I have been working in so many areas right now - getting settled in and then at the same time trying to get it all done all at once. For myself, I know where to find that synchonicity.
So I find that tomorrow I am going to look at things from another perspective. Christmas is a difficult time for me. I left my family (parents) to go on with my life. For reasons that are personal. There is no hate it's about creating a life that you can move in a manner that is without somethings that come along with parents getting older and one especially sick with Cancer.
I know as of the last week - I try to do so many things at the same time and I am not going to cover everything that needs to be done in one day. Knowing this I have to think in a manner that works for me. As that is the best that one can do for "self".
Tomorrow is a new day and a new way....but in life - things never automatically change - the progress. But not overnight.
Life brings lessons. If we learn the lessons we move on.
G'day Jack,
ReplyDeleteI find it is the time of year, we all seem to allow ourselves to get caught up in some form of self imposed stressful ritual that can cloud what should be one of the most fulfilling, relaxing or fun times of the year (depending on ones beliefs), coupled with the normal day to day living, it can become a nightmare that completely contradicts the original scenario. I myself pulled the plug yesterday, put every thing away & decided enough was enough, what was not done now could be done without, Christmas will come on schedule & pass on into the New Year, life will continue.
Good Morning Wendy,
ReplyDeleteI do realize that. I wanted to expand on it but within this Multiply I am not sure how "open" it is ....but I just find (as some can relate), that within my family we were very close. I left a city as I was being a convenient family member - where I had/have a father with Cancer coupled with other associated things - a sister with an illness as well - and I know that I had to move from the same city.
Now in a new city and after doing a peaceful "dwelling" in the Drumheller - I am re entering my life. Meanwhile, I do get calls and as well I have a brother that lives her in the same city. Last saturday, he had a christmas party. However I was not invited. I had not called him for some time as I knew what and how he does operate and how he will want to be around me when I am at my best to just gain what is around me - but not me as a brother.
I had a call yesterday from an old friend that is a prof. Andrew indicated several things. And most of all he mentioned that now I am going through a "brain shift". With that all said he indicated that to accomplish the entire wholeness of what I am - in a new city will not be overnight - but stick to what I am doing and relax and act as if everything is obtained. I do a self cognitive whereby - I think as if all everything is obtained. As it exists within "spirit".
A mother that calls, a father that is very proud that calls and his conscious is playing with him, and meanwhile I have left and am now in a new city. I am covering many areas without any one day to be free with life. Rather - I am on the go and at the same time as I left for a holiday which then lead into going to this new city of Edmonton - I have not completely brought everything that I own as it's still back at my other place.
So, this is today, I am getting back to writing my agendas out for each day. As I realize where I am, what I need to do. However - I do have wants and desires within "lifestyle" without life being one type of routine.
I know right now that this is the last week before Christmas really - so I know that all that I do is not redundant - but it's going to be something where nothing or most all things that I do will have no effect till the new year.
My intent is something I remind myself of during the times that I find most challenging. As intent is about "ki" - spirit and an inner core of calm.
I know it's not easy to begin to think about yourself when all you have done if think of others for a very long time, but sometimes we are called to do so in order to be able to give others what they need. We can't give what we don't have and I'm afraid many of us wait until the well is completely dry before we think about how to replenish what we lost. I'm sure your parents are thankful for all you have done and that you will be there with them if need arise for any of them. It will be good for them to have their own space and deal with their life in a matter of worth and incredible value no matter their circumstances.
ReplyDeleteHello Jack. The end of the year seems to be an uneasy time for many. We do our best to try to remain positive and to deal with situations we have in our present life or with past issues that linger into the present.
ReplyDeleteYou have mentioned once that you were writing your goals, and now you have written that you "stick to what I am doing and relax and act as if everything is obtained. I do a self cognitive whereby - I think as if all everything is obtained. As it exists within "spirit". "
I like to use that visualization technique. It helps to keep a focus on what we really want in life.
That is a beautiful solid door, tempting you to open and find out what it holds inside, it is mysteries to be discovered or a calm oasis of refuge? A new day is like that too.
ReplyDeleteYes it is....I have started to read before I head off to bed each night. I have not done that in a long time and now I read. There is a story to this but Maay, the door was symbolic for that reason -- always opens.
ReplyDeleteDanielle - it is. It is that time of the year and on Sunday I just thought of a few things. Now I am changing the dynamic and I am literally working for myself. The calm for me is in the evening when the day is done. And all so often the day started at 6am and ended at 1am.
Clary - you know me all so well, only by the way of writings.
I like using this word "alfa male" or recent. There is something that I once was - but now I am much different. But sometime very determined. As are each of us in our own manner.
Yet we are human.
There's only so much time in a day. Just do what you can and let the rest wait until the following day. And don't forget to take a little time to relax and just have fun!
ReplyDeleteLife brings about lessons and yes we do move on.
ReplyDeleteNorma I have I do have fun there is a bit of me in you and you in me we all are in some manner connected. That is what is so relaxing with regards to blogging/writing. I am whom I am, and there is substance in some manner in what we write - and we all do move on with the lessons we learn in life.