I forget what day and right now what week I know it was within three weeks that I went in at two am to the emergency. I dont want to discuss this much but all I will say is that I the ER was silent and I was then excused a few people came and said to the resident something. I was in a fog at the time. He said to go to my doctor the next day as by orders she has to see me. She didnt see me and I layed having convulsions till I got on the phone and called for a ambulance. I was then taken in. Some injection was givin I don remember much for a day and then saw a neurologist that said that this is a very very mild stroke (mini). I finally as of today have been able to walk but slow as well the only think is time but it's told to me that it will be two weeks which is about now and then I will have my ability back.
The hardest thing is not being able to talk. I forget the name of this but at least I am having cognitive function. I was on ealier. I do drive, I have a friend that comes with me but I am very angry. Two days was much too long but there is no brain damage from the scans. I can write if I keep writing and all seems to be good but I know how this could have gone. All I have to say is that I have had my share of stress and much more than most really do know. And I had psychological tests as well.
I am not making comment on this as I am weighing out my options on this one as I may very well .........I think you know what I mean. Right now I have been eating ensure....and trying to get in food.
I am sorry people but I am very angry. But will get over it.....so I am thinking postive and slowly shall win this race here or whatever you call it. I just know if it was a true stroke it would be indefinately. I don't have traumatic just a mild case and well I am just very angery.......very angry but am a passicifist.
just from the little bit that you are mentioning here, i would certainly be angry too. i hope you have family or friends around to support you...both in your therapy and in being able to find away to have them pay in some way for not caring for you correctly. All in good time. Focus your anger right now toward making sure you get better. Since you can't talk yet, it's good you can write and communicate that way.
ReplyDeleteI raise my glass of ensure to yours. This stuff tastes like CRAP but it does help. Dont' let the anger consume you too much. Find out what caused this and then recover. Make sure this is not something that happens again. It's very scary!!
ReplyDeleteanger is natural---but temper it with patience----
ReplyDeleteWell I have been off and cant mention much on this but in time shall but right now.....I am sure you know why Kimmy.
ReplyDeleteI am on my own with this even thought this is amongst friends only I can not write too much. but I do with to write...but am angry, scared not scared but the more I come to realize all of this, the more I do get angered but I cant write much on till I make a decision tomorrow. And telephone conference with two professionals....
ReplyDeletethink of what could have been and that is what makes me angery imanada.
ReplyDeleteTake care, Jack. I'm sorry to hear of your medical problems, and hope for a full recovery.
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ReplyDeleteinvite to Mexico? haha
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about your medical condition Jack and it sounds like your on the road to recovery. Your in my prayers buddy and give a shout out if you need to talk.
ReplyDeleteBill am and your one that is like many others and your not full of B.S. and I respect you much with that and I have cognitive function....but I have wished to say that as you are truly your own self. That is rare on here. I am glad your a friend.
ReplyDeleteHi Jack, I'm sorry to hear about your medical condition. I myself need to get serious about my health. I went to my regular Dr a few weeks ago and I had my cholestrol checked. I just got the results yesterday in the mail and it wasn't good. So I need to start taking care of myself better that's for sure. Wishing you a good weekend!
ReplyDeleteGary
Get this done and I am going to think that I have one year to live and just enjoy life to the fullest.
ReplyDeletethank you gary.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your condition and this lack of overall treatment. Hopefully all this will be reversible. My thoughts and prayers go out to you my friend and I hope you will feel more like your old self soon.
ReplyDeleteDoug uncertainty
ReplyDeleteBeen glad to have some good folk and all but am uncertain.
ReplyDeletedon't be angry hon ~ you need to think positive during your recovery, which will take time but you will be with your full faculties real soon..... *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI know you're angry and with good reason. Please try and keep a calm and positive attitude. I'm sure that once to start to feel better, you'll think clearer. Hang in there dear.
ReplyDelete{{HUGS}}
I can fully understand your anger and frustration.
ReplyDeleteYou need to slow down a little though Jack .... this is just a warning .... perhaps you have been trying to do too much. You have had much to deal with of late and this is your bodies way of begging you to slow down a little. My heart and thoughts are with you and I just wish we were a little closer geographically, because then I could come and nag you to take it easy. Love and postive thoughts are being sent your way .... ~HUGS~
I agree with everyone and ask you to focus on your recovery and channel your anger towards healing. One step at a time, get better and better, and then deal with the inappropriate treatment you received.
