How do you say...

I have been busy. I am not sure on how to say that I have been away from this as I have been working hard and well, it's been very busy. There is so much I would like to say however I am just taking it easy after work these days.

I will be back around in short course.

With respect to each and everyone whom does understand that sometimes time does not allow all to be as easy as it seems within our own routines.

Smile as spring is here!

It's Late

But not too late to write something short.

We all have our work, the place that we go to each and everyday. If I may say, hold on to what you earn and at the same time don't save for a rainy day. Balance it all out and enjoy life. How many we have seen those that have held on to nearly all thier earnings for a rainy day.

It makes good sense to save and to have a foundation of security. But at the same time don't let life stand still for years as you never know what will come about. These are not rules of life, these are ways of life.

Money is a means, and nor an end. Unless it you spend beyond your means. Utilize it in a manner that fits what you do and desire to spend it. And follow your dreams.

The reason - what you earn is for yours to do as you deem fit...

It's Another Day

Finally we are at the end of a four-day storm and the sun did come out tonight. I have been slowly slowing down with my work and not getting up earlier to go over file upon files prior to going into work. It's time to start doing that I feel. Mean while I am still awaiting the decision with this one position. Yes I am interested to see what takes place.

Within my work, I have finally brought all things together for the most part. Within the infrastructure of the office as it was all let go so within a short period of time I have have had much on my hand. All in all it really all goes back to one year of a situation where there has been no back up with some of the most basic and necessary things. Some companies expect one to do things by osmosis, but a valid company knows what good organized management is. ANYWAYS, I stepped out during lunchtime and got some old style chronological files. I don't have the picture of what I mean but I will have copies made for everything that takes place during the week and as well I have one of those calendars that site on your desk. It took me most of the afternoon to put into place and finally one day I did not have so many calls coming in and I had more time to get things organized and as well talk with a few people.

It's almost like being a major of a city. You can't please everyone. All you can do is show respect to the people. And build on that. You have your company to please as well as the people that are your tenants - but you don't get lost within it as so many do. And there can be politics if you allow the politics to happen. The best manner when going into a company is to just watch, listen, and do your work the best that you can. Then slowly bring about changes by way of good protocol, or just good management. When there is some structure set up it works much easier and it works to it's optimum of what it can. When and if it can be done. Again an ideal - but one that does make sense. As well it builds on business and that requires many different ingredients.

But it's finesse in managing people most importantly knowing when to talk and when to listen.

Then after work returning home - this one killed me. Or took me way by surprise. (not fiction)   I am walking into my complex where I reside and there is this gal that approaches me and indicates while I am getting my mail that she has watched me for the past few days.  She wasnt pushy, nor real young, but a good looking person and had some poise in how she handled herself.

As we introduced each other she asked me what I did, I told her and then she asked if I watch much television. Which I don't all that much but she was getting to something. I was getting my mail and looking forward to a hot shower to be honest.  She asked me if I ever watch television as I was getting as she was waiting for something to be delivered I guess, and I said yes. She said that I remind her of some one. Now this has happened before offline and so often I think it may have something to do with the voice.  She said no that I remind her so much of this character of Horatio Caine. I knew who she was meaning right away. As for how I felt at the end of the day I really dont think that I was all that interested and I told her that I had recently had five teeth done and was just getting over the aftermath pain associated with it. ( Real good there Jacko!)

Then she extender her hand out and introduced herself formally and said that if I ever need any sugar - feel free to not be a stranger. Now I got in the door and after when I did I just smiled, actually laughed a bit as I have never had that done in such a manner as that. She was not no fluezy, she was doing something obvious, I picked up on it and thanked her and said I certainly would. I got in closed the door leaned up against it while I slipped off my shoes and dropped my work bag. And I smiled. I guess I know where to get sugar when and if necessary. But that is certainly the first time that has happened to me. I am not phobic to women, I just have not really thought much about romance.

Anyhow it was just another day - with the tail end of it having a something that was rather sweet.

 

Have a Good Week

Well this has been a weekend of many different things as well as the weather. But the one thing that still is most interesting say good night. From here good night to those that do believe in creative thoughts.

