Phase One Complete

The MRI is now done. It took some 40 odd minutes to do, and no I didn't take my camera. Here in CANADA, it's a holiday this weekend. So I do know that my physician will have the results within two days from today. She may call me but I have an appointment with here on Tuesday. Thereafter I had done that I went to my dentist and he insisted that I have to make some decision with my back took within this week. I knew that there was much to much happening all at the same time, so I told him that I would tend to it within this week if not next week. I know this is not a case of life or death with my knees I just know that it's going to take some time - probably one week or two. It all depends on what they find. But if it's like a year ago, it will be injections and hopefully no need for cartilage implants to make for more of a cushion.

This MRI was rather neat. Although it's been getting cooler here. The mornings.....well the weather has just been so off in comparison to other years. But this MRI was interesting, there is nothing like placing that gown on and being nearly naked. So I went half way in, and they strap your knees so there is no movement. And then they gave me a head set. The choice was classical, and it took 45 minutes.

I forgot to take out this mint I had in my mouth and the darn thing got stuck in the on the roof of my mouth. I heard a voice say "Please say still". So then I pushed the button and one came and I just said do you have some tissue, and yeah I got rid of it. Then they presumed doing what they needed to do.

While I was in there or half way in there I was thinking about GE, there was a very good friend of my families while we were growing up that was a part of a "think tank" and designed some of the most advanced Ultra Sound and MRI machines at that time. His name was Teehan, I never knew him by his first name.  After that by way of bad planning I went to an appointment with my dentist and told him that I would have to hold off on this today. That is my own back took and the thought of making a choice with a root canal.

This was a Monday - that is for sure!  I do appreciate everyone and I will be back to your blogs I am just going to take it easy this evening and sitting too long isn't a good thing.

We all do get to some point in our age where some things do show up genetically I believe. As for my jean they fit well, but my genes may have given me some spare parts. Soon things shall be back!

Will see you within the writes...:)

Reflections on Sunday

This morning I woke up :), early as ever and then I had my coffee.

I received a call from my folks, seems that everything is going fine. As fine as it can be. I give my mother the greatest of respect as she is handling so many things and yet she keeps her chin up. And then as well for the first time in a  while I talked with my father - they live five hours from where I live now. With all taken into account that man is a great one. It seems he has really, I can't describe it. He is a little different and I think that he in many ways wishes I was there but understands that I am tending to all things for my own self as I need to do.

For the first time in a while I spoke to my father as I know where things are at there
and I don’t wish for him to be worried regarding me. So we talked I told him of the projects I have accomplished and then to my amazement and surprise he said, “Son you can’t push things, you need to tend to your legs”. I had talked about all these companies that I had seen and we had a good talk it was around 8 am in the morning. So it’s been a bit of a waiting game, I know that the last two days I became so tired of the wait and all that efforts that I have done. And I do get pretty bored with just the ordinary.

I headed out to the gym. I don’t push it but I felt that there was a need to get out of this rut of idleness – and I have been doing it but I do pay the price. So I took it easy with anything with legwork. To get in that cardio element I choose to row. They have this machine where you can program it and I got it going and after it all it was great to just be able get in there enjoy it. There after I headed to get groceries and then I came home.

I have had the address of where my MRI is going to be taken. But I never knew where it was. So I went out back out and found the place I have to be there tomorrow on or before 9:30am.

That's the first step that will lead into another. Meanwhile I just keep doing things not get home bound. It's easy to do that when one has time on there hands. And literally my legs will go at a certain point. So it's a mangement right now and I do have faith that I will look back on this and see that it's a lesson learned.

So all is good in my world. It's proceeding rather than receeding. And you just have to handle things in life sometimes. It all will take a change for the better and sometimes that is the way life goes. But you make the best of things.  There are some people that I have talked to and that I have known for sometime on this blog. Now and then it's fun to be connected.

Hope your all having a great Sunday late afternoon, or a great Monday morning.

One question I wanted to ask. I am getting all these emails in my yahoo email regarding
some Facebook. What is that? Is it another blog or is it a part of Multiply?

A Weekend Thank you

It’s been a hot day and it’s hard to believe that it is coming to that time of year where we are nearly coming to the end of the month of July? Can you believe it? I can’t. Today I just laved out as I mentioned the last few weeks have been ones in which I have being multi tasking.

Monday is my MRI, which then will proceed into a specialist so I know that will take some time. To have the time off one has to be creative. Last night I was out and there was one person that mentioned to me that it nearly took them one year before they started to know anyone in the city here. It’s so spread out. But it’s all going well.

With regards to the request in two parts I just was hoping that I would be able to have some indication of whom does come on here and whom does inter connect. So that is that, and the day is a Saturday.

It’s all good regarding the answers to the request I made, I do believe in balancing it out. And today was just a simple Saturday where I took in the sun and look forward to the things that lay ahead.

