Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Burning the Candles at both Ends

I have been as well there are things which have been on going with my folks as well as for myself. Yet I never tended to them nor really had the opportunity to do so. My father is not in the best of shape actually it's a decline. And as well, my mother is around 65 pounds. So as I was tending to my own things I was doing that back and forth and my father has forgot most all of what I have done for him I guess that would go along with his vascular dementia which was diagnosed seven years ago after the amount of mini strokes which he had combined with surviving his stage 4 cancer. My brother and I are most concerned with my mother as there has been a huge change of recent.

So for the last week I have been pretty much on pins and needles. This is all coupled with a sister that I am plagued with as she has been very manipulative of recent as well as upon speaking with my brother again she is up to the defamation. One would not understand that unless they were apart of it. Yet she has "daddy" whom for some reason ........well lets just say it's been much.

I have taken time off yet at the same time am able to head this studio at anytime. The manager - a great guy could see that I was going through some things.

Hopefully today I shall have my glasses and then on Friday I am having my eyes dialated and looked at. But what I look forward to is the new glasses as I have without knowing till recent been for the last year living with the wrong script. If I get the call this shall be great some of these factors have been getting the best of me. I don't plan to do much today I have to learn to say no to somethings right now. So eyes, teeth, and on the waiting list with my legs. It really did get to me.

For one that thrives and loves to met with people - I have become anti social to some extent. I had mentioned this with my doc and with all that I have at hand he could see that it has taken a toll.

I thought it was appropriate to write this as I will get a TMJ effect combined with pain within the legs and then with the eyes. So there are times in which I have a very hard time reading blogs. I thought I would mention as I am being as honest as I can hear. I have not taken any pictures of recent but hopefully the words suffice.

I hope you do and can understand,

Jack

 

 

 

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27 comments:

  1. Grammy Blick TexasDecember 14, 2011 at 4:28 AM

    Hang in there, Jack.

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  2. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 4:36 AM

    Oh I am and I hope I have these glasses today....

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  3. Vicki GDecember 14, 2011 at 5:41 AM

    Oh goodness, Jack, your plate is full. Make sure to take care of yourself otherwise you're no good for taking care of anyone else. I'm sorry to hear life is overwhelming for you at the moment. Take care. (hugs)

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  4. maritess* estrellaDecember 14, 2011 at 5:55 AM

    i hope your glasses comes today. And that besides taking care of loved ones ... you still find time for yourself. a warmth tight hugs

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  5. Roddy GDecember 14, 2011 at 6:13 AM

    Take time out to catch your breath Jack.

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  6. joyce cooperDecember 14, 2011 at 6:58 AM

    :) I do feel you

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  7. caroline magicDecember 14, 2011 at 8:53 AM

    one day at a time..[[hugs]]

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  8. Frani *****December 14, 2011 at 11:01 AM

    Yes, I can understand Jack. Take care of yourself first, or else you will be of no use to others when they need you. Write when you can and the pictures can wait, although I will miss seeing your photos!

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  9. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:25 PM

    Thanks Vicky this shall work out with some time.

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  10. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:28 PM

    No they were not ready as of yet but I am sure tomorrow they shall be....I am going to read a little and things shall work out, I think it just takes
    a little time. And maybe a good nights rest.

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  11. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:29 PM

    Good idea Rod as I am gonna.

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  12. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:29 PM

    Joyce there are others which face things but how we do is different for everyone - thanks.

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  13. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:30 PM

    you have that right - hugs back.

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  14. Initiative StainDecember 14, 2011 at 2:31 PM

    Frani I have not had the time for picture taking and I have hit a funk as mentioned above but this shall pass.



    I do thank you all for the understanding.



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  15. Theresa ♥December 14, 2011 at 7:51 PM

    Praying for better days ahead!

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  16. DJ DDecember 14, 2011 at 10:54 PM

    Sending well wishes your way.

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  17. Tori BriDecember 15, 2011 at 12:29 AM

    oh wow..your dad is a get up and stand up but seven years of dementia will leave him with memory loss at least..iam glad you re dealing with it and taking care of the both of them..

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  18. Alice StacionisDecember 15, 2011 at 4:48 AM

    Jack... my situation is similar to yours... Mom has enough dementia that we knew she needed to be in a home and when she fell down the basement stairs with some serious injuries was our opportunity to put her in a home, she is still in rehab now tho.
    My sister is the manipulater, deceptive and lies... so I know about that too.
    I had gone thru what I called Mom meltdowns from time to time... now that I know she is being taken care of its a lot easier.
    I am a hypnotherapist and if at some point you would like me to hypnotize you and put in place relaxation techniques/triggers I will be more than happy to.

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  19. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 5:05 AM

    They shall had a good sleep and I am not the type to stop - but this morning I hope my glasses are ready and
    the rest shall come with a bit of patience Theresa.

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  20. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 5:07 AM

    Thanks DJ, I can't get into that negative thought process I have to rekindle the manner of thoughts and as well
    not letting things.

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  21. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 5:10 AM

    Tori I used to be a primary or medical next of kin I have tended to their needs but the needs have been much higher of recent so I am taking care of me. Caregiving is not my job. Thanks.

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  22. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 5:16 AM

    We do have things within common right now I just wish to be a turtle and just go about things slowly and then there after see what comes.
    But I assure you I shall - I could worry I have some of my own tasks to tend to and call with - and I guess it's a situation where you have
    to make that mindset and follow through with it. I never knew you were a hypnotherapist though.

    I don't wish to live on here but I do wish to enjoy it. Again thank you.

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  23. Alice StacionisDecember 15, 2011 at 5:39 AM

    my offer stands so if you feel the need feel free to message me. I have friends who have hypnotized me from time to time to help me thru my "mom meltdowns"... huggs

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  24. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 10:21 AM

    I do thank you I have no idea of how this could be done....please do tell Alice.

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  25. Alice StacionisDecember 15, 2011 at 11:07 AM

    easy... on the phone

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  26. Initiative StainDecember 15, 2011 at 11:15 AM

    I see first let me just get grounded Alice.

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  27. Pamela OdomDecember 22, 2011 at 4:34 AM

    dementia is so hard on any family to deal with Jack.....I'm so sorry and I hope things get better for you and your family

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