Radiant within Being

One truth that I have recognized within all the years of my growth is that it’s impossible to know my perfection.

If I am unable to see and honor that of the perfection within others which are within my array of life, then life is counter productive and much of the likeliness of Leo Tolstoy’s story of, “The Death of Ivan Ilyich”. This was about a man who could never live out his own life, as he was too busy being concerned with expectations rather than his own dreams and creating. That ability in to be my own self only is within the honor to see the merely my temporary intentions.

Humanity is a characteristic of a sacred kind.

In any unhealthy relationship I find that I stray from it, there is separation from others. It’s the feeling that others are primarily useful to merely satisfy egos and urges. Within life I find I have, I am rekindling back yet forward within the manner of which I perceive things.  Within any kind of relationship, I have come to know is that of a separatists attitude. There are two choices I can opt within the best of things and render the most within the positive. The negative aspects, that do take place within the arena of life is that we cannot do anything entirely alone. Yet the energy level of what I opt is entirely up to me. With the potential to manipulate others and create barriers rather than builds reciprocating holy relationships. People become defensive, fearful, hostile, and done with to be within anyone’s company.

I think we all do grow within our own manner. For myself I find that it comes when I reconnect with my foundation of faith, life, perception and intention.  When there is change within the thought process and patters, which ironically have an energy level, which is more becoming that otherwise. Life is entirely perfect. I know I am not, I know whom I hold within my life close and I have as well been through that ordeal of being alone. Yet, haven’t we all at some point? Nevertheless, for that matter, how we perceive things is within how we regards our own self, the good merits of others, the embarrassments of understanding. I do not have a car today yet I decided rather than sit and fret I would yet out for a morning walk by myself. Here as well, there is so many couples - that I could get down and depressed but on the other hand who says they are happy. Yet, that hello and the manner of which they said it you knew that they were within a good relationship. Or marriage.  Yet, the manner of which I perceive it and attend to it seemingly has brought me back to my own thoughts that ironically seemingly have always resided. To follow, the last two years have not been perfect, there have been some times, where I have felt very empty. Perhaps a person has to understand the salvation of their own meaning by way of the people they surround themselves with. As well, as the faith they have. Even an atheist has faith. I find when I change thought patterns I raise my energy level. Then within relationships how the perception is comes with more clarity.

Recently I could see myself as that frenzied clerk of a week ago that was so set off with assisting to find where the canned salmon was. The woman next to me with no overheard the situation and realized the clerk’s demeanor. Before I knew it, there was a tap on my shoulder. With no necessity, here were three cans of the Clover Leaf Salmon. Coincidence? Here is where holy relationships come into being. No expectations, she just out of good will was well within realm.  There is that connecting and the energy of this small interaction might very well have been rendered by way of and interaction of strength as the intent was that of simple good will. Here there was a contrast between two people. A grocery clerk - not a happy camper and then this easygoing woman.

Yet, there was a differentiation.