Rekindling Life & Spirit

I don’t think it’s necessary to go into details however shortly after the New Year there were many things which I had as major stressors nearly every day. I ended up at emergency.  I would suppose that the combination of several things were much more than one person could do family, as well as other avenues which all added up.  I spent a few days within the emergency unit as my blood sugar levels were much too low.  I could go on with this but two weeks past, my doctor in concert with one tremendous lady which is part of the health care system made some arrangements for a respite.  I guess I was pushing things myself as well as there was far too much on my shoulders.

Upon being given several options I thought that a respite away from my home would be good and I arrived here today.  I shall see how it goes within this small town and to not have that time not have an obligation and just take each day as it comes shall be good I think. During this time the weather became so cold and within a few days the forecast is that it warms up – as it has literally gone down to 50 below zero within the last few days. Within a few days the weather is supposed to be back up there and I do have an open agenda within this town and I am thankful for that.

I believe I shall stay here within this place for the next few months. Who knows? I do like it. Small towns are nice and we shall see how it goes but thank god as I am in good hands, as well as I know I have my own work cut out for me.  And while here I do place to nurture back as again I came very close to blowing out a gasket.  It’s been a humbling experience but there is something that can come about from anything if I wish for it to be.  I think this was truly within the coming as I had spoken with many and to my surprise most of it I already realized. 

I have always been very determined, yet many things did add up. I don’t think it’s necessary to mention all but what I do look towards is my own independence was I can live life and readapt.  All things concerning back home are taken care of and again it’s time for setting goals.  The goals that are with the intention of what I wish to do.  I have always been very family oriented – yet one friend of the families told me that I may very well have to let it all go for the next six months if not a year for my own health. When she said it, I already knew that was the only manner that this could be done.

I made a visit to my folks and I spoke with my mother, she started to cry as she knew very well the family things which were going on and she is getting older. I hugged here and told here that I shall see here within a few months and I must say this is a very hard thing to do.  I do pray that she does regain here health completely – but while I was en route to this place in which I arrived today the person which was with me said that she well understood the situation and that I do need to take this much needed time to render back my own health.

Where I am, is a small town which is an hours drive from the city I reside in and now I do have goals of which I can do in a holistic manner and without the obligations.  There is something to be said for living life freely.  As I believe that this was long in the coming and it’s better late than never.  I don’t fret on the past, nor do I worry, and I do have to get back my strength and as well I have written much on life within this blog. Tomorrow, I begin living again and around here there is not that much to do. What I do look forward to is nature, and bringing both mind, body and spirit back – as this is something I see as not easy, nor too hard.  Upon the day that I leave this town more than likely shall be either within the spring or summer. 

Right now it’s contentment within simplicity and I am glad today that I finally have had the chance to make a post. I do have my work cut out for myself but sometimes things as such do happen and I am not too proud to say that I got through the last month and that I look forward within the future of the journey ahead.

Sincerely and with Honesty,

 

Jack