOU.... Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.