Well I have finally settled in and an hour ago have moved into my place complete while at the same time I had a meeting and I just wish to say peace to all of you and I look forward to reading and writing a for within in it all is love and power and force.
A great Friday & Saturday to all,
Jack
We all do take responsibility for charting our own course in life, we may well go in an entirely different direction from the one laid out for us by society and familial expectations. Mine was one that was an open ended direction – without an exact location, but some cadence and networks. This can be uncomfortable in the short term, but in the long term it is much worse to imagine living this precious life without ever taking the wheel and navigating our own course. In all this said I am in the midst of a move and I have been traveling of around six weeks now. Sure we all take responsibility with what we do and we do have obligations. In coming to this city I was determined to settle down in a new city. I found that the last four days have not been that easy.
Finessing so much can be a long day to say the least but finally I will have accomplished my new goals effectively this weekend. As I have a new place in a new city. I will have to go and rent our or sell my other place – but that won’t be till the New Year. I am not sure how many people have lived in hotels but I can honestly say that regardless – it’s going to be nice to get settled in. Two meetings to day and then some work, then two trips for furniture as well as then ending up at the dentists office with an infection in my upper gum. I am on an antibiotic and I can wait to just get into my own home. At least I have not major situation with my teeth, but what I found amazing was that I met a few new friends – as the dentist is from Peru, and most of his staff are from the middle part of latin America.
After I left yesterday, I was told to go back as I am on two medications for the infection and I can’t wait as there is an entire Spanish community here. Most are from Colombia, Argentina, Chile, and the middle portion of Latin America. I certainly look forward to this. But meanwhile, with the things taken place this week it’s been rather hard and much multi tasking. I look forward to just getting in my place and putting my feet up. The reason – you can be yourself within your own home.
If there is one thing that I can say - I planned last summer to go to Latin America and then I was side tracked. So all in all, aside of the infection, one more day and then I can be within my home.
Perhaps co existence would be a better title...
The earth is not all the old really when you come to think of it and how you relate to it. It’s amazing to me I remember since I as five years old how I would be at my window in the evening gazing at the stars and wondering what all is out there. It created a curiosity that has carried on ever since. Many ancient inhabitants based things on the stars and the skies. The aboriginals, the Chinese, and some other cultures based their life on the ways of the lands, the skies and as well the stars. For myself it’s incredibly interesting in the way it all started. Some would say it was an inspiration of a force. An energy that would bring together all ideas and religions of what we base our lives on. Maybe just maybe, we are missing out on something due to the reason that we think in according to one type of thought. Or perhaps we are not.
How long it took mankind to accept that the earth was round. That was a conquest for some to have to look at things from another angle. And more importantly how many conquests and lives it took to prove this theory.
Look at our other inhabitants of our world – the animals. Animals will act differently during a full moon, as there are gravitational pulls that for some reason they notice instinctually.
When a storm comes our other co inhabitants realize some things that we need technology to understand. Is there something we miss? Perhaps are we as a society so self involved that we are missing something?
I don’t think mother earth is missing the forest for the trees. She’s missing the forest and the trees. Meanwhile we are thrive on more wants than needs. It mimics history in so many ways, however the world does cycle - in our own way, and maybe we will come to learn that life is not just regarding what was mention in my previous post, but now and then we think outside of the box. However a box can't fit into a circle, yet a circle can fit into a box...
Separation and division is the central key as to why there are so many problems in the World. The Ego is looking out for some reason why they alone are somehow above the crow so that their own personal experiences are better than the average common rabble.
Individuals want to feel special, as if their own life experience is something in which no one else can understand or relate. In fact, most people are almost in shock when they bond with someone else who seems to "understands" them as no one else can.
Some take pride in the fact that they view themselves as misunderstood as it is somehow glamorous to be so tragic while others go into another extreme and brag of being so popular as if there is no other place to be. Like-minded individuals can get together for a common purpose and when ego takes over the group feels as if it is misunderstood by everyone else and they are somehow above the people outside of the group. Categorizing can form to be cliques, clubs, churches, gangs, and armies.
No matter what you label it, the group will somehow feed into the common ego that their life experience, happiness, heartaches, pains, and joys are somehow different than anyone outside of the group. Anyone outside of the group is somehow wrong or bad or someone to be avoided. Such thinking is the core as to why people fail to connect to other. One group believes it is supreme and the others have no rights as they do, in fact they believe everyone outside of the group as somehow inferior and not deserving of the same merits of humanity.
This can quickly turn to prejudice, hatred, intolerance and lead to acts of war, violence, aggression and cruelty. This kind of thinking keeps hungry people starving, abused people in fear, and poor people in poverty. It enslaves your mind, even if you are in the group, which deprives others of equality.
Just look. We do have our own unique quirks and ways to do things among our peers, but chances are somewhere in the world you will find a few dozen people with all those exact qualities. It is inside, where it really counts, that we are all equal.