The two words that I think of before I head of to bed are respect and consideration. I think that is what has some meaning to all of this.

Take are and never surrender in what you believe in and value.

Winter driving in spring time.avi

This should not be happening at this time of the year!

Where Did Spring Go?

Not a reminder but a return. Of nasty old winter.

I have never seen it where at this time of the year a blizzard happens. This started on Friday evening and then leading right up to Sunday.  Everyone is already dressed for spring and it’s just not supposed to happen like this.
I am not sure where this Global warming effect it happening but it sure does not seem to be taking place here.  I had planned on taking this weekend to get some pictures in different areas but when you have to dig out what you just placed away. It leaves much to be considered. I think all over this year we have had weather that has not been the normal trend.

The one thing I hate with a passion is wet feet. So, in preparation for whatever happens Monday I have my winter boots and shovel in the back of my vehicle. So that is the kind of weekend it has been in my area of the world. And everyone seemingly wishes that it was much different to what has come upon us.

But hopefully this will all be melted by tomorrow but it really seems that we are in for one week of colder weather again, and here just three days ago it was feeling much like spring.

Within my Friday

I woke up early today and to say that I was thinking about this position which I had mentioned was on my mind. I was thinking about not having been asked to look at it as well I had worked till 8pm on Thursday cleaning up many things that were left go couple with just getting home and laying down for two hours as I was exhausted with the dizziness that comes with these five teeth that I had mentioned.

 

I went to work called all areas of work and indicated that I would not be around till late afternoon.  Then one told me to just plan on not being at work and he manages another property and offered to give me a life home if it was necessary. The dental clinic is right near my place. Ironically it’s a small area of places that are surrounding a grocery store.

So I knew I could get home all right – the thought was all right.

 

The teeth are done, apparently one of five teeth had chipped off where there had been a cavity and the dentist did that as well, he went over everything that he did. There was no pain and I was amazed at what he could do and how he went over what had been done with old cavities that had not been properly done, and then as well filling the areas that had opening that were all hitting right against a nerve. He is my dentist from here on in.

He indicated that once the (forget the name) had wore off, I would have some mild pain for one day and there after if what he thought was correct – it would all be fixed. He indicated that he was going to email my family doctor – as he said that from what he saw I was dealing with way too much pain and thought that my family doctor should know.

 

So I got home, was going to go and get a few things, but I could feel the pain coming on and as well, while I was thinking of heading out my friend returned from NYC.  So we talked although I was a bit out of it at the time. And then thereafter I retired and got in bed. 

 

So now I am sipping on water and I didn’t get that call with regards to another position that was offered to me, however now I know. I have the work that I have and that is where I will focus my daily efforts.  I seemed to have rendered some good relations within work over the last few days. All mixed of course, some are fed up with the way in which things are done within the company. I was as well, but after a month or two, and even now I will diplomatically say my say – when I see something happening that is not in accordance to the way in which property management is done.

 

But now that all is grounded, I know where my direction is and aside from tomorrow the cold coupled with a forecast of snow. I am going to get back to the things on the weekends that I have enjoyed in the city that I used to live in.

 

I was online briefly just a few minutes ago, and I thank Varainy for this picture above. When I saw it on her blog – it was one of those pictures that you can take a roll of film on and or space on your digital camera – and once in a while you have found that vantage that speaks for it’s self. Thank you “N....”.  This picture is not mine.  It’s a vantage. For myself it’s a meaningful one as it fits in a certain style and way of what has taken place today.

 

Taking all things into account – today was a day of accomplishment. Five teeth fixed, and regardless of what the weather brings - it's the weekend!

 

Something Within Her Way

It takes all people to make the world go around. Back five days ago or if not more I called a friend of mine that lives in Iraq. I have written about here several times as to me she is adorable, she is intelligent, it’s obvious that she is beautiful.

