Well my father I took into the hospital yesterdays' date and now I am supposed to be there tomorrow. The reason is not clear he may want me there. There is something to that as since the fist cancer I have been the one that has done allot of things. However I have been keeping my chin up.
I have been at this juncture before...I may say…
He has always seemingly come out of everything that he has been through. I am not as involved as I used to be I just leave it be as to what will is or for that matter what may happen. They are apparently doing something with his kidneys he has 38% function with one, the other one does not work but his nephrologist seems to know what he is doing so rather than before being the one that really goes the full mile to know everything - now I leave it all up to what will be, will be. But I do have this feeling it all will be fine. They would not be doing this for any reason but to improve things. However, I do have my reservations with all of that. I leave it all up there as to what will be the outcome. I know my mother has been through hell and back and yeah I have probably too.
Outside of that I have taken some of that self time and I may make a fast trip after this week. The unknown is something that we all or I find very hard. Knowing is something that brings about some understanding of what all is taking place in many cases but when it comes to those that are important.
We all come in this world and we all leave it. If there was one wish I had it would be in how we leave.
An you know what it's the last day of March! Unbelievable how time does fly!
I wish your dad all the best, Jack! And strength for your mom and you! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThank you much...Teri.
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome, love!
ReplyDeletemy thoughts are with you Jack... you are a good son... leaving a hug and hope that all goes well sweet man...
ReplyDeleteThe best of all possibilities in this for you and your family, Jack. Prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteBack at ya Jenny....
ReplyDeleteThank you Charles...
ReplyDeleteWe don't have the ability to change things with others but all that we can do is our best with a regards to those that are near to us as well as understand that we all are human beings.
The way I see it is that sure there are people involved within the family. For myself I do those things that one would not have too do if they were not around but since I am and it's a part of my own dynamic - I don't know whom would walk away of family in need.
ReplyDeleteThere was a time in which my father could have gone into a "home", but in no manner what that ever going to be the case. But my chin is up, and after several years of this - you just keep your own composure while tending to some of those things.
Satisfied and in peace.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
Mati you know exactly what I am thinking at certain times yes.
ReplyDeleteI could write in spanish for respect to you but I know your english is fine my good or "mi hermana".
Thank you down there...
Mi brother your welcome up there :P
ReplyDeleteSo the way I see it is one the positive end, I don't think or dwell to a large extent but it's been a busy time. And as for tomorrow one could think of the worst or the best. I choose to just be realistic and accept...
ReplyDeleteMy wish is for all of you is, no suffering. Will keep you all in my prayers
ReplyDeleteThanks Danette. Life is as such. There will come a time when this shall pass. Meanwhile I am human I don't feel that there is anything one can do - within family or otherwise and I think that everyone has been there at some point in time.
ReplyDeleteKeep us informed so we will keep you in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteIf all goes well, his operation starts at 8am and thereafter I will come home after talking to his Nephrologist and then will go back there two hours later. So there are some that are on pins and needless and I tonight he said the same things that he always says before I leave. "Take care of all things for your mother in the worst case scenario". So shall know more. Then.
ReplyDeleteThanks - how many times he worked so hard to have and was able to do what your doing. Not kidding ya. But in there own way they live as they are able too.
I used to love hospitals - and all that I knew but now I am really just tired of them to be honest.
I went through this with my parents a year back...there really is only some much that can be done, and then "what will be, will be." I'm glad you're there for your father and I'm sure he is too. Best of luck to both of you.
ReplyDeleteForget about his body just think about his mind.
ReplyDeleteHe needs someone to be there to say good bye to perhaps and then he will rest.
Don't worry Jack.
The end is just the beginning of a new adventure for all of us.
There is a power beyond our understanding.
Very powerful words Bill....thank you.
ReplyDeleteIt worked out as it was a renal situation but I do thank you much.
Doug there are times that I have wished my father had passed some 8 years ago when he was in a comma and but that is not proper, I didn't know it would lead to all of these areas however the man got through it with his renal area....surprised the heck out of me this morning...
ReplyDeleteThanks much and I have not yet read the book. But it's right next to my bedside.
Life is full of surprises, Jack. Some may be pleasant and wonderful, but others may be something that nobody wants to hear nor see it happening.
ReplyDeleteBut then, none of us would really know what's in store for us. At this point, I understand that everyone is just very anxious to know the outcome of
your dad's surgery. My prayers for your dad and everyone in your family, Jack. You are doing the best you can and I admire you for that. Keep it up, my friend!
Hugs
Thank you Lettie...it's a good day!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to know it Jack. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteLydia thank you. I will be going to get him right after one unexpected meeting I have at 12. And for a man that was a tremendous leader, meaningful man, blessed husband, determined soul - I hope that he is not bitter and that I do have the chance to tape some of his memories during his term in Norad. I was think of this the other day and as well I thought of the time in which I was living in a different part of the city before I had left to a place called Edmonton for two years and I had received a call. It was my mother and she asked me to run over after work. I found that when I arrived at their home - he was bleeding in the gent's area...He was not as worn by his cancers or strokes at the time and I pondered why he never took a ambulance but we stuffed towels and dressed him up and placed on a a long jacket. The next thing I was doing 100 in getting him to this hospital and the nurse asked me after I had giving all his information on his medications - cancer and she asked me "are you a doctor", I said no. I went to get my car out of the emergency, then while I was leaving she asked me if I was a pharmacist - no.
ReplyDeleteSo she was very interested in who I was as and then I told her that I am his son and that I have take care and am medical next of kin. Well then this nurse grinned and she said "we do get ones like you in now and then". I guess she meant that was alright.
So I have seen this many times but I know that he will not make it to next winter. You can tell it so if I can get all the stories that I wish. I am a happy man. As for himself - he has a wife and I think he is a very happy man they will be celebrating there anniversary in not too long a time from now. No one would ever have thought.
A good morning to you Lydia - as well thank you.
He shall be in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThank you something drastically happened...after he got out...but thank you all the same.
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