I hope things do take on a change...

Well this is that time of the year were the season does bring some down somethings can be situation and others are just as they are. Vicky had mention a comment that did render something which I most often I am more private but the season has certainly brought on a variety of things.

I have always been one to think of the best as well as with the intention of the best. Family can be very trying at times and I seemingly I always bring myself out of this funk. I don't mind the season in fact I love this time of the year yet the family situation has been very trying. And idle time is not a good thing.

I was just off with my cousin and well he could not talk to me but I had this run around as my sister has been at it again. I had met with my doc today and he said I am in a very stressful situation and that many of th

e things are redundant as no matter what regardless of what I do I have situations with this sister which my folks are just aiding. I turn the phone off and I am finding that there is so much stress amongst them especially that they are catering to one that it's making for another Christmas which was the same likes as before.

There are functional families especially at this time of the year and then there are very not that fuctional. My sister never seems to give up with this fixation yet I don't do a thing to her and she is so protected by the family that ones hands are closed. Even while I was speaking with my cousin - I could tell he would not come out and ask but he knew that there were some things which were taking place and he lives afar and was the one which had the heart attack but is doing fine. To have a defamation of character which she goes never stops with is really something. At times with all this your hands

are tied as your asked to go and do things and after my meeting with my doc today - he said you have to know that you do have the ability to say no.

It's been rather crazed, the family was never like this and it does take away your own pathway. But that is my rant and I turn it off rather well, yet it's a fractured situation to especially be happening at this time of the year.

One could go and try to have a family meeting and have my this older sister of mine aligned with some common areas as she is getting away with everything and when and if I head over there and speak with them all - it's all within a protection of this sister. It's a repeat of what always goes on but after today I am am doing my own thing. I have seen where within mar

riages where things have gone wrong but this one has taken it's toll again. It's a repeating record which transfers over to me.

I never like to write about family but I have never seen someone so persistant in trying to damage your character and well it's just crazy. And sometime your hands are tied.

It was nice to voice this out today with my doctor and here again it's the same old same old.

Seemingly as Christmas is nearing she is getting worse and the only thing which holds me back from taking any action is that my folks are older. But still it does have an effect on you. But somehow within a self cognitive I learn to just get away form it but it's not to say that it does not have an impact.

Heck with it this is one of twelved of Horses did well - while within Wisconsin someone else of which he knows did ran his horses within the competition for him. And he is doing well - actually very well within his recovery after a the heart attack he had.