 

Most importantly she is the kindest soul that can laugh and share things and she is mature. So mature yet young at heart.  Take a look at her, and she resonates so many things. Realistically she is over there in Iraq but since I met her, I always have promised that when and if I could do anything for her – I would. I stand by that because we both can relate. It’s ironic as she is considerably younger than myself. But when a man or woman sees or hears someone that he or she can relate to, there comes to be a bond.  I know it's best offline, however there are a few very good friends ( a few ) that I have been able to keep in touch with before the inception of this blog.  And that is all done with respect, not chasing after something, but having common grounds from which to talk and share with.

The bond is one that has been built over several years. And perhaps - who knows where things go in the future. As right now each one of us are within the moment of doing what we need to do. And you never know when something like a miracle, happens with time. For myself, life is about what we can make of it, rather than what we can not.

Regardless of that she is a valid friend that once a month we do keep in tough and how much we share and joke about. It's a very nice surprise when you have arrived at a point with someone that regardless of the distance, you do plan you life on someone, but you enjoy the periodical times in which you do have the chance to speak to one another and tell each other what is happening in each other's life.

Hump Day - Good Day

The man woke up in the morning and he planted himself on the sofa, he drank his first sip of coffee while waking up to the morning sharing it’s sun, and just sitting there in a moment of nothing.

He found that peace before the commencement of the day.

Shortly thereafter he looked at 7 files and had them all prioritized. Then he had his shower, and then he took out his clothes and cleaned up and made his bed. A routine that is done each and nearly every morning.

 

But when he arrived to his work – the phones began to ring, the corporate cellular.  He decided to let them place all the papers in chronological order and then be done with it.

 

Then came a very nice woman that paints within the premises of one building and she needed to get into the electrical room that was down the elevator. They both shared where they were from. He was mesmerized by her teeth. She was a beautiful girl and very rarely would the man say anything but her smile and her teeth mesmerized him. And then without thinking about it – he said, “Do you realized that you have tremendous teeth”.   Well she smiled and came back again the next day, and once in a while to say something leads into another. She told him about her life and where she was from and that she had a daughter. Now he knew that he was going into an area that he didn’t realize, so he asked one of his co workers regarding her. And the answer was, “leave it alone as she works for the company”.

 

She came back again to get some keys and regardless of what the one person said the man could care a less with what was said. As he was not about to watch every move he made within the structure of a company – when all he was doing was making a compliment and nothing more.

 

“Live by the rules that are set, but you can still be you”, if you can’t do this and can’t do that – then I would think that work is a jail house rather than a pleasant place where people can be their own selves while doing there work.

 

Later today I had one person pay me a visit and tell me the inside scope of some politics and the reason why the people had left the company I am with right now. The reason was due to one person that leads people by giving them no autonomy. There are the leaders that are in positions that need you when the going gets tough due to their own ways and styles and there are ones that lead by means of giving and sharing autonomy. 

 

With all that said how could I sum up the day. Someone had a tremendous smile that showed great teeth. And I like it.The man woke up in the morning and he planted himself on the sofa, he drank his first sip of coffee while waking up to the morning sharing it’s sun, and just sitting there in a moment of nothing. He found that peace before the commencement of the day.

Shortly thereafter he looked at 7 files and had them all prioritized. Then he had his shower, and then he took out his clothes and cleaned up and made his bed. A routine that is done each and nearly every morning.

 

But when he arrived to his work – the phones began to ring, the corporate cellular.  He decided to let them place all the papers in chronological order and then be done with it.

 

Then came a very nice woman that paints within the premises of one building and she needed to get into the electrical room that was down the elevator. They both shared where they were from. He was mesmerized by her teeth. She was a beautiful girl and very rarely would the man say anything but her smile and her teeth mesmerized him. And then without thinking about it – he said, “Do you realized that you have tremendous teeth”.   Well she smiled and came back again the next day, and once in a while to say something leads into another. She told him about her life and where she was from and that she had a daughter. Now he knew that he was going into an area that he didn’t realize, so he asked one of his co workers regarding her. And the answer was, “leave it alone as she works for the company”.

 

She came back again to get some keys and regardless of what the one person said the man could care a less with what was said. As he was not about to watch every move he made within the structure of a company – when all he was doing was making a compliment and nothing more.

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“Live by the rules that are set, but you can still be you”, if you can’t do this and can’t do that – then I would think that work is a jail house rather than a pleasant place where people can be their own selves while doing there work.

