Whatever that is, one should move forwards. Folks may get in the way but that is life. It happens to me too. And each time I just take a long pause ... and sigh. Coz that is the only best way to do. tight hugs
Do not let the results of you actions get in the way of the intentions of your heart - keep giving and look to see if and how you can do it better or what you can improve from the expeience. Love always wins!!
I am trying that Keith I didnt think all of this would add up but it had - the situation just became worse. And I will look at all variables and I know I am not depressed but I guess you could say exhausted and just coming out of it.
All has been and then right after Remberance Day things took a change with my father - seemingly he will not talk to me at all - yet he has all these requests which I had to take two days off and it's time to have a sit down family talk as my father's requests are burning me out. Up to just the last week this was not the case and all things were going well within what I am doing and well....there is a person whom has his own life as well. I don't think that is selfish in any means.
Grammy it was going great and ironically Remberance Day seemed to anger my father as I went to show him it all and he said he is not interested, and he is still level - but stubborn as they come. All has been going very well and I knew things were beginning to fall. I went to bed last night at 7pm and awoke at 3am. I do look within the mirrow and then I will think for a half hour take a good look at myself - all I came up with was I was faltering and I have been pulled at all angles and one does start to loose that "sence of self" when there is nothing other than living "on call". The recent cold and snow didnt help as it's very cold now and it did as well come on just so fast.
Tee I have been angry at times, I literally will take what has been happening and to internalize it is not healthy. Today is a day which shall be that of change. Or at least for me it is even if there are a small amount of changes. There has to be something instrumental and that needs to be a sit down and talk with my folks - and it shall....
Theresa I have to make some adjustments. One year ago I had the very same thing happening and I nearly had a mini stroke and I promised myself I would never let that happen again. Sanity? I would have lost it by now but I think that I have never had a break - mentally as I have had a faith - who knows. Yet I won't say I was not within a funk as of Tuesday. But I must rekindle some of the basics of what I was doing this time last year as it worked. Well, I didnt have the family ordeal either when I came out of the hospital and then how quickly it returned but now it went way up there. Thanks as finally this morning I am feeling much better mind you from teeth, to joints, to work, to family....and not my own.
Moving onwards and I sincerely thank you all - what I do know is never place yourself second - even with family matters. If it was my own family this would be much different.
It's crazy but taking care of people, and helping people could sometimes be the difficultest thing to do and get done. A lot of folks don't like to accept nor want help when they need it most. Pride, and it hurts to admit you can't do something or aren't as strong as you once were or whatever. I had an aunt who cared for her parapeligic brother with meds and cleaning and caring and he was mean mean to her. He chased everybody else away, but she refused to give up. It's hard, caregivers often NEED their own caregivers. Good on you, I'm not sure whats going on but I bet you do the best you could too.
Whatever that is, one should move forwards. Folks may get in the way but that is life. It happens to me too. And each time I just take a long pause ... and sigh. Coz that is the only best way to do. tight hugs
ReplyDeleteDo not let the results of you actions get in the way of the intentions of your heart - keep giving and look to see if and how you can do it better or what you can improve from the expeience. Love always wins!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you are doing the best you can. Noone can ask more than that. Hugs Jack.
ReplyDeleteTomorrow is another day, dear Jack, have a good night, beijos!
ReplyDeleteIt is difficult. Hope u feel better
ReplyDeleteIt is not easy -- but you've done well thus far.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing pretty darn good, patience is a virtue
ReplyDeleteTry to do all that you can ... and be satisfied with that much. Some people are better caretakers than others. We are not all the same. Hugs
ReplyDeletecorrect..
ReplyDeletePrayers to keep you strong and sane, Jack. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI am trying that Keith I didnt think all of this would add up but it had - the situation just became worse. And I will look at all variables and I know I am not depressed but I guess you could say exhausted and just coming out of it.
ReplyDeleteAll has been and then right after Remberance Day things took a change with my father - seemingly he will not talk to me at all - yet he has all these requests which I had to take two days off and it's time to have a sit down family talk as my father's requests are burning me out. Up to just the last week this was not the case and all things were going well within what I am doing and well....there is a person whom has his own life as well.
ReplyDeleteI don't think that is selfish in any means.
Sue I am....
ReplyDeleteThanks Cinn - as of today I must have conference with my folks and right now I am on time off.
ReplyDeleteGrammy it was going great and ironically Remberance Day seemed to anger my father as I went to show him it all and he said he is not interested, and he is still level - but stubborn as they come. All has been going very well and I knew things were beginning to fall. I went to bed last night at 7pm and awoke at 3am. I do look within the mirrow and then I will think for a half hour take a good look at myself - all I came up with was I was faltering and I have been pulled at all angles and one does start to loose that "sence of self" when there is nothing other than living "on call".
ReplyDeleteThe recent cold and snow didnt help as it's very cold now and it did as well come on just so fast.
Tee I have been angry at times, I literally will take what has been happening and to internalize it is not healthy. Today is a day which shall be that of change. Or at least for me it is even if there are a small amount of changes. There has to be something instrumental and that needs to be a sit down and talk with my folks - and it shall....
ReplyDeleteThere is a term to doing this as well as some limitations Fran. It's not like I started this three months ago.
ReplyDeleteTheresa I have to make some adjustments. One year ago I had the very same thing happening and I nearly had a mini stroke and
ReplyDeleteI promised myself I would never let that happen again. Sanity? I would have lost it by now but I think that I have never had a break - mentally
as I have had a faith - who knows. Yet I won't say I was not within a funk as of Tuesday. But I must rekindle some of the basics of what
I was doing this time last year as it worked. Well, I didnt have the family ordeal either when I came out of the hospital and then how quickly
it returned but now it went way up there. Thanks as finally this morning I am feeling much better mind you from teeth, to joints, to work, to
family....and not my own.
Moving onwards and I sincerely thank you all - what I do know is never place yourself second - even with family matters.
ReplyDeleteIf it was my own family this would be much different.
It's crazy but taking care of people, and helping people could sometimes be the difficultest thing to do and get done. A lot of folks don't like to accept nor want help when they need it most. Pride, and it hurts to admit you can't do something or aren't as strong as you once were or whatever. I had an aunt who cared for her parapeligic brother with meds and cleaning and caring and he was mean mean to her. He chased everybody else away, but she refused to give up. It's hard, caregivers often NEED their own caregivers. Good on you, I'm not sure whats going on but I bet you do the best you could too.
ReplyDeleteI thank you M EE.
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