Certainly I do have much on my plate. But this shall pass and this takes some self rendering. As when I first returned here it was very taxing to see all that had happened, but at the same time. But I do stay positive by many different means.
I didn’t expect that things would work out the way they did recently. My father is not well, my sister is not well, and I have learned or am re learning how to maintain things in my own manner.
You can’t do that on your own I have learned. Those things do happen in life but at the same time I am surrounding my self with the good people in life. I do enjoy this outlet as it’s been sometime since I have not been on a computer but most of all I have learned that have things within my life that are with regards to family that can be taxing but you learn to live with it and at the same time you render the up most of your own self in dealing with things. When they are so close it’s not that easy to do but that all said, I am one that does abide by my own thoughts while keeping in contact with friends that I have know through my life and all the places that I have lived.
Ironically not on the Internet – this is my little area where I enjoy an online connection of sorts if that makes sense. The economy hit and it hit hard here too and while at the same time I was hoping that I would have a transfer of my papers – but I carry on. I do so much work but then at the same time I know when it’s the best time for me to just take time out as one friend on here said, “ I am the keeper of my family”. I was married that is long ago, I have no children and I am glad that I never ended up divorced with children.
I could write much more but I may come across as being arrogant but this is not the case. My reflex is my compassion for people.
I am not perfect, I am just a human being that is evolving but sometimes one does feel that they have went backwards rather than forwards till they embrace certain things – friends. Common interests etc.
Most of all I love writing from my own experiences...
Yet I don't think anyone knows it all.
Now that's a thought. How I wish I knew it all.
ReplyDeleteI once knew a fellow who, at age forty, said, "If I knew only half as much as my teen-aged son thinks he knows, I'd be twice smarter than I actually am".
Occasionally, I smugly feel that I am rather smart. Then I stumble over my even larger ignorance. Humbling.
Not to worry. We have gotten a little smarter each time we become aware that we have more to learn.
Glad you have an online outlet. It works for me, too.
Good night and well wishes...
ReplyDeleteThis reminds me of the song that has the line "it's amazing just how much I've learned since I thought I knew it all." I think the singers' name is Michael Peterson.
ReplyDeleteI used to be my family's keeper, too Jack. It ain't easy. Just keep on keepin' on and hang in there. Hugs.
Goodnight
ReplyDeleteA difficult thing is when we don't know what to do, and it is this "ignorance" that we fear will be so costly. Heartwrenching when that turns out to be the case.
ReplyDeletehope within time things will ease up for you
ReplyDeleteNice to hear you are taking care of your needs too.
ReplyDeleteYes but I have been here with this for a good five years. So in a way you desensitize to it. And I maintain my own placement with it all passing a coffee to you.
ReplyDeleteNo really after all that I have been through with a man which is my father that should have passed away when he first went into a comma years ago, and I had come back from NY. To see where things are at is something I do accept. Frustrating it can be. As there was a time I was pulled into (as medical next of kin) to meet with one specialist and was told that my father would never speak again. I remember that so well, not in a negative manner and I told the one specialist to contact the other one as my father had caught in the hospital a herpes strain to the brain coupled with six tia's as well as three major cancers.
To make this short he has a vascular dementia and as I had left and was living in another city named Edmonton. I never realized how much his brain had regressed. Yet we don't talk that much but the man wishes for peace before his ending I am sure. So I never believed nor will in placing him in a home but I hope that he has a fast passing when he does. Some of the things that I see happening with his health as there is an operation on his kidney area happening - I really don't get it - I feel that at a certain stage in the game a man or women should be able to have a respectable, comfortable passing.
My thoughts...
This is the one that the man leaves in his youth and then realizes that his folks are not as.......dumb as he thought they were?
ReplyDeleteNorma I am doing well. We all I believe at a certain age did something. I feel that everything has a reason in the future, as we look back at it and understand wha it all was regarding we kind of come to some settlement with it all.
If I am not doing well I promise you I will say not doing well :). In the meanwhile nearing 6am I will pass you a coffee :)
Danette yesterday morning they did I met with my friend Wazid and then thereafter I went on a new desktop venture coupled with looking for some spring stuff. The evenings are something much different in comparison to writing in the morning. But I certainly thank you.
ReplyDeleteLyn I am and you know what - I need a ticket and an Adirondack chair and just take in the palms down there. :)
ReplyDeleteMe, too. But I'll settle for sunshine in Northwest Arkansas and a warm breeze on the backyard deck, then an evening cooling on he front porch watching the neighborhood settle down, the wife nearby, and two espressos between us. . .
ReplyDeletePeace, Jack. Peace. That's all any of us can ask for, and it comes in small, priceless bits that we have to save up the memory of for hard times yet to come.
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))...
And here willl settle for an nice evening on a Friday. Now just after supper....
ReplyDeleteThanks but really I live for the day. In a good way...
ReplyDeleteNo, Jack, that sounds like a different song. The one I am refering to is a sortof light-hearted song that basically states how very much we keep learning even after we have learned so much already. I have probably gotten the singers name wrong. I am not so good with names. (smile)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the coffee.