Thank you for Understanding

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."   Helen Keller

 

When your desire for change is strong enough, you will find yourself gravitating toward what can help you achieve and maintain it. An outlook for me becomes a beacon of sorts. I find that there has been so much time that has been lost but then again as mentioned there is what that can be gained. Thanks GG as I never thought of that in that manner. As well to each that did write back on my last post.

 

I have made a decision recently and I will mention it later on but I my last post was something that truly was one of the most honest that I have written.  Just getting back from doing groceries and checking out a place to take some pictures however by the time I get there and back I it will be much too late.

 

However there is a meaning to this and where there is trust there is meaning. Sometimes I look back, but then it's so easy to stay in that complacent area and not forge ahead.  But I am learning more of where and what to abide by in making choices with life. In making them, you build back your confidence structure. Some have lived in one place all their lives. In some ways I truly envy them.

 

Amazing how this can be.

"To Engage or Not to Engage"

"Just when I get out they are sucking me back in" ~ Al Pacino, Godfather III

 

I find when I am about to enter into an argument, I never get into it, it’s not due to the fact that I wish to get into an argument. But I find that progress for myself is something that I cast off what I already know. My brother and I are much alike however at times we are very different.  Tonight I had a call from my brother as he was in a panic to resolve a situation. He wished for me to go over to his shopping center, as there were things that required me. So I had a call from my sister in law and rather than listening to her banter on, as she never cares much about anyone except herself – she insisted that I call my brother. Well, I knew that he had called as it was on my telephone display – and knowing that I am taking this time to get rid of this infection I was not going to enter that situation, as I know it so well.  My brother in some ways is desires to have people fix things for him and work around him. And when he set his wife to call me, rather than getting into it with her as she was adamant in telling me that I have to go do something, well, I don’t have to do one thing.  But perhaps under different circumstances I would have helped if I was not on sick leave and was able to. 

 

When finally cutting to the chase and calling my brother at his office – he was so fast in wanting to get into it. That I just basically told him “what would you do if I was not here?” followed by don’t you have a plan in place for someone to assist if something has broken down and you need someone to come in over night and over watch the mall?” As I mentioned to him that I just arrived here – meaning I moved here and if you can’t stand the heat in the kitchen – well I think it’s time to find some other occupation.  He is younger than myself and I would never have set my wife up to call someone to try to place the obligation onto another. People are people.

 

How we react to situations is what determines our own path and in no way, shape nor form does one need to dwell on areas that come into your realm of life that continually happen. As the way I see it, I recall spending hours on end within that industry of shopping centers. And I never asked anyone to do anything, but I did set up a management situation where I never needed to work in crisis management. 

 

There is a way to communicate and it’s more about understanding how to listen and how to deal with people. Ironically, I don’t hate my brother, but I know I have my own new line of work to do after deciding to take on a new area of occupation. And what is most important to me. Is me – when it comes to dealing with my brothers and sister.  Ironically I am the youngest one.

 

Standing up for what we truly believe can empower us and help us to direct our passions toward greater life experiences. Understanding the underlying reasons within family gives way on knowing when to be direct without it being necessary to get to you.  However, I like everyone do have my limitations, but I would rather handle things in a manner that never need to be handled in a manner where arguments need to come about, but as like anyone, once in a while you do need to communicate otherwise your going to be walked over. And there is a big difference to arguing, then staying calm and then homing into the issue and after listening to it all - just speaking your own mind so that there is clarity so that it does not happen again.

 

As within families - there is always at sometime for each and every one of us that things do come up. Every family has a functional side to it as well varying extents a non-functionality. For myself, I just push it aside and I would rather not dwell on things as such why?

There are somethings that change when they can, and for myself I am in motion and a postive one that is not waivering from situations as such. It's kind of like having three different things to choose to each, and for me I don't care too much for things that  are redundant. As life is about moving forwards. Not backwards.... 

 

What functions is tolerance and maintaining your own self-respect.

 

 

~ Rolling With the Roles ~

Roles ----- Gosh this is a hard one.  The way I view our roles is we define it out and we make it as real as possible. But a role of a parent, a role of a spouse, a role of any human being isn’t that simple.

 

When you take on the role of a parent your taking on an invisible contract with your children. And I certainly don’t feel that means of a material manner. At best I think that parents these days give too much to what we call – or they themselves call “The Lost Generation”. Focusing on this for a moment. I do believe that there is a point where within the role of a parent you do the best that you can to nurture your children during the formative years.  Thereafter there is a time in which needs and wants come into play. Generalizing this, some of our new generations are growing up in a world that they believe that everything should come to them. Of course, I am talking about that point where the formative years are over. And for some parents it’s a hard go at that stage where the invisible contractual agreement should have some rate of return. So often a parent feels obligated as the role of a parent to give, give and then keep giving.  Mind you on the other hand there is a vast new younger generation that seems to be advocating things in a manner that they are doing things that highly surpass the things that were done before. Is functionality an obligatory throughout ones entire life as a parent?  I don’t think so.

 

Our own roles in life are something that we are always adapting with. Mind you I don’t know all the answers in the world and never have subscribed to the feeling that I do.  However, the one thing that I certainly do know – is that whatever we seek and what ever we wish for, should be an authentic wish. We carry out our roles that we have set up within our surroundings and we abide by our own needs and wants.  I think we are all closer that what we think. If one would track back anyone’s history from this date backwards – I am sure that it would show a lot of different communities as well as ethnic groupings.  None of us is pure.  The entire time of our lives to this very day has been nurtured from the day in which we were born.  More than half of the European males carry a line that can be traced back to Genghis Khan, whom came from Mongolia. My point, it’s useless to judge people because we all are humans drawn from different and yet all within the same lot.  I think that is more of regard rather than a role. Perhaps this is just a thought.