The color of our skin, weight, height, shape and other outside features do not make you who you really are, it is your reaction to how people treat you because of your features that make you who you are. Twins with identical features could be subjected to the same
rude comments from people who want to find a way to discount their importance by calling them on a physical feature. One twin could get offended by such remarks and adopt and attitude of hatred for those who don’t look like her. The other twin could forgive those and live life in peace, waiting for those who will accept her as she
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Your religion or spiritual beliefs do not make you who you are - it’s how you practice what you preach. Some like to beat a certain faith as hypocritical because they know members of that church who are sinners according to the beliefs they claim. In fact,
there are hypocrites in every faith who hide behind them for various reasons. They have nothing to do with those who truly believe in that faith. To discount all faith on behalf of the handfuls of liars in a slap in the face of those who are doing what they believe.
There is no one correct way to review life. Just as 10 witnesses to a car accident can come up with 10 different accounts of the scene that would be correct in their own point of view, the over 6 billion people the world make their own correct judgment of life most likely as a great abundance and the other might see life as harsh and both would be correct.
We are all creatures who want the same exact things in life. That is the humanity within us that make us equal. When the Ego takes over, we neglect the fact that others have that same essence of life and quests we do.
We all want love. When we become balanced within ourselves and learn to love ourselves, we want love, not false dependency. We want respect. We want to achieve our goals. We want to walk through the same path. We want to be remembered according to title, but most people live and pass on with title, those that have testimonial have a continuum in which thrives on. We want to feel special. We want our basic needs to be met with the least amount of resistance. We want peace. We want a quality in our lives. We want health and mental well-being.
No one really wants to live in FEAR and conflict. No one wants to feel physical or emotional pain. No one wants to get hurt, harm, hated, neglected, abused, starved, enslaved or disrespected. There are some twisted minds too caught up in the ego that have warped the essence of humanity that they would debase themselves and others.
That is not the true nature of mankind. That is a sick mind in control of
a runway vehicle.
Ironically, it is also human nature that brings out the best of humanity in a time of crisis. Our own need for self preservation can come out when we see our safety and security threatened, we tend to band together to help each other. Many people like to describe an end time scene where man will turn against man and kill each other in a quest to survive. History will point out otherwise. During times of earthquakes, acts of war, terrorism or any other disaster, People generally will help others in need when and how they can. Of course there will always be the losers and people who are able to render
their own true essence of humanity, but for the most part you will find honest, caring, decent people who will help another person in
need if they can do it.
If we ever want to live in a world of peace, we are simply going to have to get over just looking for a title and rather have a manner of understanding. Which would require the ability to have confidence and yet enjoy life without the need to posture, or make things up - as life is what we feel and what we have a conviction for without closing the doors to others. We all have an ego, but with that said, I find that there is a need to not only be true to ourselves but true to our own valid nature of being. We must also learn to respect and allow others to be instead of controlling how we think they must be. We are all looking at the same world from different angles with the same inner needs, hopes and desires. Some do and some don't.
We all will make mistakes as we learn hot to play the rules in this game of life. Just because we do not see eye to eye does not mean we won’t come to our own right way to live, to think and to be able to have the ability to think outside of just our own notions of what makes our world happen.
There are certain personality archetypes that we all carry within us, such as the inner child, the lover, and the mother. Some of these archetypes present themselves strongly, while others lay fallow. For example, there is an inner warrior in each one of us, but in some of us this warrior is underdeveloped to the point that we are unable to stand up for ourselves, even when necessary. There can be many reasons for this. We may have grown up with a parent whose warrior aspect was overdeveloped, and we responded by repressing ours completely.
On the other hand, we may have grown up with parents in whom this aspect was dormant,so we never learned to awaken it in ourselves.
A warrior is someone with the strength to stand up for what he or she believes; someone who perseveres in the face of challenges and obstacles; someone who speaks and acts in the service of an ideal; someone who protects those who are too weak to fight for themselves. Regardless of the reasons for an underdeveloped inner warrior, you may begin to notice the lack of its fiery, protective presence and wish to awaken it. You may need to stand up for yourself in a certain relationship or situation, or you may have a vision you want to realize, and youknow you will need the courage, energy, and strength of a warrior to succeed. Succeeding is not in failure but in faith and determination. Regardless of what it is - how small or how large everyone is determined to find that they have accomplished something that they alone find worthwhile.
I left the old town early this morning, and well the first portion of it was great and then the last portion of it was ok. I got here and I am not sure if I wrote about my friend Gary but I am in his city now and I am staying at another hotel. But thank god.
So I was there and now I am hear. The first portion of my trip to meet an old friend came to being full of situations. But I leave it at that. I enjoyed the nature side of things and now it's back in the city. Not the one I live in and as well in one that the the hotel does have....well, ummm...it's great and I am going to be very conservative with all the staff as this is a less pricey place - but what comes with it is what I need!