Quarterly Review on Contacts Part Two

Thus far it seems that 11 people would like to be inter connected. I am merely doing this to just see if there are people that are still on or have gone to the wayside.  I have several people on as contacts and I just wish just get a simple answer of yes or no.

It looks like a nice day is going to happen here and extended wishes to each and every one of you.  Everyone blogs and writes. I like some other have done this before with their contacts. So if you wish to be a contact please do indicate it.

Quarterly Review on Contacts

I like you have my own life I know that I write in on multiply each and every day. For me right now that is my own choice. Likewise your own choice is yours. Do I do things that are something that are not entirely placed on here? Yes, as I think that for each and ever person there is some reason for that. I have a variety of contacts that I have not had the chance to get to. But I get to each and everyone.

Some would say “Jack don’t right this on your blog”, I say yes I will write it on my blog.

Because I do not connect by way of messenger does not mean that I am wish to just write and have only my blog read.

This afternoon here I had one meeting and thereafter I went out and took in the sun. Now I know what postures are. I know how much you try to write to another sometimes it just is not something in which others like or find to realistic in some areas.

I am sending this out there to all my contacts and I certainly would appreciate if you wish or wish not to be on my blog.  I can certainly live with that as the authenticity of it all is there. I don’t write one thread something that is other than my own valid thoughts.

I would certainly appreciate your answer, as I am not into postures. I just enjoy things for what they are worth. This is not life, but it’s a part of the communication that we all do when we do touch that button and hit our blog of contacts.

To KISS and Tell

Today it occurred to me how much we have gone past thinking about the war and all the areas that we used to be writing about concerning the war. I don’t think much has changed I feel that we are understanding how tiresome all of the entire situation was and still is and we are going on with our lives. It’s that areas that we don’t really wish to speak about as much maybe. We wish to write about other things without areas regarding the war. Several countries are over there but at the same time, I think that we have come to a point where we are writing on our own lives and things that are of value to us.

By the way I never received that call from Gene Simmons as he is here in Edmonton right now. I  hoped that by calling his comon law mother in common law which I do know. Would have gave me an in. She lives in Saskatoon as once did Gene's common law wife. Gene always thrived on how many women he had but the truth really is that he isn’t all that bad of a guy. I think most of it's was contrived.  

A union between two people for some twenty years tells you something is working. I used to be a fan. Not the typical KISS fan, as I am sure you have seen one of those die hard KISS Army fans. It was the fist band that I saw in concert and thought they were the greatest thing since sliced bread. I am sure that you have seen some of the fans that I am talking about. I just used to like them for years – very much. I recall seeing them in 1976 in NYC as a kid and then twenty years later. The show was great but what I was amazed with was the amount of older fans all still dressed up and they were from all walks of life. But no call no chance to just meet the guy. No biggy.

As many of you know, I have several things that are in the midst of being completed as I am so happy with that and as well, each and every day a part of my daily regime is going to the gym. It’s a place that I have always trained at and I have come to make it a part of my daily regime. Especially right now. As well it’s nice meeting the variety of people.

I have trained at the YMCA for years. It’s a tremendous place. Leave out the Village People for a sec, as it truly is a place that does some marvelous things in each city around the world. So I was at the gym...The only thing that I noticed was that right now I am taking sparingly Tylenol 3. For my one tooth as I mentioned previously and there is one side effect with this stuff that I have come to notice and try to hide!

Let’s put it this way, I was doing crunches right next to another fellow. The fellow was approaching 60 years of age would be my guess.  I was right next to him as he was on the machine right next to me and well, someone passed some gas. That was embarrassing enough. The sound, and the s......(Jack why are you writing this!:)  Suddenly a female passed by and I was rather glad that the man right next to me was ten years older or even more. As the sound and all that came with it certainly didn’t come from me…

The older gent farted not me. But the climate is good and everything else is working out alright.

I Reached Out...

 

I've Come To Realize

 

 

I've come to realize that my goals...are something that I often challenge myself and forget to pay attention to the simple things.  I've come to realize that when I'm driving...I love getting lost in music.  I've come to realize that nothing is ordinary...the smallest things sometimes are extraordinary.  I’ve come to realize that I have lost...nothing that I wasn't willing to give away to begin with. I've come to realize that I hate it when...others are forceful ideas/views. It’s quite nauseating. I've come to realize that there is a meaning that is true...and it's called love.  I've come to realize that money...is hard to make and easy to blow. It is good to have but it CANNOT buy happiness.  I've come to realize that certain people...have very important links missing so I stopped wasting time trying to figure them out.   I've come to realize that I'll always be...a lover of peace, ideas, and art/music in all forms.  I've come to realize that my mom...is one of those people with a that I adore...I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...I had no dreams.  I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...are what they are and you cannot resolve each and every one of them.  I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about...writing a song.  I've come to realize that my dad...is one amazing man. I love him dearly. He is my hero. I've come to realize that when I get on Multiply...I hate to say goodnight. I've come to realize that today.... could be the last of someone’s suffering or the beginning of it. I've come to realize that tomorrow...is only what I make of it. I've come to realize that...life begins when you wish for it too start. I've come to realize that...one can be closer to someone regardless of the distance. I've come to realize that there is meaning within all of this and a true respect. I've come to realize that we I do turn this Blog on, that do share some mutual thoughts. I've come to realize that by way of respect...there are no borders to what we all share. I've come to realize...equal to myself are the friends that show warmth in spirit. I've come to realize...that love and peace do prevail.  I've come to realize that my legs...amazingly will all come into place.  How I have realized what life is and love is...

