Monday, November 12th

I am coming to an end where there were so many wonderful things that went with this excursion into a small town that honestly I could write in length about. (Just finished and realize I have)  I called a few friends that I had known since I was 15. And we all collaborated a plan to get together as well as I knew that I need to find myself again. There is some transition that has taken place for me. As I feel that I can spread my wings and fly.  I have met people from all areas of this small town and then I have run into people that I never thought would be here in this place.How is that?

Then my one friend ironically was/is facing some hard times within his marriage along with another one.  Seems to me single is fine.  When Gary showed up from another city. I could see that he was in a situation.  I had already been down in the mountains and enjoying them during the first week that I arrived here.  I listened to what all was going on as he was talking about his situation while we began to park and get out packs to go hick.  And I knew that at a certain time there was time for less talk and more silence. He took his path after we talked for a while. We talked but sometimes there is just a time to flow.  Then after it all he could see what I was talking about with this place. And we caught up with the one friend of mine - again that I had contacted. And had not seen since my return from NYC. 

We went out later that night and reminisced over the times in which we were in university together. And with the exception of one, which is Pat, Gary and I have changed but we haven’t.  We are the same in so many ways - it's like time has not passed.
So within the cadence of doing everything I am now slowly embarking on another trip - actually three. As of today's date, I guess it's time to enter back into the mainstream of life. But this will be a time that I will never forget as it's one that I have done to relinquish myself through much areas within my family. My father will pass on while I am gone, and I accept that.  I know that if I follow my own base and understand that pride does get in the way, I can fly back in to the dynamics of life within an area that I have done very well, actually have done exceptionally.  So for me this vacation was like a retreat, but yet it was not one of an isolated style. It was a mix of so many people. 

I never placed much weight into how much people had - I have place more in what they were about.  Is everything that I am embarking on now just with the effort of only one thing in mind (money). No. Is it based on fulfilling with determination what I wish to do within my life - yes.
Will I succeed? I am not sure, but what truly is success? I think it's the endeavor and the path one goes in obtaining a goal. As after you have reached it - the honeymoon is over and so often people want more. Ironically there is a chap named Brian and he is a business friend of mine. The one that was given a silver spoon. I talked to Brian and everything is based on whom he knows. Brad Pitt and Ang Jolie are good friends of his - only due to the fact that they have invested money through his company. But it would be very neat to meet them as they have a house and are living where I am going in the next few weeks.  Here again - in meeting them is it a big deal. No. I have met several people in my 20's through till now that I have found that they are just like you and me.  They just are doing something within the arts and were fortunate enough that they broke into the entertainment market.

Coming back to all this as I write. I feel that I have changed or maybe returned. My goals are still there, but my values are much different.  And there is something more within what I wish to do after I have finished this journey.  But there again it will be done with cadence.  My friend Gary is the same way. His cousin’s husband is Tony Blair’s cousin. We were talking about what he is going to do when he goes through a probably divorce.  His goal is to go travel Europe and get the opportunity to meet former Prime Minister Blair and see Prague.

For myself...I am not even thinking that far. If I obtain my goals by the first month of this New Year, I think after a few months I am going to a few countries of Latin America.  Or I may just return back here. 

~ Note I don’t write in fiction ~

If I may say there are a few people that always pondered on who I am. I really don't know why that is. Over the weekend I showed a friend and he talked with one good friend I have for a brief period.  I am just like YOU. We all are alike in some manner regardless of where we are or otherwise. I find in writing now, I really am away from the gossip and all. And when it really comes down to it I think this is where we share our inner most thoughts.

Hence, why not...