Gary is an air traffic controller so he is working the night shift and from a small town to a large city - for right now I feel great. As long as the "room service" does not call me after work. As I don't wish for anything more than to embark on my mission.
Here it is Saturday and just to relax after getting some amenities.
I feel good!
I am leaving in the morning for another city and I wish those of you all the best. I hope you enjoy your weekend as I will be travelling to another city. There are some very dynamic people in here.
So this all said - in the ideals of doing what is true to you - never waiver from what you desire and wish to do. As well, if I may say, I have not been to many blogs in which I used to and the reason is that I have been very busy.
So I am not a nomad, I am just like you we all are united in a manner regardless of where we come from. It's more about the insight. This all beings said take care and all the best to you. And as before, I shall be connected once I have booked in to another hotel. Meanwhile I look forward to the trip.
Peace and Take care.
I will write this as we always thrive on results. I certain I am not alone on this thought. Sitting here after a day of several things unrelated to the Internet. I sure that there are people desire to have things take place quickly.
In my previous writing I mentioned about contradictions. Well, perhaps I am writing a contradiction or the way it is.
In deciding to hold on with my plans to go to another city and yet while at the same time extended my stay for good reason. There are a few very delightful people here that are from this small town. As well there are some most interesting people that I have found coming here from different places of the world and as well as the folk that work and live here.
After a full day I had a call from a friend that is sort of reliant on my going to visit him soon. Meanwhile, I extended my booking here within this hotel. Based on waiting for a few things to arise.
So the decision comes to be do I go to a city to visit a friend for one day and come back as there is one gem of a situation that I am waiting for and after this weekend my intention was then to go onto two other cities. I am not certain of this, however it will be necessary to make one tomorrow night.
One side of myself that is thinking stay till the end of my booking as I have planned on. Then there is another side that has that obligatory area of making a one day trip and come back. Upon getting the telephone call tonight I mentioned to my friend that I would give him a call tomorrow. This will give some time and allowance to making a decision that allows me to decide on if I will go. I already feel I should stay put and then thereafter go thereafter. But it gives me time to let him take it all in and re approach it and then there is an understanding.
I had a call from my mother today and she indicated that my father had a good treatment 3rd treatment of therapy with his cancer. She mentioned that his words for her to tell me are that he is very proud of me. This is good, it’s of value, and it’s family.
What does this all come too in conclusion? I am neither sure nor certain.
I know or realize there are several things that I am working with and in some manner – there is always a way. There is always a manner to multi task in a method that brings it all together without no hard feelings.
I guess we all require that timetable to be working on our side but sometimes I remind myself that moments seem to change each and every day. And with that being said change is good, patience is a method to a means. But the meaning never unfolds till the journey is completed. But in having patience gives way to not requiring immediate results, rather adapting to working time in a manner that is working with you rather than against you. Well this is a banter, but that is my write and as well for those celebrating the holidays of Thanks Giving - enjoy!
One important value of sorts is living within the day and understanding that if you don’t succeed first, try again…
The attraction of all relationships is within the art of attraction and return. Attraction can be several things – a writing, an image, we would be contradicting our selves if we said that image does not play a role on what and how people appeal to each other.
The means of allowance is a philosophy whereby relationships flow. There is something that is significant that we all do see and can relate to withi
n some manner. Life does have its flaws. And no one is perfect. Have you ever had that certain feeling with regards to something and it just did not feel right. I think that is something that is an area within our abundance that one makes a choice on what to do in all realms of life.
Do we contradict ourselves at times? We do, even the noblest people have been contradictions at times. Relationships, and the relevance of self worth so often require a need for not only just self. Right? I could be wrong.
Which leads me into a few areas...
Relevance is only as important as we wish it to be. Some will have more of an open mind, some will listen more, and some will look the other way. I think you all know what I mean. Within life we all have our choices. Is that convenience, no? Do we wish to have others that we can rely on in life? Yes.
In the midst of my journey of recent I have learned more with regards to taking the time to meet up with old friends. For some reason with these friends of mine each one of them is going through something. One has a marriage that he works hard for and is now seeking family counseling. It took one to act and others to abide with the counsel for families sake. I would think this is a good thing. How many leave it off for too long and then jump out.
Then I have another one friend, that is working so hard that he never is home and yet he loves his wife very much. They made it through bad times in which he had went bankrupt within one of the largest lounges in a city. As well, he is now facing situations where he has some medical problems that may lead to something with regards to his entestine area. I didn’t know that till last week.