 

 

Thanks to an online friend's blog named Kim, I saw something that I could not resist. It's something that I amended to some extent. But I found the words that originally there to be something very tremendous in the manner in which they were wrote...

The Green Within Trees

It's the prime time or peek season of summer. What I love most of all is the colours that come out during this time of the season.

Tree especially that have withstood a long period of time and extend out the lushness that seems to not only give memories of our childhood but at the same time it brings about the colours of nature our eyes can only appreciate. This is why I so love summer.

Tai Chi in the Evening.AVI

I went outside as I do before the end of each evening and the beginning of each day. It was ready to rain, and rather cool, but there they were two people doing something that really is very interesting to say the least.

I have seen several different Chinese people that practice various styles of meditative arts from China. This evening I was on the back porch to just see how what the weather would be like and then from a distance I saw 500 yards away two Chinese ladies with wooden sticks.

I approached them and introduced myself, but there definitely was a language gap . The elder lady was teaching the other one a style of art that goes back more than a thousand years.

Even though we could not speak, they knew by my hand movements of what I wished to do. Then they placed down and just did a fast video of Tai chi. I am sure the eldest lady was easily 70 years of age. They smiled and if only there would have been a sunset - this would have been something to really take a longer video of. Each night they are out doing different versions of "chi" and what goes with it. I thought it was interesting, I have seen it done before with over 50 people.

As well it is practiced now all around the world. I only wish the weather would have been better but it was done spontaneous. I see this at 6 in the morning and at 9pm at night. If they knew English I would have been able to do something more. But it’s a remarkable thing to see in the morning.
I couldn’t resist getting the video at some point in time.

Tuesdays seem like Monday but then they can be like Thursay!

The last couple days I had decided to just log on for a period of time, as I like many of you have been busy. I have been doing several things. I have a doctor that literally was not focusing on the one main issue I have at hand and she one that I changed to from another one that was just not the right match for me. I did that she fixated on everything but my legs.

A week ago, she had a change of heart, I had overheard that her father was sick but didn’t mention much regarding it till I life by merely saying, “I hope that everything goes well within your family”. She is new here, as she came from South Africa. So I took it into my own hands to get things going.

 

While I was coming back from downtown with a meeting from one of a few companies that I have met with, I noticed that my jaw was doing the same thing as it did before some time before, when I had five teeth all done at the same time by my dentist.

 

I called in as I was coming back to the side of the city where I used to live when I first arrived here and the Dentist fit me in. And sure as you know it the one upper left tooth needs another root canal. He placed a casting on my upper tooth to cover and protect the tooth for the next two weeks. It’s some kind of substance that contains fluoride and he said that there is a...well all I know is there is a large gap. Then came a two week prescription of Tylenol Number 3.  

 

I am not into taking Tylenol 3’s but this time I took it and I mentioned to him that I would be having two meetings before the end of the week. He indicated that if I take it now and see how it affects me, and then thereafter, I will know how to take it around the meetings. 

By coindidence or not I got into my car after getting my prescription and there was my cellular ringing right after I closed the door. It was the hospital indicating that they have me in for the MRI as there was a cancellation on this Monday. I thanked her, and I told her if she could send me the same message on my home phone. As then I know where this place is and then I have that done.

 

For now all I know is that it’s been a journey with pain, but with two things happening at the same time. I will take this medication – it’s a narcotic med, but for right now I don’t care, what I care for is to end the pain and I guess not only do I have a situation with my legs but one tooth I will have to make a choice on. It’s one that is the furthest back in my upper teeth, and I will decide with it after I have my MRI. In the last two weeks I have carried out several things that I wished to do, not doing them all at the same time, but all in a cadence.

 

Priorities, boy it’s a mesh of management when it comes down to your own self. But if one tells me it can’t be done, I always find a way that it can. I have yet to hit a wall in which I can’t. Why is that, I am not sure, but it’s probably something within the way I am.

 

I would like to mention kindly mention:

 

There is a large different between a difference of opinions.  We all do have them, but it’s another to write something in public. I come on here and sometimes I will leave this on, and sometimes I will close it. 