 

Later today I had one person pay me a visit and tell me the inside scope of some politics and the reason why the people had left the company I am with right now. The reason was due to one person that leads people by giving them no autonomy. There are the leaders that are in positions that need you when the going gets tough due to their own ways and styles and there are ones that lead by means of giving and sharing autonomy. 

 

With all that said how could I sum up the day. Someone had a tremendous smile that showed great teeth. And I like it.

Another Choice

Well, what a week. It's not even "hump" day and I have been up baring this pain with my five teeth without anything. I place it out of my mind as I sooooo - look forward to having them done on Friday. Five teeth have cavities that are going all towards one nerve ending. I find that if I just place something wet on my face for an hour when I get home it does the job for now. From now till Friday is not too long.

As well, there was a person that had a meeting just a few days ago and it is very possible that I will be offered something once again that will be another step forwards in what I love to do. I have not accepted any other jobs, however I had a call late last week and it's for a tremendous position with airports. It's probably the best thing that can happen to me as well as life is not about money but this would be something that I have never thought would come my way.

The board room interview process was an hour long and I was able to get away from my own office. Don't get me wrong I don't live with a CV in my back pocket now. I just knew that if this came along - which it has that I would have to meet and satisfy my curiosity. I am not doing the all or nothing thinking. In fact I am working hard at getting some areas rectified within where I am, while looking forward to getting this Friday over with.

In order to do it the dentist is placing me on laughing gas - I don't know what that has to do with pain, but it's worth a laugh I guess. And then on the same day I will definitely have a call indicating if I have been accepted as a head relations coordinator for several airports.

I am not sure how I will explain this within the current company that I am working for if I do have it, as I have been with them for a short period of time. But within a lifetime in a transient world - we have that choice.

Regardless as I see it - it's a win, win scenario. If I don't have this new position with Airports, I have what I have right now. And that suits me just fine.  And as far as the teeth - they will be fixed as well. So Friday will be a day that will bring about something. And regardless of the outcome - I will not have lost 5 teeth - thank god, and I will still be doing the same job that I am doing right now or I will be doing something new after meeting and giving notice of two weeks.

It's a strange week really, when you take all three things into consideration. But I must admit I am looking forward to Friday.

Destiny

New findings on the brain and it may be scientifically sound but some scientists are trained with the science whereby everything is an atom and sub atom particles. Likewise they view consciousness as a mere impulse of the brain. While is sound science, it dismisses alternative routes to truth and meaning in such areas of studies. As within areas that are most intriguing as the aspects of the consciousness and the pleasure of hearing melody, reading a tremendous book, painting, and enjoying the appreciation of a joke.

However not all thoughts do take place by way of the brain. However the most important area remains within the thought process. The ideas, inspiration, and intentions before they even appear scientifically within the brain. However biology is not destiny. It may be part and parcel to what may be necessary for some, but so often in society people will jump for quick fixes to situations that have a resolve. While I am not against science, I am actually very attune to the medical area, however I thought this was a worthwhile write. I believe that balance is the key in most aspects and realms of life. We come to appreciate whom we are and that there good areas of life that happen while there is areas that are challenges – somewhere within your self and in a manner in which you find that inner self and placement – you come to find there are avenues that can move you forward – as each and every person is not exactly the same. There is where the uniqueness lays. And when there is a foundation as well as a manner that you have relinquishing bonds, faith, and Associations – there is where the door is open to give allowances to that inner harmony or perhaps contentment may be a appropriate word.

I was reading a few people’s blogs and without a doubt I think that there is a manner of the inner self finding some creativity within balance as a reflection and as a manner of authentic validation. Will is destiny. As the brain is an incredible peace of work. But within the manner that you utilize your own inner conciousness is what I believe to be the "paddle for the boat". And were we all desire to go on that river - is one in which is only appreicated by your own mind's eye. One note the brain never matures completely till the age of 26 years of age.

Now how the mind matures is a manner by way of our own Creating... Thus brings Destiny.