And then here for myself, I have left on a vacation or getaway with the challenge of breaking back into the a "mens club" within business. As business is a politic when it come to dealing with a few that are second generation to three older gents that were very successful and started from scratch. Within it all, do I care, at first I did. Then as time went on I didn’t. The relevance was not that important to me if there was a need to do anymore than be me. I am still on my vacation while working in a hotel which I am extending. Not due to anything but I find that it is my own prerogative and I have other passive involvements that don't require me to play the game with a few second generation that were fed by way of their father's spoon. They are human and I just think to myself, if they had to do it on their own could they. Meanwhile I know what I can do. Arrogance no. I know what I can and can't do. As if I could do everything and not be reliant on something then I guess I would be very arrogant. (No contradiction)...yet I still maintain my cadence. As I am in sync with myself.
I have found within this small town something that I had never seen before. And in some manner I came to understand it. Perhaps I totally changed the dynamics and looked at what was relevant within the now and in the future. Which is much different in comparison to my friends. But still it's come cohesive relevance that one finds in times where they come to understand that life has to be productive and somewhat abundant.
I could say I have been through hell and back, however that would be self pity. As many goes through things and I can truly say that in some manner everyone goes through contradictions – dysfunctions – along with something that brings about the weeds within the most perfect garden. Mentioned so well by Marc.
Within this area of peace – I find that peace is the ability to make decision, choices, give allowance that there will be contradictions – as nothing ever in life does stay the same. But what is relevant is not about how others find that you handle it, but that your comfortable within the manner that you handle it. And everyone has some ethics to the way in which they do this. Attraction is more than just image, it’s about several things. Most important is what it is that attracts you within you.
Everyone wishes to be the most ultimate of what they can be. And if I may add a person aspires within the values of understanding that we all are not created equal – it’s told to us that it’s so, but we are created substantial in whom we are and what we do.
Even the gardener had to take time to sit and rest, while looking how they desired to go about creating and cleaning up the garden. When they came back to it, they had a different view – it was green, not work...
What is Peace to you, if I can kindly ask? What do you imagine as a better world in a manner that can be ideological, or straightforward. Here is where some will partake and some won’t.
I really don’t know why. Do we live in a society that is only based on “I”? Everyone has his or her own ideals and perspectives. And I certainly know that everyone is tired of this area to even be discussed however each and everyone of us have something that we desire. Some have more some have less. I think that within the dynamics of a world being one that so desires for peace this is Iraq has become a sensationalized issue now – within politics. Yet we as ordinary human beings do have our own vantages on how we would deem to be a better world.
Not going to say it – but I think that no one will even touch this write. Why – I don’t know. With a few I do know why. “No one can achieve anything in this world without the mankind.” We are not an island onto ourselves. We are who we are. That renders somthing with regards to how we see a better world - from our own vantages.
Some find Multiply a tad to much glitter and have stayed the test of time with 
Y360.
There is no doubt they are different. I think that is great I find that at least getting back over there and writing definitely is a self write without getting to other peoples pages and reading. And right now I don't have much time. Not saying that you do, but I have been very busy. In several ways while living in hotels. But with regards to Y360 - It was never about being anything than authentic of course there was the click and delete and some posturing that goes along with any type of society. Within the writings you could come to realize who was genuine with what they were writing. I know there are some on here that don't know me at all. Aside of that I don't have the time to write as much as I did in a "bilateral blogging manner" which I read once from a friend on my Y360 blog.
I wanted to place down a few testimonials, if only I could place in the "send messages" as some would come out with some of the most tremendous writings by way sending a message on some subject matters that were a tad touchy. However within my manner I find that while embarking life. There is always something that turns on the light bulb - as I found the significance within the writes. I say this done and I as I never knew 99% on my blog I have left out the copy from my y360 that if one would click they could email them. Privacy is always respected.
These are a few of people that were from the United States, Australia, Iran, Iraq, and Guyana. Does it matter where we are from. No it doesn't. Not in any manner.
A few testimonials I was reading that came from no where. And within it all, I found some tremendous writers that wrote independently. And when I closed it up they certainly wrote for themselves in there own way. I took off the jpeg images and id names to ensure their privacy so it's just words from a variety of people.
Testimonials came to be something of a reference code of authenticity within the writings. I guess on this multiply it serves for a reference point as to the person behind the writings. Now I don't know 99% of them - but I have gained from them and from there vantages. It's like when you have read a book and there is something of substance and the person has their own ideologies, thoughts, way of writings that as time goes along you know that it's not fake, it's genuine - and not twisted.
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Thoughtful, insightful, vivid, true and a lot more! I am most fortunate that our paths have crossed. From the bottom of my heart wishing you much love and many blessings!
Fri Aug 24, 2007
Initiative Stain, is really smart and honest, I noted that in his style of communicating with others. His making me smile and laugh, thru his entertaining blogs and witty messages, which are open to new ideas and new ways of thinking. I feel honored to have him as a friend in my Y360 family.
