Thank you for Understanding

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."   Helen Keller

 

When your desire for change is strong enough, you will find yourself gravitating toward what can help you achieve and maintain it. An outlook for me becomes a beacon of sorts. I find that there has been so much time that has been lost but then again as mentioned there is what that can be gained. Thanks GG as I never thought of that in that manner. As well to each that did write back on my last post.

 

I have made a decision recently and I will mention it later on but I my last post was something that truly was one of the most honest that I have written.  Just getting back from doing groceries and checking out a place to take some pictures however by the time I get there and back I it will be much too late.

 

However there is a meaning to this and where there is trust there is meaning. Sometimes I look back, but then it's so easy to stay in that complacent area and not forge ahead.  But I am learning more of where and what to abide by in making choices with life. In making them, you build back your confidence structure. Some have lived in one place all their lives. In some ways I truly envy them.

 

Amazing how this can be.

With Some Understanding

Joy is an understanding we all long for and warrant in our lives.

We may wish for the happiness that comes with a much-needed vacation or an exciting newlove or friendship.

 

Yet when the actual experience of happiness emerges, we may be too overcome with other things to enjoy it. Or at the same time we may be working out of something. I know what that is about as I have taken on a change of what I am. I feel that it’s a mind shift in the manner that we do desire to do something within our lives. I for one am emerging out of an area. Does that come as fast as I thought it would. No. There are times in which I will question some of the things that I am doing and that all comes with re embarking within the elements of life.  I don’t feel guilty in saying that as I have resilience that I will manage my life and obtain the things in a new order. Deep down I know that there will be some tremendous things that come along. Slowly and surely but I am adamant that I will not be the person that I was but I am an immerging person or being if that makes any sense.

 

When ever I see someone writing that has something authentic there is a fast desire to say some words of comfort. That is definitely the way I am. I think that is why over the years many people in my life at earlier stages often came to me with questions pertaining to life. I get up each morning and sometimes I can be my worst enemy in thinking that I have to complete so many things at the same time however I know that in 20 years from now – I wish to look back at my life and if there are two things I desire is life of abundance. And that I achieved as well as found several things that were worthy in what I desire. I recall my father saying that I was the most diverse person in the way that I interact and can render many things at the same time.

 

I understand that what I wish is rebuilding a foundation (or I am in the midst of it and have been over that last six months) on my own and gradually taking it from there. I am not feeling down, I actually find this writing to be one that is special as I am slowly but surly finding who I am.  It is what it is, and for where my compass takes me is one that I know will have failures and successes. I count on how much I have done over the last six months.  And yet there are those times in which you go back in time and how it was just a while ago.

Slowly I move forward. I know that some of my friends have had a life that has not taken a large side step and then went forward. But I feel that at this stage of my life I am becoming happier within my own skin. Where that comes from is an inner thing that I cannot describe to you. It’s a faith of being of sorts.  Mind shifts do work. But never have another tell you what you should do, do what you can do as we all have our own lens of life. To amend it for the sake of just nurturing others is something that will never allow you to reach the gains. Keep the people you love close, and have respect for your common person.

 

Most of all never waiver. That is my own philosophy...Yet be flexible as you deem to be right.

Not in Our Defence but Within our Right

To be patient means to have an absolute knowing within that we harmonize with the pathways that we are en route towards with our own goals.
Rather than results based on other's peace is the ultimate regard of doing something for someone else.  A negative will never equate to a positve no matter how you bend it.   That's the logical side and yet at the same time for those that can take that chance in gaining an understandment. Sometimes this can lead to a gain, rather than a loss. As nothing in life
has a perfect nature to it. We just do as best as we can.

Attempting to rush the routine and schedule of our own timetables is similar to getting down on our knees and cleaning something when it’s already clean. It can be redundant with no satisfaction. Actually to the contrary, it can lead to feeling defeated. However patiently creating that sculpture of our own. Is just that - our own very own. An outcome is revealed not immediately but as I see it stage by stage.

Life has a way of just moving about in some direction regardless of where we wish it to flow, but for myself as well as I am sure most of you. You know what I mean. For our writes are not based one they are the assembly of the sum.

I view life as a sculpture of my own making. An understanding from within and perhaps it resides within of each and every one of us in our own style. It’s just there and some utilize it and some don’t. And some do in a tremendous manner without even realizing it. Sometimes that is the best way as everything just flows in thier own manner and way.

On a personal side there were several things that came to be. A friend of mine and myself rebonded in a manner that we were probably going in a direction that was going to come to some finality. However by means of communicating - we spoke and talked it out and for two friends that have been like brothers for some 20 years that does have worth. And then on the other side I have been working today on projects as it was a holiday for federal workers after the long weekend. And then I had a call from a good friend in Iraq. I while we were having coffee this morning and talking a call came in and it was someone that is very special. And we talked for an hour on what all was taking place as well we laughed. Then on the other hand I have a tad of a disposition with my knees and wanted so bad to get going and start running again but with the cold it's much better to wait.

But all in all it was a Monday whatever Mondays are. In a society that people work shift work and some still work the 9 to 5, I can recall a admin assistant I had back when I was in my early 20's and I learned allot from her. I recall her indicating that everything is going to be changing where the normal lifestyle of a 9 to 5 becomes unclassified. Meaning that there would be more of a shift in the terms in which the average populas works.  And over the span of time this certainly did come true to some extent.

I have never been on here for a reason of doing anything but writing in my own manner. I could write about a few subjects but cadence is the key. So often I am asked why do I write. I don't know I could write on paper. I just find that there is a great connection. And I am not all that observant as I wrote about religion. But I believe in all sorts of things and since making a move  am coming to slowly enjoy things much better.  Slowly yes. And I would think that the videos that I have show a different vantage compared to just the writing. To hear someone and see some part of their life gives each of us a glipse of whom we are. I have said this before, but I will say it again, the authentic ways that people write is gives some understanding of whom we are. Not completely but to an extent.  As I recall "in an adult fashion". Makes good sense to me.

Whom we are and what we write is what I see as a relaxing enjoyable thing. For myself, I just looked outside after giving a ring to my mother to let her know that things may take a little longer before I am there as I have a load of paperwork to go through and if there is one thing that I love to do is write. 
There are always friends that one can make that are not about love - I think that a man as well as a women can be good friends. It does not have to be about looking for love. 

It's all within the share. There is a person along with her husband and daughters that I have known for nearly 5 years. And this picture resonates something and I bet you would not know where it's from.  However there are a few people that I have kept in contact with by way of a letter now and then. And it's a sensational thing. However, all within balance. It's about communication and trust.  And trust is something that we all enjoy once we have it.  Once we take that time to understand that we all have something in common - not always mind you. We gain an allowance to be able to talk to friends that we never thought we would have.