'In search of my mother's garden,

I found my own."

Well it was my mother's - mother's day. I have always felt a bond that has been there since I was a child.

I find that she has alway placed herself last and never first. For me, to hear her and talk now and then there is that common sense and bond that comes to be.

As she is facing several things right now I really do feel or wish I was nearby. If there was anyone within my family that I we could relate in so many manners it's definately my mother.  Since I was a child she seemed to have the desire to raise all of us in our family an opt at her own desire to be a mother. She never worked but she worked!

I love her, she is the most endearing person and there is a bond that seems to sit there now more so than ever since I have been away.

"Yeah dear Mother - I will come back, I don't know when right now I am taking my own steps and within my heart and soul I hope that everything is going fine for you."

My family went through a tremendous amount. The one person out of the entire family that was able to keep it all together - was my dear mom.  John Lennon once wrote a song that was a cry out towards his mother and father whom abondoned him, during his youth.  I think the verse went something like "Mother where were you.....".

My mother while I was growing up and during the good times and as well the hard times has alway been there. This morning at 7am, I had called her and we had a good long talk. It was like a coffee talk and that was a gift.

Now if I can get this computer (new one) working right with a few things - I look forward to being able to type in a manner that I used to love.  And how I wish she had got on a computer - mother that is as we could connect in ways a great from afar.