Thu Dec 21, 2006
Visiting Jack’s page is like sitting at your favorite café or coffee house with a group of people having a great discussion. Jack’s unique creativity with his blogs tends to pull me in leaving me to think and ponder well after I’m gone. He is bright and articulate and I'm blessed to call him friend.
Sat Aug 25, 2007
Jack, a man I've come to know through his writes. My instinct tells me he's caring to most of his friends and a caring son as well. His blogs reveal his true and honest self; a man who loves diversity, has an earnest quest to learn more about other cultures. A man w/high regards on integrity and honesty!
Sat Jul 14, 2007
Los sueños se hacen realidad... Gracias por ser parte de mi vida todos estos años...Con amor.
Mon Oct 15, 2007
Life allows us to cross paths with people who enrich and encourage us. Thank you for allowing me to see through your eyes, to feel your passion and love for life and for having such a gentle spirit. There is only one success- to be able to spend your life in your own way. HE DOES AND CAN.WHY NOT!
Sun Jul 22, 2007
Jack...Jack...the dearest friend you will ever know! Always they’re to lend an ear, and try to help! You know I thought I had already written one.hmmm...old age damn it sux...:) never change Jack.no matter who, no matter what is said...be you, as you are the best!
Tue Sep 18, 2007
Jack, I am so happy to have met you here, I find you to be honest and forth right and so enjoy your writes! I look forward to a continued friendship and exchange of your wonderful words .You is a beautiful spirit and I am honored to know you. Keep the beautiful writes coming, and never change!
Thu Oct 25, 2007
I haven't known Jack long but from the first blog I read from him I recognized a human being. He's come to a point in his life where he recognizes the importance of experience of life while he is here and he shares that life with thoughtfulness and depth.
Thu Sep 21, 2006
Jack, you are incredible person rarely to find in these days, caring for ur family and friends, ur friendship is a precious thing, u have inspired me in so many times, every time when I feel down u lift me high, thank u, even I know thanks is not enough.
Wed Nov 29, 2006
I've known Jack for three years via the Internet. We have chatted and I have come to know him well. The funny Jack and the serious Jack. He is honest, intelligent and caring with respect for people from all over the globe. He says it how it is. I'm so glad our paths crossed my friend.
Sat Sep 15, 2007
Sincere, honest and open with a genuine interest not in cultural 'differences' but cultural 'likenesses'. This is how I have come to know Jack. He is a man of integrity and good character. When he writes about his day you will feel as though you had been there with him.
Thu Sep 27, 2007
Jack is a terrific friend to have, very caring and a very interesting man.
Sun Feb 25, 2007
I met Jack here and I find him to be a man with full of wisdom. He's blog entry covers all kind of topics and goes beyond any border. It’s nice to know such a nice man. Have a great life man and hope all your dreams will come through.
Thu Oct 19, 2006
Jack is a highly intelligent man who I am proud to call my friend. I may not comment a lot, but I do read his blogs. May not understand them all, but love reading them! Hugs, Jack!
Sun Oct 01, 2006
I believe Jack is highly talented and full of wisdom.... I really appreciate his peaceful spirit! Thank you for being my friend Jack...!
Tue Jan 02, 2007
Real Gentleman... good friend.... I think one day sky give him to us as a gift from the heaven.
Sat Sep 22, 2007
Aware. Thoughtful. Responsible. Dedicated to family. Generous. Gentlemanly. Easy going. Talkative. Open-minded. Just a few of the qualities that make Jack an interesting person to know and a terrific friend to have.
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I can honestly say without any doubt - they were genuine. And it was not about anything than the substance of what we all wrote. Of course there were the people
that wanted to have the largest blog on the face of the earth. But for me and still with time allowing it's more about the substance than the glitter.
Perhaps integrity...
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help figure out whom you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be, but when you meet them, you know that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And, sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but, on reflection, you find that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Illness, injury, loves, lost moments of pure greatness and sheer stupidity. All occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.
The people you meet who affect your life, and the successes and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally. Not only because they love you but also because they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from them everything that you possibly can for you may never experience them again. Talk to people you has never talked to before and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love. Break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up. Tell yourself that you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish it to be so create your life and go out and live it with no regrets.
Most importantly, if you love someone, tell him or her because you never know what tomorrow will bring. I recieved an email from a person I knew very well a long time ago from Brazil, she is married and she has just had her first baby. She went throught a tremendously hard situation with her mother whom was a neurologists that died of cancer - but at the same time three years later she is married has thier first child and is not on my blog however I thought I was a very nice picture. There was a time that Luci was ready to give in as she had lost her business and was very lost. Her loss of her mother was tragic but she handled it and then went on to do something. Seemingly Luci never allowed obstacles to impede her direction.
We all change...pend how it is and what it is - it's change as there is nothing on this earth that does stay exactly the same.
This is today and there is always a tomorrow.
