March 10, 2008

Our reputation is not located in us. It resides in the minds of others.  Therefore, we have no control over that what so ever.  If we speak to 30 people, we will have 30 different reputations. 

Listening to your own inner self and conduction yourself based on what you inner self says to you is your own purpose.  Most people will have a “gut instinct” of sorts that usually becomes true.  Ironically there is nothing from which to base it on but some means of self-understanding it comes into being. 

I know there’s nothing I can’t do within reason, however I have come to learn that unless you disconnect from the your own source being based on what other people think – and connect with what your own needs and inner self tell you – life is a trail that has no path as it’s intent is not for myself but it would be for only the guilt of having to please others continually and as well to please my ego.

Becoming or being convicted to ones own self is by not means selfish, it’s the ultimate of bringing about all the areas that continually define whom we are and affords the ability to have an openness to many dynamic things that can come into one’s own life. 

I know for myself that I once was based on all ego and reputation, but with some aging and maturity, I have come to realize that we all are people, and people are a part of our trail but not ones in which we pave our own dynamical path for, we walk it in or own way - and people do come into play. 

We all take in what we desire and we love. I guess it would be more about attitude than reputation.  One’s attitude has a the ability to take a person to places they would never have believed there would get to, only by means of being connected with their own selves, creating their own harmony based on nothing more than what they at in tune with and wish to associate with. There are ones that will come into my life that are substantial, but yet where my true sense of self comes from within.  As my own inner voice, or my own centre commonly known, as “ki” in Japanese, or “chi” in Chinese are what I am and who I am.  And that source is the one in which guides me and gives allowances that allow me to walk my own path in a manner that is very purposeful.

This isn’t about detachment, as we all need to be amongst people. However, being truthful with ones own self, give way to no guilt, no need to be someone we are not as well to be able to grow for the sake of our own self, rather than growing for a reputation based on what other desire or think regarding ourselves.  It’s about the power of our own selves and it’s something to be grateful for as it allows all possibilities to generate and unfold.  Reputations are slowly built in life and probably a reputation comes to unveil it’s self when we come near to a finality in our life. In which then we can sit back and reminisce, smile and understand that our trail led us to a point whereby we can reflect and be please about the reputation we made.  I would suppose it would be something like a symbolic reward at a point in life where one’s own life has finished, but from now till then I have always left my reputation for others to debate.
To live in the need of a glory of living life for an immediate reputation actually stymies the actual embarking on one’s own life.  I don’t know of any person that could obtain meaning within life by way of living for a reputation of immediacy.  By way of embarking on my own journey, and understanding where my own placement in life is affords me to continually grow. Along with others that are on that same journey of embarking on their own walks of life and yet merging together in a relative collaboration.