I do respect everyone, as I think a few have found that out in there own manner,  for the ones that wish to do something that is worthless, please take it somewhere else.

I am just mentioning this in reference to a few things that have taken place over the last two weeks. I am just one person that is writing like you are.

 

I don’t own multiply nor does anyone... I think we get to a certain point in life and we come to understand reason. I sound like an old man in saying so but this is my blog, it's my own right, and for a few some do understand and for some it's as if there is who has the highest ranking blog on Multiply or there is a misunderstanding at times. That makes up 2% of some of the things I get. I don't get it, and I don't think most would. All I care about is the people that get it, that is not just my writes but get regarding the entirity of it all. I does makes sence. At least to me it does and

for many others.

 

Anyways...

So two knees to go, and one tooth.  

Time is on my side...

Be Passionate With What You Desire to Do...

As it's your own life.

Sunday is a day of rest. Today was the hottest day so far this year and I went out to the riverside in the morning and then I made few calls and had one call from a good friend that is wondering where what I am doing. She thought that I was laying out in the sun, but there is not grass here yet. It has to be placed in by the contractor with this house. So early in the morning I headed over to the riverside that is not too far. And then I realized that how fast this summer is going. And how much I wish to get things “planted” and I feel pretty much that it will only be done in a certain kind of way.

R and R it is, I only wish there was a beach that was nearby. But that being said I can think about it as being a beach with a lake or ocean. And I am not sure about you but on days like this last thing I wish to see is concrete – meaning shopping malls and streets, I just would like to have my own garden some place to tend to and enjoy off the back yard deck and into some area of grass, better yet a pool. Come to think of it I could buy a small child’s pool and lay in it all afternoon and read. I never thought about that one but I am sure that the neighbors would think I am half crazy.

However it’s hot, and I hope this weather takes some time. This shovel I had from when I had moved into an condo when I first arrived here in Edmonton, how I wish it was something that I could dig and make something from the soil, or lay out on the grass and read the newspaper and just take in the sun. So I am just making the most of what is and Sunday are those days that you just enjoy the day.  No shopping, no anything just enjoying the time to just have that afternoon time to just enjoy things without having to be all over the place. Meaning areas that took me downtown, to the airport, all the rest that has been  can wait for tomorrow.

I am enjoying the Sunday.

A good Head...

and a good heart are always a formidable combination. I have been all over within these past two week. I called Shannon Tweeds mother – not kidding whom and my hopes are that I can meet this Gene Simmons. The man is not all that he is contrived to be. KISS was a rock and roll group that was so misunderstood. The to main members of the group Paul Stanley and Gene wrote lyrics that were not about drugs and rock and roll but more about the adulation of being a rock star.

Certainly they were a contrived band – that came out of New York. I liked them when they dropped of the make up and perhaps if they did they would be much like some of the other bands. They were the band that inspired me with music along with listening to the Beatles and an earlier time – due to my older brother that had a collection of records and was always playing them when I arrived home.  But we grow up, not completely but we grow up with some of the things that we do. A few friends always say that we should have kept going with the band that we had and we would have made it. My small goal is to get back in a studio and just do something unique. And as well, it would be too neat to meet this Gene Simmons. When I was twenty-two I called Shannon Tweeds mother she worked as an administrator in Saskatoon, back then I wished to meet the band. So I thought if he is going to be here – why not. Some fun and what the heck it’s worth the call.  But I don’t place much weight in it.

I get the biggest kick with people. Today I was downtown before rush hour and how I could have taken out my camera if I didn’t have things I had to do. Approaching 8am, in the morning you see the city turn alive. People crossing the streets, people sitting outside having coffee, and transit systems on the go.

I parked my car and didn’t have change – I went into a tanning salon and was given change for free – that was nice! I offered to use my card and return the money by way of visa or my debit card, but she said that I didn’t need to. There after something, which I hate to do, is get on a cellular and find out where someone is. I would rather know where they are before hand – but seems that is the way it is down in the city. Meanwhile there was a dark man playing a saxophone, while people were getting off the subway and rushing to their offices. And for one if three, each had a coffee in their hand.

After having great difficulty in finding this one building, I asked a few people where the street was and most didn’t know. Then while passing by a nice lady I asked her is she would mind taking a picture. I don’t take many pictures of myself, I think it’s obvious to see within the blog, nor the people that I am around.

Here it goes again and not writing in fiction, this woman was walking and I picked up a coffee at this place called “Second Cup”, she looked at me and then she looked again and she asked me “who are you”. At first it takes you off guard and then you ponder why the heck does this happen now and then. I mentioned to her that my name is Jack, shook her hand and by that time there are a few others that are looking. She was no flake, for some reason there was that mysterious look she had she was probably thinking…. I don’t know, I really don’t.

