Not a long story but a short version one...

I have tended to my family for the past few years. It never really was within me to do that type of thing. but I did.  Sometimes there are things in life that do happen and you hold on tight and hope. And you plan.

I have rebounded with old friends and after having as situation whereby you were more of a "butler" during the time of christmas this year I am alone - but not alone.

To be honest, I am much happier with being able to be my own self and to take on my own independant tasks.  But for me this years I am not spending it in a hospital watching my father nearing his death - he is alive and well. So for me - I am not leaving back home from christmas, but I am celebrating it here.

This has taken more work, and has been an effort (mentioning in brief) and to move on with my own life, in my own way without an obligation for family - is normalcy within life. 

And most of all within my trail - I am able to not pick up from where I left off but go forward. I can and will come back to this as there is a story to this but time does not permit.  However, within a short period of time I took on the challenge of what was best for myself, and I set out goals and ironically here it is at this time of year and I don't have the worries as I did with my family. Nor do I have any worries. I am in movement with life. Althought this is wrote in a very short manner - I can tell you one thing. When you have that second chance to do life and live it out in your own manner and obtain some of the dreams that you have set out. For myself that is my celebration of this year. And it's a much different one in comparision to the ones that I experienced in the past three years.

Not many of you know me. Most knew me only by way of my old blog and without a messenger. And maybe just maybe in a small amount of time I will have the enjoyment getting off this laptop and being able to have this work in a manner that is easier to "blog" to.

So it's like I am a kid all over again, I have the choices of what I wish to do for christmas. And the ones thereafter. For me in a general manner that is my christmas and in the background on the radio I hear the song " New York, New York". For me - this is what life and the season is. And I can certainly say that it's a rebirth of my own self not in a religious manner just in a very human manner.

Jack

• Merry Christmas - and to those that have sent me thier address the card is coming late, but nevertheless a belated card will come - Promise.
• I truly wish I could get to all the blogs and I can't - as I recall three months ago when I mentioned that I was heading off line I did not expect to be on till the new year. And now I dont know how people get around to writing that much but again I wish you a merry one.
• Since most have often referred to me as "padre juanito" while in all honesty I have accomplished much in my life (along with the above) - am I jaded - no, have I made a choice and taken on challengs - yes. Have I done decent things for others - yes.
• Maybe now it's time for me to life life and find friends - and a companion - as I missed much - but I have not missed a thing as I have just started my own life again. A quick right - but for all that write books. I am not a writer. When I retire I could tell you what I wish to do - you would think it's way out there but you know what?  There isnt a thing one can't do when they have the opportunity to entirely DO IT.