Sunsets I have seen so many

There is something to a sunset.  Today I got everything prepared as far as doing wash and all those things.  I have been wishing to find the time where you can just sink within words and create something.  Tomorrow I head to the hospital, as it’s my first day I believe it shall start three times a day for just a few hours.  Seemingly, I have lost that enthusiasm with things right now.  I look forward to tomorrow but I can honestly say that I do miss some of the things especially during this time of the year.  Tomorrow is another step within this cadence thing, which I have done, and all goes well – but I admit that for some reason I don’t feel that enthused with much of anything right now.  After yesterday in speaking with some friends, I thought that I should already be done with what I set out to do and I do wish to head back to the city.  I have covered much ground within the last few months and here I am about to embark on something very good and today was just going through the rituals of an ordinary day.

Then right after supper, I looked out and I couldn’t resist getting a picture.  I would suppose that I have made out well here and within a manner, I do feel isolated, as I have never lived in this small of a town.  There really is no one within my age to meet with and there are times you do feel alone.  I hope that all shall go well tomorrow and I am not anticipating anything.  I pretty much know what I shall be doing basically yet I feel like I am not apart of the groups which are afforded within a city.  I guess sometimes you just have to work it out for yourself.  I suppose that I have been thinking about all that I am away from as it is really that way. Then on the other side, I think of what can become.  Yet all is within a return to a life stream where I am back within my own place.  I am sure that anyone would feel that way as I did come here by my own choice yet I do feel like the odd one out.  I hope that I will be able to look back

at this duration and understand how short a period of time it was.  As right now, the days go by very fast – because I am being innovative.  There are things within life that everyone has to face.  Perhaps after this all there shall be a new journey – but I do have to tell you that there are introverts and there are extroverts and I do enjoy my own self time yet – I loved meeting people and having those ties with the friends which I have.

I look forward to tomorrow but I really wish that June would be here like yesterday at times.  My hopes are that tomorrow this position within the hospital shall be one where I meet some new p

eople.  Don’t get me wrong but I miss the university and all the things, which came along with the city. 

 

Yet I know that I am in much better health than before. I am progressive but it really has been mostly due to my own self. I can honestly say that yet today I was thinking of the entire picture.  

 

Sometimes you just have to allow destiny to take its course yet I have been so used to being in control of what I do and how I do things.  As for the last week, I have been exercising patience.