While in an old friends office, we talked about what all had taken place with several companies since that last time I had spoken to him. And then thereafter I headed back to the Airport and then from there home. So within one day I have placed on some miles, yet it didn’t seem like it was that much. Meanwhile, I thought about this person from Iran that I met yesterday…there was something so simple yet refined about her.  What and how we live.

Just thinking as I write…. the thoughts that came into this blog of mine on the two topics were from people from various places. I haven’t received that call in yet with regards to my MRI, and I knew that would happen even under a two tier system here even when I have paid for it. But that too is not something that has grounded me as it has. I set up a plan for myself and it seems to be working – small workouts, meetings and enjoying things. But I am in the system and it will be done.  But it’s not on my mind.

I am honored that you would do something as such. It’s not life on a blog but it’s a manner of communication and pending on the time that everyone has it's really something... I do wish to say thank you with regards to thoughts on Part I and II, of “Why is it So”. Yeah I mean that. Certainly so...

Mid July Vantages

In and out of from the city how many places we need to be and sometimes have the chance to afford a photograph. I did. Amazing how just near the highway there was a crop of mustard so yellow as well then some work within the city that gave way to a mixture of Urban and Rural renewal...

How Is it So Part, II

A great day here with much that was accomplished and it's nearly time to prepare for supper. Gene Simmons : ) is coming here with some car races next weekend with his wife or long time girl friend of 25 years.  Ironically he is kind of like some Donald Trump now and seems to be all over the place with this rock bank KISS as well as his own reality television series. The guy gets around - at the age of 60. I was there and back to see how far it was and I never realized how far that was! : )

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With all the responses with regards the previous post, before I headed off to bed I thought of where this thread of thought was leading. And I thought about money, and whom we choose to "chum" with in our lives. Do we all live in a system or society that is based on a casting system? Within India, there was a casting system that was in place for thousands of years.

Have we changed at all from that or do base things about people regarding whom they are or what they are?  I am giving this a shot, as it's something that is of interest. And I do think it has some worthiness.  Yeah perhaps, I might be pushing it with asking these questions, but why not? Do we thrive to just include ourselves by way of typecasting? That is to say, do we decide whom we merge with and make friends with by way of how much money they have, or otherwise? 

*  I know when I have pushed it with these questions. I hope that this one is something that does have worthiness enough that Part 1 and Part 2 show something and come to some conclusion. A small goal on here but it's something that is very authentic. This is one of those once in a "blue moon" hopes for a gathering of thoughts.

How Is it So?

They’re everywhere, on everything. Perhaps more prominent in some places than others.

 

Yet it's done. To varying extents.  They are used to give us information about the object they reside upon. We rely on that information to educate ourselves as to the value of the product for ourselves. Why is it human nature to want to apply labels to one another? Is it that we're trying to identify those who we find compatible with our existence and eliminate those who aren't? Do they help us to place these individuals in a mold of sorts so that they are easily identifiable to us?

 

Everyone is given a name at birth that identifies him or her. Within family and friend, business and social acquaintances, we learn those names and use them. We do sometimes apply a label of our own to them that separates them in favor, disdain, or some personal value system but they remain part of our inner circle. These labels would be termed nicknames.

 

For those we don't know, our observations determine how we categorize them. When we speak of them to another, since we don't know their names, we refer to them based on the observation. The observations however are often tinged with personal opinion, feeling, or prejudice formed from life experience. In other words, if you met me and didn't know my name, when trying to describe me to someone else the words you'd choose would determine what image of me the other person formed in his mind. That is all well and good if you use enough characteristics to form a valid image. The problem comes in when people choose to describe using limited words.

 

I have several multi racial friends, some which I have known since I was in my university years. I have a friend who is “black”. If I was talking about them and said, "You know, the black guy." you'd not get an impression of him but could lump him in with all the blacks of your acquaintance. If I said, "You know this “native”, again you would form an image culled from your own experience. I suppose that's okay if I've no desire to share the person with you but it's totally a disservice to him. There again, nothing wrong with that, I suppose. The words are descriptive, but they don't give a wrong impression; they just don't give one at all. However, when it comes down to it, it is wrong. I've take away that person's individuality and allowed him to become just another nonentity. Every person living on this planet is an individual and to take away that individuality shows nothing more than a lack of respect for that person and for myself. In seeing someone as being lumped into a category we don't really see that person at all. When we fail to see the individual, it encourages misconceptions and furthers prejudice. We allow our opinions to remain biased and shortsighted.

 

I cannot, in good conscience, look at a black man and call him a black (insert the N word here for the system changed it automatically) any more than I can label someone a towel-head, chink, spick, or other. Please excuse the terms used....

 

These areas are not apart of my diction. Never will be and it seems to me in today’s society certain geographical locals will still adhere to the old principles. I just don’t get it. And then again each culture will have people that I am sure would label me. Pending who they are and what they are. I never lived according to those terms even when I had a friend that was obviously gay, but a very good friend. Typecasting and labels devalue any person. There are labels for good use and there are labels that are means for association and then there are labels to place or degrade.

