The Challenge Which I Have Taken

Yesterday was a busy day I went into the city and met up with my doctor as well this nurse whom has in concert done more than aid much like a medial team.  It was busy to say the least as there were three places to go – one to the docs, the other to my folks and see them, and then lastly one to the mall area of the Hospital to speak with what I see as my nurse friend as she has certainly become that primarily due to commonalities I would guess. As well, they are surprised in the manner I have accomplished something medically.  I myself tend to think that I have a good team but at this point I would guess that I have been doing this totally on my own and within this I have met some good people.

The visit went well in meeting with my doctor it was really rather fast and then it was grand to see that the folks were much more at ease.  My father and I had a good conversation as I guess he got the word on what I was doing for that matter I am surprised with some of my relatives in which have recently sent emails to me – as I knew that some would jump to conclusion yet as ironic as it may be they knew all too well that I did need get out of the city for a while and they never thought I would be doing as well as I have.   

I would hope those which are friends do understand as this is my own good story, as I have went beyond just a respite, I have had two goals one working upward and the other getting off a medication I came to be what is called, “medically dependant”.  I believe the best manner to do this is just to write on what I have been doing.  And I still do have a ways to go but I shall place it as simple as it is - I have been doing is titrating off a medication which I was dependant on.  When I came out here to this small town it there was much thought placed into it before giving me the option.  For those that are not within the medical field I was placed on a narcotic medication called Clonazepam. It’s which the category of what is called benzodiaphines which include valium, ativan, and several others.  I have never double doctored yet I did build up a tolerance of taking 20 pills per day which really is a slow death if anyone knows about this medication. Yet what I had put into place for myself did take some humbling experiences, but I found that its’ all within perception and the manner that you look at things.  When I arrived here I put into place a regime of training to replace the pills.  It has worked as I don’t focus on the need of the medication.  Within the amount that I was on - there is no way that one can just stop, but rather I have tapered down fast more so within this last week.  So there was a choice of which I made.  Probably the largest one I have.  I don't over think it.  There is something to be said to restarting your life.  What I have done is change my mindset on training and creating new dynamics which I have thus far.  Mind you within the beginning this did not come easy but I have always been a very determined soul.  This pause period has literally been good, as I have come back to being whole and I can’t begin to indicate how well I feel as now I am down from 20 to 7 of the dosage of .05mgs.  The next month and a half I hope to have tapered down entirely and have all my facilities where they are now. 

I have never hoaxed anything on my blog and I have been feeling good.  I can’t begin to say how I had done this and am nearly done. I truly have been reserve with this and within two more months I shall be off this medication completely and have a clean system free of this medication.  I have been asked to speak on this topic within the spring.  I probably shall, but right now I am enjoying the rebirth of a whole person and then with cadence getting back within the game per se.