How we change and what we do in the midst of changes are different to each and every one of us. Some can have cyclic changes and some can have changes that go from something that was a fruitless situation to a productive one. However, for myself change is within. Look at the seasons, right now where I live it's snowing and then in a month or so it going to be spring. There is change but within our own selves when we are challenged it can be a positive one or it can be one in which we think there is a change but we return to our same old routines of thought and we never break out of the old routine that created a situation. Yet there are some things within our own selves that is worthy of sustaining - maybe that is an inner karma of sorts.
Constructing a peaceful adjustment is one in which for myself has always been about attitude. If a change means that it's in order to clean up some of the things, or to deal with what you have at hand - then that is what assists within the change. When you have an authentic and peaceful feeling about oneself - then it's going into a direction of production. 
I guess what we wish to do is to see what it is we want to manifest. I was writing or just about to write with regards to a two week situation of training however as of yesterday things have changed slightly. Do I accept it - yes, do I thrive on life has done me wrong - no.
Each person has their own way in which they move their own inner spirit. And as mentioned once some will place blame on others for there own circumstances and then some will come to some realization that it's really not about anyone, nor is anyone going to do what is necessary to get the goal that is desired except our own determination. I came to accept a few things here on the Internet and as well I came to make some choices as to bringing the numbers down on my blog as I came to one persons blog that was just writing with no feed back. To me that was so different and yet it was interesting - but we all want and desire to have some feedback. Within this area of change - we all look at it from different vantages. We all are living in different corners of the land.
What we do and how we do it, is something that is relative to our own state of being...
Yesterday I was writing as I have been considered with regards to one position as I mentioned earlier with a place called The Royal Tyrell Museum. Meanwhile one of my friends in another city has not gotten back to me with regards to meeting up with him and staying with him and his wife.
So I have been staying at the Best Western and working on things with regards to meeting with a person that is my mentor. So I am not on vacation or a voyage anymore as once by coincidence something happened with a tremendous partaking. I have been now using a hotel as an office and the journaling of this voyage is now over with. I am not down I just see that a few friends are married and in time in which they had it hard, I had calls and so as I have not heard from Syd, I decided to say here as I had a call yesterday morning asking if I would really consider taking on this position. So I have a few friends that are doing the all or nothing thinking. And meanwhile I am maintaining my cadence and upon one telephone call I will be off to meet with one gent that groomed my foundation in my work.
So that all being said - I am not down but this is a challenge.
I have witnessed so many relationships that have ended and now I see amicable men that are doing everything for their wives. There are several things I could write on but most of all, I am just wishing to get on with it.
I am not sure if you have ever felt that way. Where you wish to have answer. Regardless of what the decision is, just make it and never waiver, but there could be more involved that I don't know about. As I already find that all three of these particular friends have situations going on in their marriage and I understand they are busy - however I don’t think they realize how busy I am as well. From a friend or from a company - you just want a decision to be made so that you can maintain your journey. Living within "waiting" is not easy. But you just do it and you maintain was wrote previous to this. Never waiver from what you wish to do, but at the same time ensure that there is a plan and understand that you’re human.
I don't know about you - I certainly am.
So here I am in my office in my suite. In a small town. Bored, I am bored.
No offence to those that live in a small town but tired of a hotel and just want something to bite into other than McDonalds!
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The picture is a friend of mine...
What can we do when we feel under the waves?
How can we find the
strength to climb back on top, and the patience to know that we
will? Here are ten cognitive exercises I use to maintain the most positive attitude I can:
1. Expect bumps! It is important to acknowledge that we will
sometimes feel down. Who wouldn't in our condition? But by expecting
rather than dreading down time, such periods become more tolerable.
In addition, recognizing that we will have blue periods helps keep
them in perspective. We will be able to say to ourselves, "I was
depressed before, and got out of it; this time, too, it will pass."
It is easy to forget that before our illness, there were times we
felt down. Now these periods are wrapped up in our medical problems;
but everyone gets depressed some of the time. After accepting that
we will sometimes feel sad, and even experience self pity, we can
concentrate on ways to shorten these periods and make them fewer and
farther between.
2. Track the changes. Keeping track of moods helps put ups and downs
into perspective. During your best times, make a conscious attempt
to capture the feeling. Leave notes on your wall attesting to the
way you feel. Living with chronic illness easily creates a Jekyll-
and-Hyde persona, where your optimistic self and your flare-up self
are not sufficiently acquainted. When we feel bad, it becomes quite
difficult to imagine that things can be otherwise. Similarly, during
times of improvement, it's amazing how quickly we may forget how bad
a previous period was, making subsequent flare-ups not only
intolerable but shocking. Counting and measuring the duration of the
bad times -- as well as the good ones -- can put them into
perspective. It may be that over time, our worst occurs about once a
month, although it feels much more frequent. This knowledge is
empowering, because we can remind ourselves that a bad flare is, for
example, our monthly temporary setback, and find ways to ride it out
until our baseline returns.