ReplyDeletethis morning at it's just 7am now I will be out and I will walk as best as I can and then I will go get some proper clothes for this winter as we were hit very hard. I promise you I will never do this again it's not my way but I do feel there are some good friends. I am going to write a book when the time comes but what is the hardest thing is the lonilness that comes I do mean that...But I have to think up and postive. I hope and pray that today is not issues within family of cancer or otherwise.
ReplyDelete..gm there ,, keep positive ..there is light at the end of the *tunnel*:)[hugs]
ReplyDeletePlease dont feel lonely ... because you are not alone .... thoughts and love are with you continually .... take a breath and just free flow for awhile.
ReplyDeletePerhaps this is the time that you do start that book ... because writing comes from inside ... its all head and emotional stuff ... your hands can be your voice ~smile~ .... Oh Jack .... the way you are feeling will pass .... for sure it will pass and you have loads of support from all of us here .... I will always read you whether you write or not ... I sensed there was something wrong and to me, that means we are connected beyond the realm of visual and written .... you take care my friend .... there are many wonderful moments ahead! ~HUGGS~
Will be back online a little later this afternoon ... if you want to vent!!
All the things you are feeling just now are natural, you have had such a shock to the system.
ReplyDeleteYou have a lot of function to play with, lots to work with and many more will return.
take care Jack, This is only a blip on your landscape, you can and will proceed on beyond it. (((hugs)))
I know you jest but a vacation in Mexico with Ben and Harriet could be very therapeutic. : ) I hope your recovery is quick.
ReplyDeleteYou've been through a lot and the anger is normal probably , anger in itself isn't negative it's what you chose to do with it and how you respond. It seems you are able to respond in a positive manner and make the best of today. Prayers for you and hope you can rest and get well soon..My therapy is walking places like by the Lake or the wooded paths by the river and writing. Some venting helps
ReplyDeleteTry to let the anger go Jack. As it can keep you sick. But, take care of the things you need to, so this will not happen again to you or anyone. The hospital was negligent to your treatment. Take care & I'm keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.
ReplyDeleteJack let go of the things that makes you angry and mad ... please relax. God ... what kind of hospital you've been brought to. I can't imagine if anything bad happened to you ... a warmth tight hugs. And keep your ccool please
ReplyDeleteyou do what is good for you and I shall do the same. Period.
ReplyDeleteHarriet hates my behind GG...I think you know that.
ReplyDeleteJack ...
ReplyDeleteok sorry......I mean it.
ReplyDeleteam sorry too ... you take care
ReplyDeleteYou have every right to be angry, let it all out, its part of your rehabilitation.
ReplyDeleteI am thinking of you,
take care,
Michelle
Thank Michelle I have been for the past two days when things were ok yet I could not talk and to be honest even now
ReplyDeletethis area where the tooth was extracted does bother me but we will see how it goes. But maybe that is as you say.
Sorry for all your going through right now Jack. If your able to, let go of that anger through photography. Get out there and snap away some pictures. It's good therapy for your mind and soul. Know that your New York friend is here praying for you, and here if you ever need a shoulder or listening ear. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI know as this is one thing that my best friend indicated to me and am doing...it will come and go I know that but I dont wish to sit idle as I have been out and then walked and I dont wish to come down I have set the situations to my family and I am not in a position right now to do anything but me - it sounds selfish but it's the best thing one can do for a few day. Perhap last night was a little much I am not sure but only ...................I found today to be rather hard to be honest.....
ReplyDeleteI don't like the notion that you are on your own through this difficult time. But truly, the very worst thing you can do for yourself right now is to hold onto this anger and stress yourself out even more. Venting is a wonderful way to release, as long as it keeps on going once it gets its wings. You know? Then delve into activities which comfort and soothe, no matter how silly you think they are. Emotional rehab is very personal. You got this Buddy! :)
ReplyDeleteI am glad and as well this shall pass....it is rather personal and that is why I am going only by way of friends.
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