~ People Will Be People ~

What I have done. I am not sure, I may have breached Thought, within my writings. There is not one person that I hate. Yet if my last two posts have caused some situation with the infrastructure of writing. Then I have. But I have never breached anyone in any manner. Actually I have done the opposite.

Last week in talking to an older gentleman that I work with one word stayed with me. People will be people.  As you have several people from all corners of the world that will get hung up on things.

Example:  With one property we are looking to change some things with renewal of some leases. There is a group of people that feel that they are being dealt with unjustfully. I have in particular four people that feel they are speaking for everyone. And yet they are not. The truth is that we are in the midst of making changes as we deem fit as owners of a property. And with each and every tenant we are meeting with them individually.
Yet there is always those that will make up some story and it goes on from one to another and some will actually believe that we, the acting Landlord are up to something.  I had one gentleman that was calling in to speak with the person I replaced, and he felt that he was going to surpass me go further with what his compliants.

I had him come in and talked to him and before anything I shook his hand and introduced myself. He got started with what we are doing, and then in the middle of it I indicated to him what we are doing and as well what he is doing.

As he was creating contempt with other tenants that had leases that were up for a renewal or to be terminated pending what we decided.  At the end of it, he said he was going to call head office. I said that if you wish to go ahead and quote me on everything that I have said as at the same time not only have you been creating rumours with people that are naive, but he was two months in arrears with his rent.  And I indicated that before he went barking up the wrong tree. Think twice - as in no manner do we wish to kill business, and people that have invested thier monies - we want to bring about business.

Thereafter I called my superior and indicated to him, he hired someone to deal with these matter and perhaps he never gave the autonomy to the two people prior to myself. And if he wishes to have a person that tends to things - he has to allow autonomy with the right people to carry out the job. Otherwise he might as well come place himself in the seat and deal with all things in each and every property - which is impossible.  It gave him time to think about things.

A leader is one that builds and entrusts the people that he or she hires. There is a thing called protocal and accountability. That come along with whom works with a leader. He thought about it and I am not sure that it entirely got through as he has placed himself in a crisis management situation. But sooner or later he will come to some conclusion.

Aside of work - today I had my teeth looked at, and I have to have 5 cavities done by this friday as I have had jaw pain for the last 5 months and the Dentist indicated that all my upper back five are triggering on nerve that is causing pain and lock jaw. So he placed me on tylenol 3 - till he fits me in on next Friday.

Life is good ! lol

Addendum to Post

Well I have done few things on here – I took off some people as contacts as I have had way to many.

Although I have taken them off, as “contacts” that does not mean that I have excluded them or decided not to visit their blogs. I just find that I came out with something that I was different in a manner that does a few things. I write according to how I think in a retrospective, philosophical manner. I only do my own writes, and I just like you don’t say all and tell all with my life. No one does. I think they keep that preserved. Do we walk into a room of people and announce our most inner secrets – no. However, I do write in real with areas of my life as I wish to share them.  That makes me – me. Not a fictional character.

As for others – we all have our own ways. If one wants to write regarding thoughts without pushing them onto others – why not.  As well, most on here I don’t know and when I see the amount of people and know that I wont be able to get to each and everyone – it’s really me just writing about me or just according to Jack. Which I really don’t wish it to be.

There are thoughts we all have and there are differences. Within the different perspectives we all gain something when it’s done with some tact and class.

I have pictures of and videos of various real things that I have taken. Anyone that knows me knows my love of photo journaling. And as well, some know that I have just started a new position and it can be hard to get on here and blog when 40% of your time is behind a computer with business/work.

Sometimes I will come out with some real things – thought that are to the contrary of what most write about. The reason for that is I respect people, but I am not a people pleasure. There is nothing arrogant about that.

The areas that I love to write about are areas that I find of interest. The previous two writings were taken from my past blog and amended a tad for the purpose of sending a message of what and how I write.  

This is not an apology it’s just a statement of my own blog Initiative Stain, separate from the yahoo messenger. But if you see my videos and pictures you will see there is side to me that is a variety of things. As are you.

If I could summarize a few tag lines I would use it would be – life, humanity, societies, governments/history and now and then a tad of humor.