3. Stockpile fun distractions. We all need to keep lists handy of
the things that make us happy. One of the cruelties of our condition
is that when we need distractions most, we are least equipped to
seek them out. For this reason it is important to compile a list of
our favorite activities when we are feeling optimistic to be used
when we most need them. People with fibromyalgia often describe how
even their worst pain can be put on a back burner, so to speak, when
they become engrossed in an activity. This is not only a
psychological but a physiological response: our brains can only
process so much input at once. When we are engrossed in a beautiful
movie, talking to a good friend on the phone, or listening to our
favorite music while lying on a heating pad or in the bathtub, we
can trick our pain receptors into leaving us alone! Meanwhile
improvements in spirit have an added impact on our entire well-
being. Laughter is good medicine; while dwelling on our troubles
tends to compound them.
4. Shape your perspective. Is the glass half empty or half full?
Perspective determines, quite literally, how we view the world.
Having a chronic illness creates an ambiguous construction of
reality for us. Am I, for example, a successful cripple or an
unsuccessful professional? In American culture, much emphasis is
placed on independence, individualism, and achievement. Through this
lens, developing a condition that makes us feel more dependent and
less productive is likely to be a huge disappointment. Yet as we get
older, it becomes more likely that we, or somebody close to us, will
experience debilitating problems. People are often forced to adapt
to sudden, new conditions by adopting a perspective that
accommodates change. Our perspectives are shaped by the comparisons
we make and the expectations they create. Consider, for example, the
immigrant who had been practicing medicine in his home country, but
flees to the US to escape a repressive political regime. Here he
works as a janitor; after years of medical study, he has lost a
prestigious and rewarding occupation. Yet he is thankful for the
opportunity to work and wakes each day driven by hope, perhaps, of a
better future for his children. Yet his difficulties are also quite
apparent. What keeps his spirits up and makes him thankful rather
than bitter? His perspective.
5. Create a new self. If we hang on tightly to the "old self" we
were, finding the value of our "new self" becomes increasingly
difficult. (We may even exaggerate how fit that person was: "I
didn't need any sleep, I never felt bad, I could do anything!").
This does not mean we should totally discard our previous conception
of self; rather, we need to find a way to integrate the two. In
other words, we should seek to find in our new bodies new ways to
enjoy and experience the things that we had done before. Consider
all the aspects of yourself that you like, and the things that you
most want to do; then step by step, find ways to achieve as many of
these as you can. At the same time, recognize that our expectations
must shift so that we can once again meet them.
6. Don't forget the good stuff. While the physical symptoms of
fibromyalgia can feel all-encompassing, there are other parts of our
life--our social relationships, passions, family -- that also exist.
By focusing on the positive aspects of our life, we become more
aware of how many there are: the friends that stuck by us, the
things we still enjoy, and the accomplishments we have been able to
make, however small, under very different conditions. Because each
task now represents a challenge, we should celebrate whatever we
manage to accomplish. As we have been told many times, if we shorten
the list and pace ourselves whatever we do eventually adds up to
something to be very proud of.
7. "Oy, it could be worse." (The Jewish mantra). As comparisons
shape our view, it is helpful to find comparisons that will provide
a fuller appreciation for what has befallen us. OK, the "eat because
children are starving in (fill in the developing country)" did not
work for you as a child. But try to think of it this way: Many bad
things happen in the world. The odds are that some of them will
happen to us. Not because of anything that we have done, but
because, as the saying goes, shit happens. It takes only a short
view of the evening news to remind ourselves of the horrors
occurring every day. So, this is what has happened to us. We too
were caught. Let us examine what we have: (a) We know our condition
is not terminal, so we need not begin contemplating our pending
mortality. (b) As bad as we sometimes feel, our underlying condition
is not going to get worse. We have already experienced the worst,
and, to our credit, have gotten through it. (c) Although few people
achieve permanent remission, many improve significantly. As we
understand how our actions and emotions influence our general well-
being, we can find ways to partake in more and more activities.
8. Keep the hope alive! There is so much room for hope. It has only
been since the 1990s that our condition has acquired any legitimacy
from the medical community. We are in a far better position than the
generations before us who suffered without ever receiving
validation. We know much more about the important roles of exercise,
medication, stretching, pacing and meditation to bring relief and a
sense of control. Furthermore, as medical research increases, it is
only a matter of time before better therapies (and perhaps even a
cure!) are introduced.