The only labels that I believe in are the ones that are on containers that include soup, fruit, and food items. I believe in seeing each and every person in accord to which they are rather than typecasting labels. We all are guilty of labels, by means of association, as well but they're usually born of the person's own actions.

Labels based on personal knowledge of an individual.... Are they any better than those applied so callously to those we don't know?

July Vantages

Just being conceptual

I just took my camera and did not go to far and I found some things that were worthy of taken a photograph of. From a trail to a construction site. For myself, I love black and white at times. As well the one with concrete reminded me of the colombian lady as well as all the hostages that for six years spent time enclosed....But the tail was the last place I headed to and there is nothing like the lush of the greens, and colors that take place in the midst of the summer.

Goals are not only absolutely necessary...

They are essential element in living life...

 

This write is founded on things that I have come back to understanding within myself and the areas in which I wish to pursue. This writing is enticed by an email I received back one year ago that I never had the chance to expand and write on. When the theme was suggested I started trying to notice some of the things I was going through and have gone through as well as the other side of the story with what I'm having to do related to the numbers of people wanting on to join as friends. Having to say no.

To begin the question of how to manage in your own dynamical way. I suspect it is common to feel a lowering of energy when one has put in the effort to try to connect in some manner (going for a job, getting a date, getting a book published, breaking up after various levels of intimacy and many more). One has most likely a deeper reaction the harder one has tried and found this final outcome. I'm no expert here as this is any area where I've still a lot of work to do on myself so I'm sharing from things I've picked up in my reading and observations and putting together here for the first time for me.

 

Remember the core goal. What is the burning desire behind the attempt or intention when weaving one's way with a motive of what they desire to accomplish? There's the famous story told of Colonel Sanders going out trying to find a backer for his Chicken recipe. In his attempts he was knocked back over and over. I've forgotten the number but believe it was in the thousands. The point of his persistence was a belief that he had something unique and of value and that others would want it. He recognized that only a

few in the population are risk takers and that if he was right in his belief then it was a matter of time before he would find the help he needed.  I suppose what I've just said in the last sentence is the second point. It is a matter of statistics. If you keep working towards the goal eventually someone will come who can connect.

The Law of Attraction. The more energy you put out in regard to something the more we will attract similar energy. This law seems simple but the reality behind it takes a bit of understanding or perhaps belief to make it work. Part of Visualization is getting energy in to it. The key word they used was working the visualization.

Example: One is giving a speech so they write what they want to say and then later give it. Someone else writes the talk then reads it over several times and then presents their talk. Given that both people are equal in ability when starting the odds are that the more successful speech would be the second persons. Now in this day and age those that often give the most effective speeches or presentations also put time into things like using powerpoint with pictures, graphs, illustrations, Often the speaker has learned to breath correctly when speaking and vary tone, pitch, speed of delivery, appropriate pauses for emphasis and possibly have a team of supporters helping to finesse it. Wardrobe advisers for instance. The whole point is to notice how much energy goes into success.

It doesn't all have to be physically done. The mind doesn't know the difference between energy expended in the mind and that done physically Studies show that basketball players imagining themselves shooting free throws can gain more improvement then one shooting at the basket for real. Part of what isn't shared in this that it is important is that the one visualizing the free throws has to remember deeply and fully every aspect of what their body does when they have thrown the perfect shot. There is a lot of energy put into those visualizations.

Faith/belief: This is going into a variety of areas of value and substance. The universe is waiting on us to be ready to receive the abundance that is there for us. There are life lessons connected to this faith. If we have any doubt lessons pop up to challenge us to accept faith. We are gifted with faith as we learn to trust and stop controlling things. Perhaps that's why we are getting more and more lessons about getting rid of the word try in our language. Trying suggests doubt.

 

Learning from mistakes: With every rejection we have the choice to use our wisdom and go over what we did and learn what went wrong so the next opportunity brings adjustments. One of the interesting things related to this is that most of us tend to get stuck into doing the same thing that doesn't work over and over in the belief that if done enough times the statistics rule will come into effect. Judgment generally brings us to a stop in our movement towards the task. It takes us out of the present and into the past. Keeps us from opening to the present and the blessings available. We lose energy that is better used on working towards the goal.

 

Allowance for free will: I'll illustrate with an example. Often in love one will fixate on having a relationship with a specific person who has free will. Goals that require changing another’s will generally don't work and when they do are most likely temporary. To attract love it would be better to work on being open to have the right person come into one's life. Focus on the qualities that person will have and make sure one's own energy is congruent. Living up to ones own standards are what give way to a pathway when free will is taken away, there is jeopardy in the will and what a person’s inclination as well as direction is. We all have that right of our own free will. It allows rather than forces. 