 

The transitions that are going along with society in our day and age are perplexing at times.

Speaking of time, that is a commodity that is something that is so hard to set some role towards, but there is always a will and a way.

 

Do we need to go back in time? In my opinion – no, but is there more of a need to plan and have an outline of what we see as being a role for ourselves. Definitely. There are some things that will throw away good time which takes away what we desire to do. Over the last week, I have thought about a few of these areas.  Today was a lazy day – well earned and I enjoyed it. However at the same time I understand for myself that, there are some hard choices, decisions to make and sometimes that isn’t easy. However in abiding by what you believe in, and what our roles may be are very different however what we all share in common is freedom.  Freedom of choice, decision making and freedom speech.  I have a high regard to some of the people that are passing by and are taking the time to write something, mind you I am not looking to do anything more than just give my slant on things. But roles are something in which we do have and when we abide by what we believe in – that is the best that can shape where we go. A challenge is a positive one that tests ones foundation within what they have set out as roles. 

 

My role today was to get a few areas done for myself – which I had however that being said sometimes you bend, and sometimes you stand firm.  Regardless it really comes down to being a human.  For some reason I see a connection with roles and rules - but I don't think they are the same thing exactly.  Regardless we role along...

~ Living within A Neutral Manner ~

Energy becomes very positive as we get to that level we term as neutral, because it’s epitomized by release of the areas that typically have us function at lower levels.  Our consciousness tends to see dichotomies and takes on rigid positions where things become more complicated in a complicated world that is with many factors, rather than black and white.  We thrive on things being exact. But is there an exact to everything in life. I would say that while I write this in no manner could that be however it’s the level of neutrality that we adhere to which leads to a manner that is simply neutral.

For myself I have come to some neutrality, I have actually carried it out the past month and a few weeks. So often I refer to it as just “going with the flow”.

In the last month and some, I can honestly say I have rendered a neutral manner – a flow. I do believe that people living within a neutral manner render something more. They render something that is contentment. Contentment leads to happiness.  I was content to merely just go and get shopping done in the morning and then to just finish up things as much as time permits. I just flow with it.  I had met with a business person that I didn’t realize that I had know early on in my late 20’s and he knew me from all that I had done within my work. However that all being said, he was trying to get more of the “inside news” on a few people that are half retired now.  And silence is golden.  I find that there are areas that are viable to break, but within it all I maintain that cadence.

The level of awareness comes with age or perhaps it’s with maturity. But I have literally been able to get to an area that took two years of obligatory and now as I know from a distance that my father will be having another CT Scan. I function in a manner that is acceptance.  Acceptance is not something that is about passivity, which would tend to lead towards apathy. To the contrary, acceptance leads to one enabling engagement on one’s own terms.  But is life complicated – yes it is however there is always a manner from which we gain, change, and re-arrange our own cadence within our own flow.  Nothing within our lives stays consistently the same. Tomorrow I have another meeting and what will come from it, I am not sure but I flow with it. 

We determine our own human behavior I suppose.

*This picture was taken while I was driving throughout the city yesterday and I wished to bring along the camera and catch some shorts that have a vantage and angle that represent something, but my focus was not exactly to do it – if I was not able to do it, that was all fine. Ironically there was a small marriage going on and security allowed me to go up into the balcony area to take some pictures.

Thriving With Patience

I will write this as we always thrive on results.  I certain I am not alone on this thought.  Sitting here after a day of several things unrelated to the Internet. I sure that there are people desire to have things take place quickly.

In my previous writing I mentioned about contradictions. Well, perhaps I am writing a contradiction or the way it is.

In deciding to hold on with my plans to go to another city and yet while at the same time extended my stay for good reason.  There are a few very delightful people here that are from this small town. As well there are some most interesting people that I have found coming here from different places of the world and as well as the folk that work and live here. 

After a full day I had a call from a friend that is sort of reliant on my going to visit him soon. Meanwhile, I extended my booking here within this hotel. Based on waiting for a few things to arise. 

So the decision comes to be do I go to a city to visit a friend for one day and come back as there is one gem of a situation that I am waiting for and after this weekend my intention was then to go onto two other cities. I am not certain of this, however it will be necessary to make one tomorrow night.

One side of myself that is thinking stay till the end of my booking as I have planned on. Then there is another side that has that obligatory area of making a one day trip and come back.  Upon getting the telephone call tonight I mentioned to my friend that I would give him a call tomorrow. This will give some time and allowance to making a decision that allows me to decide on if I will go. I already feel I should stay put and then thereafter go thereafter. But it gives me time to let him take it all in and re approach it and then there is an understanding. 

I had a call from my mother today and she indicated that my father had a good treatment 3rd treatment of therapy with his cancer. She mentioned that his words for her to tell me are that he is very proud of me.  This is good, it’s of value, and it’s family.

What does this all come too in conclusion? I am neither sure nor certain.
I know or realize there are several things that I am working with and in some manner – there is always a way. There is always a manner to multi task in a method that brings it all together without no hard feelings.

I guess we all require that timetable to be working on our side but sometimes I remind myself that moments seem to change each and every day.  And with that being said change is good, patience is a method to a means.  But the meaning never unfolds till the journey is completed. But in having patience gives way to not requiring immediate results, rather adapting to working time in a manner that is working with you rather than against you. Well this is a banter, but that is my write and as well for those celebrating the holidays of Thanks Giving - enjoy!

One important value of sorts is living within the day and understanding that if you don’t succeed first, try again…