9. Lean on me! A single most important predictor of how we do is the
support network we create. We certainly appreciate what it means
when someone helps us when we feel especially lousy. Make sure that,
within your means, you continue to be a good friend to those you
care about. We still have lots to give. During a good moment, write
to a friend that you are thinking about her. Help your family and
friends find ways to maintain their relationship with you. Invite
them to your place to eliminate traveling (and do not worry what
your place looks like! They came to see you, not your housecleaning
abilities). Try to be open with family members, while at the same
time supportive of their needs. Put yourself in their shoes as often
as possible -- it can be scary to have someone you love be sick!
Also make sure to seek help outside of your immediate circle so as
not to drain your closest friends and family. There are now all
sorts of support groups, both live and in virtual computer space.
10. Indulge whenever you can. We have lots of time to focus on our
thoughts. Most people do not have the luxury of taking time to relax
and think. OK, we did not ask for these "time outs." They are
demanded by the needs of our bodies. Nevertheless, we have control
over how we use this extra time. Instead of dwelling on what our
bodies are not doing, give your fantasy full liberty. Turn these
rest periods around to be indulgent time. In our mental playground,
we can practice dance steps we used to know (for there will be some
times we can dance!). We can use the time to think through problems
we face and how we want to spend time when we are feeling ready, or
we can analyze a movie we recently saw, say prayers, or mentally
write a letter to a friend. The article you are now reading is a
product of a spell in the middle of the night, when I lay in bed,
unable to sleep. After taking steps to make myself more comfortable,
I decided to think about what I would write next. I figured that if
I fell asleep, great!
I am coming to an end where there were so many wonderful things that went with this excursion into a small town that honestly I could write in length about. (Just finished and realize I have) I called a few friends that I had known since I was 15. And we all collaborated a plan to get together as well as I knew that I need to find myself again. There is some transition that has taken place for me. As I feel that I can spread my wings and fly. I have met people from all areas of this small town and then I have run into people that I never thought would be here in this place.How is that?
Then my one friend ironically was/is facing some hard times within his marriage along with another one. Seems to me single is fine. When Gary showed up from another city. I could see that he was in a situation. I had already been down in the mountains and enjoying them during the first week that I arrived here. I listened to what all was going on as he was talking about his situation while we began to park and get out packs to go hick. And I knew that at a certain time there was time for less talk and more silence. He took his path after we talked for a while. We talked but sometimes there is just a time to flow. Then after it all he could see what I was talking about with this place. And we caught up with the one friend of mine - again that I had contacted. And had not seen since my return from NYC.
We went out later that night and reminisced over the times in which we were in university together. And with the exception of one, which is Pat, Gary and I have changed but we haven’t. We are the same in so many ways - it's like time has not passed.
So within the cadence of doing everything I am now slowly embarking on another trip - actually three. As of today's date, I guess it's time to enter back into the mainstream of life. But this will be a time that I will never forget as it's one that I have done to relinquish myself through much areas within my family. My father will pass on while I am gone, and I accept that. I know that if I follow my own base and understand that pride does get in the way, I can fly back in to the dynamics of life within an area that I have done very well, actually have done exceptionally. So for me this vacation was like a retreat, but yet it was not one of an isolated style. It was a mix of so many people.
I never placed much weight into how much people had - I have place more in what they were about. Is everything that I am embarking on now just with the effort of only one thing in mind (money). No. Is it based on fulfilling with determination what I wish to do within my life - yes.
Will I succeed? I am not sure, but what truly is success? I think it's the endeavor and the path one goes in obtaining a goal. As after you have reached it - the honeymoon is over and so often people want more. Ironically there is a chap named Brian and he is a business friend of mine. The one that was given a silver spoon. I talked to Brian and everything is based on whom he knows. Brad Pitt and Ang Jolie are good friends of his - only due to the fact that they have invested money through his company. But it would be very neat to meet them as they have a house and are living where I am going in the next few weeks. Here again - in meeting them is it a big deal. No. I have met several people in my 20's through till now that I have found that they are just like you and me. They just are doing something within the arts and were fortunate enough that they broke into the entertainment market.
Coming back to all this as I write. I feel that I have changed or maybe returned. My goals are still there, but my values are much different. And there is something more within what I wish to do after I have finished this journey. But there again it will be done with cadence. My friend Gary is the same way. His cousin’s husband is Tony Blair’s cousin. We were talking about what he is going to do when he goes through a probably divorce. His goal is to go travel Europe and get the opportunity to meet former Prime Minister Blair and see Prague.
For myself...I am not even thinking that far. If I obtain my goals by the first month of this New Year, I think after a few months I am going to a few countries of Latin America. Or I may just return back here.
~ Note I don’t write in fiction ~
If I may say there are a few people that always pondered on who I am. I really don't know why that is. Over the weekend I showed a friend and he talked with one good friend I have for a brief period. I am just like YOU. We all are alike in some manner regardless of where we are or otherwise. I find in writing now, I really am away from the gossip and all. And when it really comes down to it I think this is where we share our inner most thoughts.
Hence, why not...