 

Allowance is the ability to know - which leads to what to do.

 

Succeeding While Proceeding

Firmly believing that each day is something that can make a difference. 

 

You have to impose that mindset as many athletes do with reaching a goal. I knew that once I had things in place I would then get back to the gym and merge with others as well as rekindle what I did before. I called in to the gym and I started my training again. Not hard, just working out for twenty minutes and then thereafter stretching and sitting in a wet sauna for half an hour. The people are nice and I new how much I had lost as far as my cardio, muscles around the joints. My intention is to get the circulation going while training just a tad. Without pushing it.

 

Getting in there was not the same as the gym back in Saskatoon, but it was a gym that had all the amenities as well as a variety of people that gave way to something I enjoy.  First time there, and the administration of the place was really nice. As well as the a few people that I had that small chit chat while taking in a steam.

 

Where am I going? I am going forward in a manner with cadence and once again I have taken on a challenge. As well, since I have this new computer, I thought rather than just do one thing, I set out to write something within no blog, my own thoughts and the story that I have lived thus far. I am not sure, but I find that in doing so, it's something that has some value. Tomorrow I will be back in the gym, thereafter heading if all goes well to the main stadium here where the common wealth games are being played. And then I am going to build a shelving unit along with a friend.

 

I am not pushing it, I am just approaching things in an enabling way. This evening I arrived home and I wanted to head out get some late night take some photographs. When the time is right within the one of these days I will be able to head out to one place in particular that has given me the option to go in and take some pictures here within the Air Force Base. 

As well, as the Aikido group, which I am a part of, has kept requesting my return. I will have to get on the telephone and tell them that I am prioritizing things right now.  All I can see movement and a few others offline can as well, and I have done this before and will do this again. 

"A river runs and never stops, it's a fluid entity that always continues..."

You know why I'm not pulling your leg?

Every one of the thoughts we think, the words we speak, and the actions we take contribute to what unfolds and creates our lives. This friend of mine was married to one of my best friends. I was the best man at there wedding. I came to know her during my late 20’s well as a friend. By way of some other friends. Boy that is going back in time...

 

She called me the other day.  We had met up before when I arrived here and then we periodically kept in touch.  Being one that is up and used to waking up at 6am everyday, I did a few things and thereafter I called her. Obviously it was much too early as she is a nurse and this was her day off, so then I trekked off to get some groceries and then arrived back home to have a conference call with one person that I had been previously arranged.  That all went well, and thereafter .......I had one call with regards to my MRI, the silly doctor office manager indicated that I was on a two week wait along with the new doctor I have. "Practicing doctor shall we say?".

 

Well it ends up before I was leaving out the door, the date came in and it’s for the end of August. So I left off to see Brenda. While en route to meet up for a very long brunch, much longer and much more enjoyable in all that we talked about and laughed about - I called into my “new practicing doctors office” and asked how this all works here in Alberta.  The medical office manager explained that if I wished to do this privately, then I would need to pay out of pocket. So that is what I am doing and I will have to tend to some signing of something tomorrow and hopefully between now and then there won't be any more surprises.

Done, fini, over with....

Returning to my dear friend Brenda...We talked about this during our talk, she told me that this is a private and socialized medical system here in Alberta where you have the choice of two – but with insurance plans will not cover an MRI. Then we go off of that topic, and we talked about other things. She has one new horse she has just bought. She has acreage out here. She remarried.  For some reason she is not happy with her marriage, she had mentioned to me some of the things that were taking place. And she asked me if she remembered when she said that she would have rather married me – when we were much younger. I said I did. But I said that was then and this is now. She has a friend that she feels is the one for me. But I don't wish for that at this point...I don't know when that will be, but this writing is not about that. Not at all...

 

The most important thing that I found is that there were two people that regardless of time had never forgot each other, and in many respects never really had changed all that much. Certainly our lives went different directions, but somehow we are connected with a respect and trust. As well, we still laughed about the silly things that we did before.

Brenda beat what is called binging and purging…. she used to only weigh 80lbs and then after they found her unconscious she began to face up to her problem, and she resolved it. You would never know it.   She is a great friend and success story.  And I am paying out of pocket for an MRI as I am not waiting till the end of August.

Lesson of the day - Never get surprised nor get overwhelmed with anything, ratherly enjoy the moment and tend to what needs to be tended too..Why I am not pulling your leg is because I can't touch it from where I am...

It is What It Can Be...

Since my arrival here I have had a few things happen and I am sure that we all have went through them but for myself I find that the best thing is to abide in what I know within. Sometimes there is something that one could perpetuate to no end but tomorrow is a new day and this evening is a nice one as well. I find that if I make that choice on what can be and accept where things are right now. I know...deep within it's all going to work out alright. And I know very well that I have had my share of several things but I don't look at them in that sense. I see them as something that I am maturing with yet not getting old. Well, lets step back on that one, my legs are older now! smiling....