As I mentioned in the past there are some evangelical blogs and perhaps my pictures, which include a church, which has tremendous archeticture, may have portrayed me as one other that what I am. A moderate is what I am, and with a very flexible manner - which often does not come out within the writes. And literally loves to do some videos to expose the places I have been…Why not…. I don’t think it’s necessary to be writing on certain areas that I don’t find of interest. But I enjoy the expression of thoughts in a meaningful manner.  If I didn’t the I think I would have nicknamed my blog “Sad Bast…d, and I would have done satire on life.

But that’s not my way. I just write as I find to be interesting to myself and may be with others. Nothing more - nothing less.  And where I am each and every day is right here till I get home...

~ Global Regards and Freedom ~

Having the freedom to express my thoughts on many issues and never have to be concerned that I will be denied the right to do so within my borders. However, outside of the Canada, and in conjunction with any other nationality, I step more considerately.

I've a varied and international view of things by fact of environment and influence of same, and it's difficult to think in any other manner, as it would be for someone from another cultural background. Meaning we all have our own cultural diversity. And in trying to gain more understanding with others I try to find out more about them in an effort to understand what makes them think the way they do; what has shaped their thoughts and opinions. One from one country may think a certain way, whereas another may have a understanding and higher regard for thinking on a global level. However, I do believe that we, outside of genetics, are products of our environment and what we're exposed to. I also believe that most people fear what they don't understand and the only way to change that is to educate themselves and expand their environment.

There are so many important matters going on elsewhere in the world which have no connection to the current conflicts that are ongoing, As many times I do wish to write on some discreet politics on an international level but it’s always with regards to involve the issue of terrorism. However when we look within our own countries what do we see? Don’t we all have situations within our own lands that involve people being terrorized in many communities; atrocities being committed; diseases being left to increase; children starving to death; women and children being sold into slavery or the sex trade, our environment being destroyed at a faster rate than it can heal...the list goes on…

These silent “warriors” come together despite borders and change the regard and views of society and humanity and though their names are seldom known or their chosen paths remembered, their efforts are never in vain. Never…they have chosen their battles, which are for the betterment of humanity on however grand a scale and they are never unworthy causes. I find that some regardless will give that percentile of an open door to other cultures to understand them and without being scared of the loss of thier own ideals.

Do I find that time to write and bring about some thoughts yes, and yes these are my writings, but I am not a writer.

I write on a blog - just like You.

~ The Questions We Ask ~

What if ..............................................some apply to the future and some apply to the past. I think it all depend on where each person is place.
May I as you what your what if's would be? Keep it as general as you would wish for it to be.

~ Immersion of your own Sphere ~

How do we immerse into different areas? Think of all the things that come around you and surround you. What are the things in which you enjoy and what are the things in which you wish to enjoy?
Are there benefits to what you wish to do? If there is meaning rather than finding the meaning due to the status quo - go your own way and judge and see what is deemed best.   To discover is not about uncovering yourself - it's about uncovering what is around you that you can take in.

Life is like a circle, it will go up and then will go downwards and as well within some manner there is a circle area that surrounds us. Have you ever considered the last time how the distance that you keep while talking with another person. Most people have a distance of 2 and a half feet, while talking to another person. Why is that. I think it has to do with something that we have a inner core and sphere that we create a invisible border - and we don't even realize it.

Just thoughts as it's been a day and thank god tomorrow is Friday!

~ Accomplishing Things ~

Some do  know me and some don't, most know me only by way of what I write and with that being said. As most know I moved after being out of the "loop" for nearly two years within my work. I had some family situations that held me back and yet at the same time I tired and tried over time.

When I was young I worked hard to get where I got. And I climbed the ladder very fast as I worked for four very prominent people in what is know as the commerical real estate business mainly within the areas of marketing, leasing, and management of projects.
I obtained a position here within the airport with a clearance to inspect aircraft - during the one month ago I injured my knees and making a long story short I was placed on and kept on with this authority on a contractual basis.  However, I knew that I had to obtain something more. The last month I worked very hard in applying for several positions, I still have a few sitting there - and recently I was called by a prominent company that is within the area of property management. I have had a few interviews, but then I had a call from a man that I knew and effectively on April fools day I signed a contract that takes me back into the area that I have done nearly all my life. So I am very pleased as I am not one to jump from one thing to another. I seemed to have many challenges over these past few years - however I will say it again - never give up on your dreams as I once again have returned back into an area that I truly love. I could write so much about this and I actually started computing on the side back some 14 years ago while I was stationed in a small town fixing up what is called a "destressed centre".

