Which one doesnt have control. This I do know with my father as I had seen him today but just for a small amount of time. He said a few decent things and one could really fall into a depression. Over the weekend I talked with my brother as well with my cousin. Yet it's not easy but what does one say within this stage of the game but to accept things.
Of course I have had a weekend of over thinking and what I had done was got on the phone and called my two cousins and still I think that no one really knows what it's like to have a revolving door where at any given time my father could very well be gone. For myself it has been rough. And within this time where I am doing what I have set out to do the one fear what that my father and myself would leave on a bad note.
I left early this morning and was back at 2pm. I do thank you for your kind remarks within a trying time. The main concern medically with my father is he is a stage 4 non hodgkins survivor of 12 years with an abnormal auto immune system which within the last two years I knew full well that at some point in time he would have some situation - yet who knows where it goes - I am glad I met with him as well I am not going to get all down. There is nothing romantic about areas like this and I never assume anything and hope for the best.
The best thing for myself at this point is to keep busy and allow that time where one can take there mind of areas such as this.