I trained and trained when I saw my health lost in my own family. And it was a training that I returned to and I probably genetically did not have the genes to run and train as much as I had. Back then I had this problem take place and when I arrived here I knew that it had to be fixed.

We don't know why certain things in life happen, one day your completely able to do everything and then at a certain time you find that you have aged and you have done all the good things for your health. But something just happens.

We all have that. And we all have lived through that. The marvel of life is that for each person we see or look up to in life - there has been various things that have happened in life.  I have done my lot with aiding other people and after today's date as I write here this evening I know I will head off to bed when I deem it fit, and tomorrow I will be out and I will be having one meeting and aside of all that - the sun still does shine.

Do I miss summer, last year I did not have this pain, or I should say I did, but I had it fixed and of to the gym I went.  I was talking to someone offline this evening that was down as there are many things that are going on in life. And what came to mind is what makes one happy? What is the joy that is brought to a person? Joy is so many things, even in times that one is going thought something they everyone and anyone can tell them what they should do, but they know deep within what the answer is.  And then they take action.

I realize that I have not been active, but I realize where my placement is.  So I could think that glass if half full or half empty.  The most important thing I believe is that we all are HUMAN BEINGS. Sometimes I think that we tend to forget that. Not all but some. I find that the best comes out of me when there is something happening. Or perhaps I mean I find the resolve in a manner that is I can relevant to myself.  As far as pain. I leave the pain aside and understand when this hits what I can do and what I can’t and to be honest with you I have been living with it since last January. So a few weeks, and other things that have taken place I do know how to handle it. But I do know one thing – we all at a certain age go through something. So I am not the only one. Most importantly is that we get past it. So my compass has changed for the next one to two weeks. 

I have reached out within my day and I have retrieved...I know that I write in an authentic manner, and I know there is just an image there, but there is a real person here behind a keyboard that is not some waki daki. I am not bragging, I just know that I do write in a very authentic manner in my own values.  Give me some time and lets see what takes place with pictures, but whom we are and our image only makes up for one fraction of whom we are.

But just like you, I enjoy taking that last look at the sky at night.

Knee Injuries - Health Matters

Well I just arrived home and way back some of you may have knew that I had some troubles with my legs. It was a time I first wrote some things on this blog. And after meeting with my doctor for what I thought would be the last time. I am on call for and one MRI, and then within the same day I will be having two things done. One will be an injection of a substance between my knee joints and the other small things of some sort that will be implanted to replace cartilage from what I understand.     

I was going to take a direction with what I was doing but now that this is all in place as of this morning. I am on call, and the sooner the better this takes place.  I don't know how many have dealt with pain. But this is one that happened during my times on y360, and finally after almost six months. I will be having this done.  I had changed doctors in the midst of January when I was working inside and outside within the Airports and there was a slip that I did within an inspection. Thereafter for those that don't recall, I had not made the team. As I fractured my left leg over and above what already required medical attention.

There have been many things going on in my world here. I have not taken any picture or anything, as there comes a point in the day where I have to rest my legs. That sounds so old. Each of my uncles had knee replacements from my mother side. I don't need that, as I am too young but finally after all this time I am able to have done what I require so that I have a return back of mobility. 

I look so forward to this being done.  And am glad for finally getting to this point today. Last year this time I was running. This year I thought it was depression or stress. So far so good and I hope this all takes place as said as I am really starting to disbelieve in doctors. I had called my old doctor from another city yesterday and then I was ready to leave this weekend if he called to say all was in place for me.

Meanwhile, I am making the best of this, the cold in this basement of this house makes if very hard on the legs – but I have a heater and now and then I pull out the laptop. I could write more. I am happy and relieved that this is all coming to some finality. As then I can get back on with it!  One thing down....a few to go. I was prescribed a pain killer and I took it into the pharmasist and I am going to leave it for a day or two as I have worked around this for a considerable time frame so far. So with this being done shortly, then I will be back to a place that I enjoy and will be doing the things that I love as well as work.

Till then, I do take a rest in the middle of the day just to allow the legs to relax and I just let things go - when it comes to pain.  Embracing it is so often what I have done, if it was not for today - I would be taking a new direction.

Actually an amendment to what I wrote - I still am taking a new direction. After some things however that all said - I am attending to this first.

 

United States of America...

United States is a country that I have lived in and at the same time I feel fortunate For me I have often felt that the statue of Liberty signifies so much about United States.  With liberty and a just  manner she looks far beyond the horizon and has that certain calm in her eyes as she examplifies what this day of the 4th means. Happy Birthday to one great country.

This should be the day that is one that has a worthiness. Perhaps it means several things as with each country but with United States there is a flair of patrotic worth.

That is not a bad thing at all. The manner that families celebrate it and how "we the people" feel.  As it should be.