And with out making this a long story I over see two projects and on the side as I wish do some work on the weekends within the confines of airports. At some point here I will have to decide on letting my contractual agreement end. But I am just going with the flow as I just started with this company and over the last three days - it's been busy but a great busy.

I don't thing that we come on here to talk about our work status, but this is about setting goals and being resilient in doing what one withes to do. I have a office that is the largest I have ever had. And I am not posturing here as for several years I held my breath and post poned several things due to my father having cancer and being the medical next of kin, as well as being somewhat the center of the family - yet not allowing myself to grow. And all I can say is that six months ago I left the city I lived in, and I went on a trip and the intention was to get away at the time as my father had a return of cancer and it was knocking me out emotionally - as I could see all that came with it.

Now I am able to look at the things in which everyone takes for granted as for the longest time I had lived on my own self savings.

It's early to say, but I am back in the area that I truly flourish. And regardless of age, I am most proud of myself that I accomplished it.   I won't write too much on this topic again, however I do believe that regardless of where a person is at.  If they really want to do something they can. I have, and it seems to me that I am just restarting my life. Not jumping from one thing to another - but utilizing cadence in everything that I do.

Sometimes one has to make opportunity happen. And it can be something that each night you head to bed with hope and faith that things will work out. But only in a manner that you have actually applied yourself in making it happen.

When I wrote my blog on the Rutherford Home, that was the one day I was taking off to not apply for anything else. I knew that I had all areas to cover, and then the next day, I had a call to meet with a prominent man whom runs a division of one tremendously large international company - and within 15 minutes I had the position and then I waited till the next day in which we signed the terms of employment and conditions.

I don't wish to be a rich man, I wish to have the things that I had before in a different manner. And you know what - I obtained it.   At some point in time I will write more periodically on what I have been doing in this area as some do, but like everyone else I love and will continue to love writing. And then next computer I get is an apple combined with a great camera. And maybe just maybe this June, I will treat myself and buy a dog.
Why not!

Some often ask me "when are you going to find a girlfriend?", when the time is right I shall, I have no concerns of taking risks however I am old fashioned in the way that I think that a man should be the one that has a solid base. But this write is not about that, it's about a man named Jack that has walked his talk and never stops in obtaining his goals.

The way I see it - there is something more I can do with my life now. And this is probably one very honest write that I so often am reserve with. As I find that I am not your average blogger. I am one that does write on the things that do take place in life or I have wrote on several things from past experience and real current experiences.

Yet I like you am a living human being - not based on positioning myself, yet confident in the fact that I know what my limits are and where to take them and place them.  And it seems that I have made up for some few years in six months as I dared to challenge myself.  And I apply it to everything I do, and yet am learning now to understand that life can be complicated - but most often we complicated it for ourselves - but - life can be a challenge and you have to keep on attempting to do what you wish. And navigate your way.

Seems that the vertical and the horizontal have connected again. And each and everytime it's one that is moving towards a direction that at this time I could say where it will lead, but  so often I will visualize it, and then in a mature manner act upon it. And sometimes succeed.
So it's a mind shift, back into the area that I love and enjoy. What's next? I don't know, probably a few conservative things with life. And then some other areas in which I can do with out the need to worry with any concerns with money.
Money does not buy life, but a foundation that has a economic stability - allows one to contribute, and benefit. I think it works this way for me.

April fools is over and now I wrote it and sending it to each contact in here that I have as action with thoughts  makes things happen. So I am really pleased.
Those of you that do know me, know how much this does mean to me. Many of you that don't know me, would understand this in a general sense.
The above picture was taken 6 months ago....and that is when I embarked on this journey. I needed that time to gather what I wished to do and to be my own self without any regard to anyone except me, myself, and I.